Disclaimer: I don't own Evangelion or any of the characters in the series, GAINEX and Anno-sama do. If I did own them I wouldn't be broke now would I?

Authors Note: Please be nice when u read this story, it's my first published fanfic and I'd prefer to not be flamed about how much it sucks. This story is a post-impact fic but, it's also AU in the fact that its set 2 years after third impact and many of the characters are slightly OOC (mainly Asuka). Don't forget to R&R!

Thoughts are in italics

Dialogue is in normal font

The problems of a 16 yr old God

Prologue: If they only knew….

-----------------------

"Where am I?" asked the boy known as Shinji Ikari.

"Shinji-kun, do you want to become one with me? Of one body and soul? It could be rather… Nice" asked the monotone voice of Rei Ayanami.

No…not this again. I don't want to remember this….

"Hey baka. Don't you wanna become one with me? Of one body and soul? It could be really awesome…" asked the snide, smug voice of one Asuka Langley Soryu.

NO! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT!

"What about me shinji-kun? Don't you want to be become one with me? Of one body and soul? You know you want to…" asked the buxom purple-haired Misato Katsuragi.

No…NO, I AM THE PERSON I WANT TO BE! I AM ME! I AM SHINJI IKARI! WHY CAN'T EVERYONE ACCEPT THAT!

"…because you have to accept first before anyone else does"

What? Mother? Is that you?

Suddenly, the monstrous face of the devil itself, Evangelion unit 01, appeared before him.

"I'm not your mother shinji." Replied the beast.

With that EVA unit 01's head lunged forward and severed shinji ikari in two.

---------------------

"AAAAHHHHHH" Shinji screamed as he jerked awake from his horrific nightmare.

"MEIN GOTT, WHAT IN THA HELL WAS THAT!" yelled the voice of a currently pissed and sleepy Asuka soryu. "ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND SHINJI-BAKA!"

Shinji never heard the red-head german girl's voice though. The only thing he could hear were the thoughts and memories of all the people that died during, and just before third impact, the same people that he'd brought back in to existence after he had become as powerful as god.

"Why am I hearing these things! What the fuck is going on!" With that final thought shinji passed out.

"Hey shinji-kun it's me. What's wrong in there kiddo?" asked misato from outside shinji's door When the purple haired major heard a light thump sound and no reply from her young charge, she decided to open the door with out shinji's permission.

"Shinji-kun what was that….SHINJI-KUN!" misato screamed as she opened the door only to be greeted with the sight of her charge curled up into a ball, unconscious.

"ASUKA GET IN HERE! SOMETHING'S WRONG WITH SHIJI-KUN!" yelled the now dismayed major as she rushed to shinji's side "SHINJI-KUN CAN YOU HEAR ME? PLEASE WAKE UP! SHINJI!"

Little did Misato know that this was the first of many strange and horrifying events to come...

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Authors Note: Wow the feed back I'm gonna get is gonna be cruel I think… That kind of sucked, but give me a break. I'll get better as I go along. And if your wondering, yes this story will be S x A soon enough. I have to work it around shinji's new mental problems (oh there will be many problems in his twisted little brain). Until the next chapter. Oh and don't forget to R&R. I need all the help I can get…