A Light In The Dark

Chapter 5

"Don't be afraid," she whispered against his mouth. It was strange for her to be the one telling him not to fear, but it was frightening for him as he felt his body give in to something deeper than lust. Finally, he kissed her back on the lips. It was a deep kiss, full of passion and long unfulfilled longing. Both knew in that instant that this was always meant to be, and they were relieved to finally give in to it.

Violet knew the consequences would be dire. She was making herself completely vulnerable to this man who was in all actuality, her mortal enemy.

Olaf didn't dare think of the consequences. This is going nowhere good he thought to himself. He had never openly made himself vulnerable to someone, how strange it was that of all the lovers he'd ever had, this girl was the only one who actually made him weak. And he didn't want to hurt her, he actually cared. He was usually rough, selfish and unrelenting with women but he couldn't be like that now. He had to get her away from him, before he did something unforgivable.

"What are you doing Violet? Take a step back and consider this. I am the man who took you from your parents, I am the man who abused and imprisoned you and your siblings, and I am the man who has killed your beloved guardians. Why are you kissing me? You should be running from me."

"I won't pretend I'm not scared of you. But I can't deny that I care about you." Before she could react he grabbed her by the jaw and forced her face very close to his.

"You care about me? All right then. Show me how much you care. Show me how such a kind and beautiful thing like you could ever care for a heartless bastard like me."

Despite the painful death grip he had on her jaw, she reached out and caressed his cheek. He dropped his hand, which she caught and touched to her heart. Again he was caught off guard by her gentleness and he felt himself breaking. She leaned forward and kissed him, but his lips remained rigid beneath hers.

"I care." She whispered softly in his ear. He was practically trembling now.

"Why?"

"I guess its because I see myself in you. I don't like to see anyone hurt. Not even you."

"But I will hurt you. You know I will."

"I don't care. You hurt because it is all you know. I know- you are dangerous but you were right about what you said that night. I don't want a heroic prince charming. I want you."

"And I need you." He said in a raw broken voice. She didn't resist as he removed her nightgown, and she didn't pull away as he kissed her from her hairline to her little feet. This is what I wanted, this is what I needed. Oh-god I need him! She thought to herself.

"You'll live to regret this" he murmured against the hollow of her neck as he kissed her. She knew he was right, but she was clouded now, drunk on the closeness of him. When she began tearing at his clothes, not knowing what she was doing, she acted on instinct alone.

The feel of her tiny hands on his body nearly sent him over the edge, and he helped her finish the task of removing his pants.

"Are you sure you want this? You can still run. I'll give you a head start this time."

"I want it." She replied to him, knowing she really had no other choice. Olaf took her in his arms and laid her down on his bed. He moved on top of her and gazed down.

"No turning back now." He said as he kissed her again on the mouth.

Violet did just what she had said. She gave herself to him, completely to his hands, his touch, and his kisses. But for one brief moment she panicked, afraid and unsure

"Oh-no please." She begged.

"To late" he hissed in her ear, but pleasure replaced pain and she stared up at him. His eyes locked with hers as the bed rocked beneath them. He was so powerful and so completely in control, but ironically, she felt safe completely at the mercy of this man who had destroyed her life. When it was over and she lay curled up against him, she knew he had finally given her something, but it wasn't enough. She wanted his soul.

And he wanted hers; it was all he had ever wanted. But she wasn't going to give it to him for nothing in return. He was trying so hard not to give in, but he could not deny that the intimacy they had just shared was the sweetest thing he had ever known. Part of him wanted to hold her and tell her how much she meant to him, and the other part wanted to go on hurting her.

Violet fought the same battle within herself. She loved him and she feared him all at once. But her heart was filled with so much compassion that she couldn't help but reach out to this broken human being. But she still hated him for the horrible things he had done to her.

Love and hate, the two most passionate emotions, and they felt them both for each other.

"What now Violet?"

"I don't know."

"Are you going to leave? You know you are free now."

"My siblings and I are free to go?"

"Yes, I said I'd do anything you wanted."

"What about the fortune?"

"To hell with the fortune. Tonight, I finally got what I really wanted. It wasn't my original intent, but my obsession with your money ended with another."

"Oh I see. So you want me to leave then?"

"I see no reason why you shouldn't."

"Do you want me to leave you?"

"Why would I care?"

"That's no answer." Violet sat up and took his face in her hands, forcing him to look her in the eye.

"Are you free of me?" she asked.

"Are you free of me Violet?" No, Violet thought to herself. She had thought that after giving in to him it would be over. She had hoped it would bring closure and help her to forget Olaf, but she knew now that he would continue to haunt her long after tonight.

"No. I never will be." If her words had any effect on him at all he did not show it. He refused to be made vulnerable again, so he reverted back to his former tactic of coldness.

"Well I'm sorry you feel that way darling, but you, I am sorry to say, mean nothing more to me than any other whore I'd pick up on any corner." His words cut her like a knife. Violet gathered the covers around her and went to retrieve her nightgown. Dressed, she walked to the door and turned to ask him one last time.

"Do you want me to leave you?" She stared at him for a long time, waiting for an answer. She watched him get up, dress, and walk slowly over to her. Something had changed in him. She shivered when he took his face in her hands and said,

"No Violet. Never leave me. I love you with all of my soul."

He made him look at her, and wiped the tears from her cheeks.

"If you ever leave me Violet, I will follow you. No matter where you go, no matter what you do I'll find you. I'll haunt you for the rest of your life my love."

Well its finished :) I know the story fell apart a bit, but I hope it wasn't too bad. I'm already making plans for my next Violaf fic. Keep an eye out for it ;) oh and maybe I'll write an epilogue for this, so stay tuned for that too. I want to thank all my loyal reviewers. You guys really helped me out. I'll always take constructive criticism where I can get it, and I also really appreciate all the kind words and encouragement. Don't stop reviewing! I'll keep checking back for more advice.