Title: Shrouding Life
Author: Azurana K. or formerly known as ccs.ak-soma4
Summary: They all thought of her as a worthless idiot, looked down at her and disgusted her. After 3 years of the same treatment she finally, but secretly broke down. Then her life just started to shroud into a deeper critical state until it couldn't anymore…Who will save her from the veils of her heart?
Chapter 4: A Relative
"I won't allow you.
You can't have her, no one else can.
Now that Yuki is out of the way I won't allow anyone else to steal her away again.
I can't stand seeing her suffer.
You had your chance before but you just let that chance go…"
"Damn it Yuki, how could you do this to me? You knew how I felt back then. You promised you wouldn't do the same thing to me as they did. You of all people knew what I had gone through. You promised me that you wouldn't be at ease without me. Darn it why'd you have to lie? You shouldn't have promised anything, so it wouldn't be this painful. I knew that I shouldn't have quite believing the saying love comes and goes so it wouldn't have been so much painful. Darn it, I shouldn't have believed in love again. It's all just a joke, everything just a lie. Then if it is so, when will it end?"
Mikan was still crying and shouting, screaming out things at the corner of the room, not noticing that a couple of people had already arrived in time to witness the oldest Andou's death and her desperate ramblings.
Natsume watched in pain as Mikan acted unlike her old usual self. But most of all he was in pain when he heard her cries, especially the last words of the older Andou. Yet, of coarse it was not evident in his face. He looked as if he was only looking bluntly at Mikan's way.
Natsume was not the only one who looked at the scene in the same point of view, but there were also Ruka and Tsubasa. The others looked as if they were already ready to pounce on the girl and hug her at anytime soon, and they were about to when Persona suddenly entered the room. He walked passed them as if they weren't even there and took Mikan out of the room in one swift motion carrying her like a bride.
They stared in wonder as Persona carried Mikan out of the room.
Natsume was now in a total reverie. Thinking to himself that after a couple of months without him by her side there were already so many things that happened to her. Especially having Andou Yuki, a guy he treated with respect, as a lover. Not only that but this afternoon, after almost 4 months of not being able to see her, he saw her again but then her face, her expressions and her eyes...she was so much in pain. Today seemed to revolve too much around her, it gave him a headache…..
A couple of minutes have past since Persona left the building and at last someone has finally came out of that long and entiring reverie, and that person was Imai Hotaru.
"…" She didn't say anything. She just looked at her three companions in the eyes, as if giving them a signal that they must already leave. She went out of the room first and waited for Natsume to lead.
Natsume, to the three of them was a leader. Even the cold and bossy Hotaru gave in to him, impossible right? But don't get me wrong, Imai would never fall for him. She just has her utmost respect for him as leader and a person, but nothing else.
I know, that may have sounded so strange and out of character. But you see, after the faithful day of the "Separation" (A.N. – ak: The term they used when they spoke of the day Mikan was separated from them –A.K.A. - the first day of middle school.) came, he still remained strong. He never gave up and broke down, not a single tear shed. But they all knew it hurt him more than it did to them, yet he was still able to rise up. They have never imagined him to still be mentally capable, but he still was. He made them feel that they still had a chance to survive even without Mikan. But that did not mean that they did not need her. No matter how strong their wills were they could never live like they normally would use to without her by their sides.
Although there was one thing he couldn't teach them. And that was to give up their prides and ask for forgiveness from Mikan….
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Tsubasa and Misaki were the only one's know who were left inside Yuki's room. Tsubasa was still at shock that his brother had a relationship with a lower classman and the worse part of it all was that Mikan was that person. He also felt a despairing feeling inside of himself that yearned for his brother, who he almost never talked to. But there was a much deeper feeling that burned within him and he knew that that feeling was very much immoral and inappropriate, so after he tried to erase all deep thoughts and feelings inside of him, he woke Misaki back to reality and they also went out of the hospital like the others.
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Persona, with Mikan on his arms, has at last arrived in Mikan's room. He laid her weeping form on the bed and said the most soft and caring words that he could ever muster. He then left her with a soft kiss still lingering on her cheek.
'This isn't fair; you told me you'd be with me forever. You lair, Yuki, I hate you. I hate you so much, because I love you too much. It hurts, I didn't want you to go before me. I hate you so much, but I hate myself more…
'I hate how much you cared for me. I hate how you'd do anything for me. I hate the way you say that it's alright. I hate how much I meant to you. I hate how much you think about me. I hate how many times you'd kill just to make me happy. I hate how you'd give me the world to make me happy. I hate how you gave me so much hope. I hate how much I burden you. I hate what you do just because it's for me. But most of all I hate you for going of somewhere forever that I am not in…
'Yuki I told you I'd never leave your side. I told you I would always be there for you. I told you until you were happy I would always be by your side…But you told me you'd never go on without me. You lied, but don't worry I won't break my promise. I told you I wouldn't die until you were already happy and content with your life, and since you are now, I should already die…' Mikan thought to herself as she hugged the small box Yuki had just given her.
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Hotaru, Ruka and Yuu were already in their respective dorm rooms and Natsume was the only one left among their sorrowful group of friends. He was walking slowly to his room not caring at all if it was already past the whole academy's curfew. But then instead of entering his room, he went pass it and headed towards the stairs. He climbed up and reached the place where he could find Mikan's one-star dorm room. He was already heading for her room and before he could even get close to the door a figure appeared. The figure was clad in black and since he always seems to see this figure quite often in the night, he wasn't surprised.
"What are you doing here Natsume? It's already past the academy's curfew. I don't remember giving you a mission concerning anything here…" Persona said with his usual sly, hollow and taunting voice.
"…"
"Well then if you have no business here, then you should leave."
"I need to see her…" He whispered to himself.
"What?"
"I need to see her. I need to talk to her. I can't stand it when I see her like this. I need to see her smile; I just want to see her…" He whispered louder.
"…"
"I need to see her." Natsume said in a louder yet more stubborn voice.
"I won't allow you. You can't have her, no one else can. Now that Yuki is out of the way I won't allow anyone else to steal her away again. I can't stand seeing her suffer. You had your chance before but you just let that chance go… Just go back to your room Natsume and leave her be…" Persona said as he walked out into the darkness.
Natsume was a bit taken aback of what Persona said and when he gained back his posture he placed his hand on Mikan's door and sighed. His hand slid off the surface of the wood as he walked away towards his room.
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Persona was now going to the most secluded part of the academy. It was where the headmaster would usually be in. It was only known to exceptional teachers, important staff members and one student.
It was a white huge mansion. It looked as if it was haunted. Even the toughest people who go here get the chills. Truth be told, the mansion doesn't look scary at all, it's just the aura being emitted from it, the owner's aura.
Persona entered the familiar place swiftly, like the shadow of darkness, passing through the highest form of security measures and at last arriving in front of two huge white doors. Persona knocked at the door softly and after hearing a low almost inaudible murmur of a 'yes', he entered the room.
The room was dark only lit by the light from the small fire of the huge fire place. There was someone sitting in the armchair in front of the fire and Persona quickly knelt in one leg.
"My Lord, the mistress is in a terrible mental state and since I haven't seen her in almost a whole month, it seems that she is also in an awful physical state… I have a bad feeling that she may actually do something irrational like kill herself…"
"What caused these?" Mikan's father said in a calm yet cold tone.
"The mistress is mentally unstable since her lover had just died, due to too much use of his Alice. While her physical injuries were probably caused by my half-younger brother Urabe Akito, my half-younger sister Urabe Miyami and my cousin Mimori Aisaka, and I also guess that there are more unknown people hurting her…"
"Persona, make sure that you investigate this matter thoroughly and that all of those people who are involved will be punished severely… And also tell Mikan that she will stay here starting the day after tomorrow. Before then keep a close eye on her…"
"I'll do as you wish, My Lord."
"Also, tell her that I have a mission waiting for her. She must come as soon as tomorrow night, do accompany her."
"I will do so, My Lord."
"You are dismissed…"
"Thank you, My Lord." Persona said bowing before he left.
When he was at last out of the mansion he made a sigh of relief.
"Good thing he was in his best mood…" Persona muttered to himself before he wiped the sweat in his forehead.
Author's Note-ak: This chapter is weird and it's shorter than usual. I hope you understand the so many errors and weirdness I made in this chapter, I was put into huge amounts of pressure in updating. I'm sorry if I took months to update. This will probably be my Christmas gift to all of you, but I know it's not much.
I'll also be editing all my chapters in this story since every time I read it it's as if I was going round in circles. So I won't be updating for a while until I haven't finished editing this whole story and it's chapters. I'll also change a couple of parts, please bear with me.
I also have another new and upcoming GA fic. The title is Ocean Façade, if you're interested in life or angst stories then read its first chapter. I'll be posting it in January 1, 2007, I hope. Take it as a New Years gift from me to you.
And to Tsubame, see I updated, ha! You taught that I had given up on this story, well you thought wrong.
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