Sam's Notebook
Sam's POV
Disclaimer: I don't own this show unless Butch decided to like, write a will and give it to me and I wasn't informed…. Oh, the poems are mine!
Ok, so ya, this is Sam's notebook where she writes all her inner most thoughts and stuff like that. It's from my actual notebook where I write poems and draw pictures and stuff so ya…
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I don't like diaries so, I keep a notebook. It's less cliché. My notebook is a deep purple and contains all my true feelings. My true feelings about Danny, my points of view, and why I am the way I am. I don't capitalize anything. I think it expresses things better lower case.
a single tear
a single tear
escapes my eyes
the eyes i've kept
dry so long
a single word
escapes my lips
the lips i've kept
silent for so long
a single breath
fills my lungs
the lungs i've kept
empty for so long
a single thought
crosses my mind
the mind i've kept
numb so long
a single tear
escapes my eyes
the eyes i've kept
dry so long…
That's the poem I wrote after the Ember incident. I felt so strange after that. I wanted to cry but I never did. Danny chasing after me like that shattered my whole world and made me cry, speak, breath and think after not doing it for so long.
the silent battle
the sun is setting
my time is gone
yet, forever,
the battle rages on
the horizon glowing
the peace settling
yet, forever
the silent battle rages on
I wrote that after I figured out that I was in love with my best friend and had to deny it on a daily basis. It nearly killed me.
sometimes i wonder
sometimes i wonder
what if i never saw
another sunrise
another sunset
sometimes i wonder
if the world can
tell black
from white
sometimes i wonder
if i hadn't cried
would you be here
of somewhere else
sometimes i wonder
if the sun never showed
would the feeling grow
or would it die away
sometimes i wonder
if the days never passed
would time stand still
or move on
sometimes i wonder
When I felt that if I had never felt something about Danny, I wrote that.
tomorrow is wednesday
or so i'm told
your lies are getting
really old
i can't wait
to slow this down
to run the gauntlet
right outta town
break the sound barrier
shatter it all
down to the ground
ceilings fall
the world is gone
its story's been told
fatality rate
increased ten fold
runnin' wild
runnin' free
hey no such thing as jealousy
forging money
and small white lies
on the floor alone
i cry
the lines been drawn
don't you dare cross over
seventy men
undercover
followed by the elements
taken over by the government
tracing shapes
with my fingers
falling down
in different colors
tension so thick
you could cut it with a knife
stars are falling so save my life
the is locked
i've thrown away my key
mental crisis
emotional breakdown
turn the camera to the left
take a picture so it can last
That one was supposed to be a song but I never got around to writing the music. I thought it explained the world today perfectly.
only a single spark
only a spark
a single spark
remains
it's all i'm left with
the rest are gone
gone with my imagination
with my life
with my tears
with my breath
gone with them
and i'm only left
with only a spark
a single spark
is the hope left
inside of me
That's how I feel about Danny. There's only a little bit of hope left inside of me that makes me believe that he might be able to love me like I love him.
if only you knew
if only you knew
how badly you were hurting me
i don't cry anymore
cause i have no tears left
everyday i pray
that you'll find this
and realize all you've ever done
but i'm aware that'll never happen
and that i'm going to walk away hurt
i'm never gonna get my fairy tale
my happy ever after
if only you knew
how badly you were hurting me
yes you
you are the one
who's hurting me
but i don't cry anymore
cause i don't care anymore
I wrote that after I swore that I would never love Danny because I thought he'd never realize that he was hurting me.
to be truly prepared
to be truly prepared
means to be able
to accept the worst
and the best
to want someone
to be happy
even if their happiness
does not include you
to be able to accept
the consequences
of your actions
to know the answers
to the questions
that can affect
your life
for the worse
only then can you be truly prepared
I wrote that after Danny said he needed to tell me something. It went like this…
Flashback:
I had been emailing Danny. He would have normally been using IM but, I don't have it. I sent him an email.
"Sorry I didn't email sooner, I was watching a movie." I had expected him to ask what movie I had been watching.
"That's ok, I need to ask you something"
"What?"
"You know that time Tucker dared you to tell me you loved me?"
"Uh huh."
"Well, did you mean it?"
Just as I was highlighting the message to reply, it scrolled down further than I had expected. At the very bottom of the email it said: "Because I love you too."
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Keep in mind that these were based off of real experiences so, don't shot me! I'm going to write a sequel or a new chapter explaining what happened after… Review please!
Dark Elf Angel