This story is TroyxRyan Slash!

I do not own High School Musical or any of the characters in it.

IT'S HARD TO BELIEVE THAT I COULDN'T SEE THAT YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE BESIDE ME

Narrator: Ryan Evans has always known he was gay. He's known it as long as he can remember. Ever since the school found out about it everyone has taunted, tortured, bullied, and even hurt him. But there was always that one person that kept Ryan going. Troy Bolton. The basketball guy, the guy that stole the role of Arnold in Twinkle Town, and the school's star athlete. Ryan has had a crush on Troy ever since elementary school. He knows he and Troy cannot be together and it hurts him everyday, but for some reason Ryan seems to go on. Sharpay (his twin sister) was self absorbed and selfish, but ever since the taunting and teasing started happening to Ryan, she's been doing the best she could to protect him. And the story begins here Ryan's senior year.

Ryan's P.O.V.

Sharpay was driving while I was sitting in the front seat. The school sure looks bigger. God I don't get what the point is? I might as well be dead. But Troy… Troy fucking Bolton. If only he was… No that will never happen. Why is it that every guy I end up falling for end up in ruins? I remember my last relationship. God what a horrible experience. His name was Daryn. All he ever wanted out of me was sex, sex, and more sex. I refused. I wasn't ready to lose my virginity to a sex hungered asshole. But why can't I have a sweet guy like Troy? He's so perfect… so beautiful. His tanned skin, shaggy brown hair, and his deep blue eyes. Why have I fallen so hard for someone who only sees me for a fag? Troy's never made fun of me for my sexuality and he's never really acknowledged me either. It's probably because Sharpay always scares him away. Don't get me wrong, I love my sister, but ever since I came out she's been overprotective of me. I guess it's pretty rare to see that side of Sharpay. "Hey you okay there?" Sharpay asked. My train of thought just crashed. "Oh I'm fine. Just thinking. And I guess I'm a little nervous since it's the first day of school and all." I said. "Well if anyone says anything to you or even touches you, you tell me and I will fucking kick there ass. Ryan I know I've been a little over protective of you, but ever since you came out and the way you've been treated,… well I just worry about you, I mean you're my brother and I just want you to be okay and safe." She replied. "I totally understand Sharpay, it's just, well… you know ever since I broke up with Daryn-" I replied, but Sharpay interrupted. "Ryan the asshole beat you when you refused to sleep with him! I had to fucking kick him in the balls when he tried to beat you for breaking up with him. Look I understand your lonely and I will do my best to try to help you out with that situation, but I think you should focus more on something else that doesn't involve relationships and whatnot. I'm only trying to keep you from getting hurt. "I understand that, but cant you see that I get hurt every fucking day! You don't know what its like to want something you cant have!" I yelled. "Want something you cant have? I don't understand?" Sharpay said. We pulled into the senior parking lot and Sharpay found a spot, then parked. Sharpay turned the ignition off. "Never mind. It's nothing." I mumbled. "Don't you dare! I know its something. What is it? Ryan tell me! I'm your freaking twin sister!" Sharpay yelled. "ughhh Just leave it." "No! Ryan spit it out now!" "I FUCKING LOVE TROY BOLTON OK!" I screamed. The car remained silent for about five minutes. The look on Sharpays face was kind of weird. It was a mixture of shock, worried, and scared. "Lets just go to class okay?" I said grabbing my things and getting out of the car. Sharpay got out too and locked it. We got to the front doors of East High. I pulled the handle and walked into the hallway. As Sharpay and I were walking down the hall to get our class locater everyone wouldn't stop staring. It was awkward and annoying at the same time. I could hear whispers saying "Look the Ice Queen and her loyal Faggot."We finally got to the office where out locaters where held and picked ours up. My classes were this:

1. Pre-Calculus

2. English Lit

(Free Period)
3. European History

4. Chorus

(lunch)
5. Drama advanced

I only have five classes since its senior year. The only classes Sharpay and I had together were 4th and 5th period. Oh well. The bell rings. Ugh I hate math, and its in the freaking morning! I walked in the direction of my first class waving bye to Sharpay.

Troy's P.O.V.

"Hey Troy! What are your classes?" Chad asked. God I cant stand him. All he ever does is talk crap on people. Especially homosexuals. If only I could tell somebody. I hate keeping this all to myself. I don't think I can keep this bottled up any longer. It's hard. "Troy? You still there man?" Chad asked again. "Oh sorry. Umm lets see my classes are:

1. Pre-Calculus

2. European History

(free period)
3. English Lit.
4. Chorus

(lunch)
5. Drama Advanced

"What? We don't have any classes together! Who am I going to cheat off of?" Chad freaked. Thank God. I don't think I could have been able to have any classes with him without screaming my lungs out. "Looks like your going to have to work for your grade." I said back. The bell rings. I headed towards my first class. I hate math. As I walked into my new 1st period the teacher said "Okay my children, since you are now all seniors… well most of you anyways, I will allow you to pick your own seats." And without thinking I walked to the back of the room and picked a desk. As I sat down I looked around to see who I was sitting by and to my right was Ryan. God he's so cute. I know he came out last year, but there is no way he'd ever date a guy like me. Plus I don't think I could take the pressure of everyone knowing that I'm gay. But he's so damn beautiful. Maybe I should get to know him. God why am I so nervous? Well here it goes…. "Hey Ryan. How was your summer?" I asked.

Ryan's P.O.V.

I picked a seat in the back of the class so no one would notice me. As I sat down Troy walked into the class. Great… It looks like I'm not going to be staring at the board this year. I chuckled to myself. And then and there Troy sat in the desk to my left. Oh god. And Troy looked at me and asked me "Hey Ryan. How was your summer?" "Uhh ummm it was uh.. It was great." I said. That was a total lie, but what else was I supposed to say? Oh and my ex-boyfriend nearly beat me to death for refusing his sexual needs. Ya right like he's open minded…. But then again he is talking to me… God he's so hot. I cant help it but stare into his eyes. "How was yours Troy?" I asked. "It was pretty boring. Basketball and singing. Interesting combination huh?" He said. I laughed. The bell rang again. And the teacher started to speak. It was weird, as soon as the teacher started speaking I just dozed off to sleep.

Troy's P.O.V.

God he looks so cute when he's sleeping. Maybe I should just ask him to hang out at lunch with me. I just want to get to know him better. No one said it was against the law to have a gay friend. Plus I might be able to help him climb back up the social ladder and stop all the teasing and taunting. And maybe I could have someone to talk to. Someone who can relate with me, maybe even possibly a a new boyfriend… or most likely best friend. It was about five minutes before the bell rang and Ryan woke up. I saw his class schedule and it looks like we have 1st, 4th, and 5th together. "It's about time you woke up. You practically missed everything the teacher said. Haha" I said to him. "haha yeah. Well who can stay awake this early in the morning… and in a math class?" Ryan said. "That's true. So it looks like we have a couple of classes together. Hey maybe we should hang out at lunch? Like me and you. There's something I really want to talk to you about. Meet me up in the science gardens on the roof okay?" I asked him. God that took every ounce of courage to ask. "Sure. Definantly." Ryan replied.

Ryan's P.O.V.

Did he just say that? I must be dreaming! I wonder what he wants to talk about? Who cares I'm going to be with Troy Bolton! But… but what if it's a set up? I guess I'll just have to take my chances. Bell rings. "Well I'll see you in 4th period. See ya later man." Troy said as he got up. "Bye…" Most of the day went by fast. As I was walking to the choir room I noticed Troy walked in. Why am I so nervous? It's singing. Troy and I hardly said a word to each other in that class. Probably because I was practically in Sharpay's shadow the whole time. But she didn't seem to notice the eye contact me and Troy were giving each other, actually no one noticed. Wow time sure goes by fast. There's about 3 minutes till lunch. Sharpay asked me "Hey how has you day been so far? Any jackasses I should know about?" "To be honest today has been fine. No teasing or bullying. Really most people have been really nice to me. I think I got one or two name callers, but nothing I can't handle." I told her. "Hey about what you said about you know who… Look Troy's a really nice guy, but I'm pretty sure he's straight though. Don't fall for him too hard. I'm sure he'd be friends with you though… He's been nice to me. He's in my 2nd and 3rd periods and we talked and he has nothing against gay people. The tone of his voice made me trust him." She said. "Ya he talked to me in first. I'm going to be gone at lunch. I'm going to talk to my Calculus teacher about some extra help if I ever get behind in math. You know its senior year and all and I don't want to fail. So I'm going to take any help I can get." I said hoping she wouldn't figure out I was lying. "Okay that's a good idea. Bell rings I guess I will see you in Darbus' class. Be careful hun." She said waving goodbye. And I started for the science gardens.

Troy's P.O.V.

Me and Ryan didn't talk much in chorus, but we made a lot of eye contact. Plus I didn't want to scare Sharpay into thinking I was kidding about our whole talk in 2nd and 3rd period. I hope she believed everything I said. It was all true too. About being open minded and helping Ryan climb the social ladder. She knows I still have the school wired and I can help stop a lot of the discrimination. And I'm going to do my best. For the guy that I am falling for. Ryan Evans. The bell just wrang… I guess I should make my way to the gardens. I don't want to keep Ryan waiting…

(End of Chapter One)

I know it was kind of slow, but there will be a sex scene or two…. Anyways this is my first story on fan fiction. Please review. Also I would like to thank a couple of people. I had a few inspirations and they are:

Dark Angel Kira

Disney-Kid

FallingWithGrace

sharpayxevans

This was my first story I put up here. Please review. Oh and I know its rated M, but there will be EXTREMELY GRAPHIC SEX SCENES LATER ON! Like soon! I hope you liked it!