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Title: "I Just Called To Say"

Theme #: 3. Hand phone; cell phone; mobile phone (a call from heaven)

Roy lay back on his bed and stared at the phone in his outstretched hand. He wanted to call Dick and hear the sound of his boyfriend's voice but he was almost sure that Dick would do exactly what Dick always did which was half listen to him while he poured over some case file or another. He would either half ignore the red-headed archer or he would reprimand Roy for calling him at the wrong time. Mr. Perfect Boy Wonder didn't want their friends knowing about their hushed little relationship. Part of it was for security reasons, the more people who knew they were together the higher the risk to both of them. That was Robin's logic for keeping the fact that they were together a secret. The Titans were their friends though, they should have been able to tell their friends shouldn't they?

He allowed his hand to fall to his side and the phone slipped from his limp grasp. Not being able to tell his team had set him apart from the other members of the Titans West team even more than he already had been. He had always been a bit of a loner. He wasn't like Robin, he couldn't just hide what he was feeling under a perfect mask. He needed his friendships to keep him grounded but his inability to talk to them about something that had become a major part of his life was eating at him.

He knew that Dick cared about him, he could hear the slight hints of emotion whenever they actually took the time to speak to one another but those moments were almost non-existent when Robin threw himself into a case or when he believed his team needed him. The team always came first, Roy had accepted that from day one. He had never tried to challenge Robin's focus on the team. He knew that if he did then the rare moments that he and Dick had together would cease to exist. He needed those rare moments when Dick would actually stop what he was doing and speak to him, perhaps even tell Roy that he loved him. Dick meant those words, he said them so rarely that Roy knew he meant them.

He raised the phone again and pressed the speed- dial button and raised the small instrument to his ear. He could feel the phone trembling in his hand as it rang; once, twice, three, two more times and it would go to voice mail, four.

"What?" Roy sighed sighed softly, realizing that he had obviously called at a bad time. The voice on the other end was Robin, not Dick, as Roy had been hoping.

"Hey."

"What do you need Roy?"

"I just called to say hi." He tried not to let the distress that he was feeling transfer through the phone. He knew that Robin would pick up on it, knew that it would upset the other boy.

"Look Roy I really don't have time to chat. I'm working on a case."

"I just..." He knew Robin had picked up on the fact that he was upset by this point. He knew the instant that Robin realized something wasn't quite right. When he spoke again the voice had changed. It became softer and laced with gentle emotion. It was the voice he had been hoping to hear when he first dialed Dick's number.

"Roy are you okay?" Relief surged through the archer's mind and he relaxed slightly. He could talk to Dick whereas talking to Robin almost always made him uncomfortable.

"Yeah I'm okay. I miss you. I just wanted to talk to you for a few minutes." Dick remained silent for a second as he internalized those words. When he finally spoke it was the voice that Roy loved, the voice that Dick used when he meant what he wanted to say. He sat up slowly and held the phone closer to his ear, not want to miss anything that Dick said to him. This was one of those rare moments that made him love Dick so much it hurt.

"I miss you..." The sound of an alarm sounding in the background on Robin's end of the line stopped his words.

"I have to go. I'll call you later." Just like that Dick was gone and the Robin that put his team above everything else was back and Roy knew that his call had been pushed to the back burner.

"I just wanted to tell you..." The line clicked dead before Roy was even able to finish his sentence. "that I love you." He finished the sentence aloud even if no one was on the other end to hear it. He finished it even as tears welled to his eyes and tracked down his cheeks. Just once he wanted to be important enough to Robin to come before the team. Roy stared down at his cell phone even as his vision blurred and a solitary tear fell from his cheeks to impact against the plastic screen. He didn't even realize that he had launched the phone at the wall until he heard the sickening crunch of plastic when it impacted.

The sound caused his head to snap upwards and he stared at the destroy device in frustration, not really caring that he now had to go through the hassle of getting a new phone with the same number so Dick wouldn't figure out what he had done. More tears continued to track down his face as he curled into a ball on his bed. His hands bunched in the sheets as he laid there sobbing. All he wanted was to come first, just once.