She went to sleep that night haunted by Nikolas...memories flooding her mind.

Flashback

"Looking for this?" he asked flinging the door open

"You might be able to stay away from me, but I can't stay away from you" he finished grabbing her face and kissing her.

She awoke with her heart feeling full...but there was still so much she needed to recover. She cringed at some of the memories...AJ and her wedding, the stripping...she could still hear Coleman drawl, "Daisy" out. Then there were the Jax memories...she remembered being happy with Jax...like the happiness one has with a friend. She couldn't remember why she had married him...she had loved him; just not in the way you should love someone you marry. One of the most painful memories was that of losing her baby...she remembered waking up in tears after and clutching her pillow...Jason's blue eyes staring at her. She was somehow scared that with the memory of Jason would come a sense of love...but it wasn't. Her heart ached for the baby they had lost...her little angel in heaven, but there were no residual feelings about him.

The only contact she had with home was phone calls with Matthew and letters to her father, Carly and Liz...but it was those moments with Matthew that her heart soared. Her miracle baby...he had touched her heart in a way she didn't know possible. He was like his father in that way...stole her heart in such a short amount of time. To be truthful to herself...they were still the two men that held her heart.

"Daddy, daddy...we got to go have mommy time" Matthew yelled at his dad.

Nikolas awoke from his daze confused, "Matty, baby you already talked to your mommy on the phone"

He thought back to the phone ringing...every night at exactly 4:30. He always had Alfred answer and then pass it to Matthew...sometimes the calls lasted fifteen minutes, or an hour. The calls killed him...to know she was so close. He fought the urge to run after her. Alexis had advised him not to from that first night explaining that he had to let Courtney sort everything out for herself. She would come back to him when she was ready...he hoped that was true...but if not at least his son had his mommy back.

"No daddy...beach time with mommy" he said dragging Nikolas out to their spot.

They hadn't been there since he found out Courtney was alive...

"Okay" he said following him.

When they got there Matthew stared at the ocean, "mommy says that even though we are on different sides of the world we are both looking at the same ocean"

Nikolas fought the tears as a memory barraged his senses.

Flashback

You know, I used to stand on the beach in Atlantic City and the Boardwalk was behind me and, you know, people were yelling and the music was playing, all sorts of noise everywhere. I used to look over the ocean and imagine all the beaches across the world. You know?...Pink-sand beaches and deserted beaches and the beaches with huge rocks and pounding waves. Just quiet, quiet beaches. No tourists, no cars, no screaming gulls.

Yeah, I used to walk along the shore of my family's island in Greece, too...out over the ocean and imagine all the other beaches that the ocean touched. And then I would go back in my house and read books on all the places that I wanted to visit one day.

You know, you and I come from two completely different backgrounds. Yet there we were on opposite ends of the world, looking out at the ocean, both dreaming the same dreams of all those faraway places.

Maybe our dreams came true.

His dream had come true when he found her...he can't say met because for years they were in the same circles...she was his ex wives ex sister in law...but somehow fate intertwined in a mobster's barn...and in a moment his whole life changed...he wouldn't give up on her...she would come back to him...she had to.

"I miss Aunt Courtney" Cameron said plopping down next to his mother in bed.

It was the third day she was knocked down with a stomach bug, "me too pumpkin...why don't you write her a letter and Patrick could send it out to her" she told him rubbing his curly top.

She thought about the blond haired, blue eyed woman she thought she hated...in Spain and then in Port Charles she had become one of her best friends. Patrick gave her the number to the clinic but she didn't want to disturb her. She felt for Nikolas...that lost look in his puppy dog eyes. They all missed her.

"How is my favorite wife" her gorgeous asked coming through their bedroom door.

"Eh" she muttered.

He smiled his dimples and held up a package, "I got chicken noodle soup from Kelly's"

As soon as she got a whiff of it she jumped from the bed and ran to the toilet.

"Baby, are you okay" he asked behind her rubbing her back.

She didn't know what this feeling was but she was in a bad mood, "no, I feel like crap"

He followed her into the room...lately she had been so tired, the mood swings and now this stomach bug...the wheels in his brain started to spin.

He sat behind her and began to rub her back...then he moved his hand to her breast.

"Ow Patrick what are you doing?" she asked swatting his hand.

"Are you breasts tender?"

"I am really not in the mood" she said pulling away.

"Are you pregnant?" he blurted.

Suddenly there was a silence in the room...

Courtney awoke with a startle hearing the phone ring.

"Hello" she answered sleepy.

"Courtney...it's Elizabeth...I didn't want to call you...but I needed someone to talk to...and I didn't know who else"

Courtney smiled wondering for a moment how Elizabeth had her had come from one place to here...first they were sorta friends, and then Jason happened...and then Nikolas...Liz was Emily's best friend it was natural for her to take an alliance...but something changed in Spain...or maybe it was before that. Liz was the first person Courtney admitted to aloud that she loved Nikolas.

"Hey, slow down...I'm glad you called...I miss you" the blond said happy over the phone.

"I missed you too...and now, now I just"

"Spit it out Liz"

"I'm pregnant"

The next day Courtney was on a plane home...home it was a funny word. Her first home had been Atlantic City, and then any place her mom dragged her for a new scheme. Now she had a home Port Charles, New York...but more specific than that...wherever they were.

She had only told Liz she was coming, and Liz even promised to keep it from Patrick...so when she saw her friends smiling face at the gate she felt calmed.

"Hey you" Liz said hugging her tightly.

Courtney smiled, "a little bun" she said touching Liz's tummy.

The brunette nodded as they started to walk.

"How is Patrick taking it?"

"Great...he is so excited, and Cam too...It just seems so sudden" she said.

Courtney could related...that is exactly what her and Nikolas were...sudden and so she spoke from her heart.

"Sometimes the things you least expect are the most wonderful"

She slept at the Metro Court that night swearing Carly to secrecy. But in the morning she was already itching to go visit two dark haired boys.

First she walked into Kelly's...her dad behind the counter making the teenage girl's laugh...she wished she had been able to be around him at that age...to grow up knowing the wonderful man her father was. Sure he had his flaws, but she never doubted for a second he loved her.

"Daddy" she said in a hoarse whisper.

"Princess" he said coming out of from behind the counter and kissing her forehead.

He had seen her briefly last time, but things were so muddled...until he started receiving the letters from Spain. Now he was just happy to see his little girl home.

"MOMMY" she heard from the front door of Kelly's as Matthew flung himself across the rooms and in your arms.

She hugged her little boy close to her chest, and saw Sam and Jason smiling from the doorway.

"Auntie Sam and Uncle Jason, my mommy is home!" he exclaimed.

She spent the afternoon with him...Sam and Jason leaving him in her care. She wanted to fit all the things she had missed out on in one day, but when he fell asleep on the ride to the toy store she called Jason to come and pick him up.

They met on the pier as he grabbed Matthew's body from the car.

"Tired someone out today?" he asked his blue eyes twinkling.

Courtney smiled at her first love, "I guess I did...I just wanted to do everything...you know"

Jason nodded and turned for the launch; before he went her turned around, "It was nice to see you again Courtney...I'm glad you came back...they need you" and then left.

"They need you...THEY need you..." kept playing in her head.

She decided to go to the one place she knew would help clear her head.

He had heard from Liz that she was back...but she hadn't called him. It hurt but her kept a quiet resolve...she was it for him and now that she was back he wouldn't lose her again. He went to the one place that would clear his head.

She walked up the stairs and flung it open; when it shut she heard the familiar click

"Damn" she said loudly realizing it locked.

"I never had them fix that" she heard a familiar voice say.

She spun on her heel wondering if she was just imagining him there...but there he was his shy smile on his face as he shifted his eyes to the ground and then back up to her eyes.

He never expected her to come here and maybe that was the point of it all...that somehow they always found each other.

"Back here again" she said the tears already coming into her eyes as she walked to the ledge to look over.

He watched her walk to the edge her blond hair blowing lightly in the wind. He had the urge to touch her...instead he walked up and stood beside her.

"Why didn't you call to tell me you were back" he asked low voice the pain evident.

She fought the tears, "I don't want to disrupt your life Nikolas...you have Maxie now, and"

She tried to walk away but he grabbed her arm softly and spun her to him, "Stop...I'm not with Maxie...I was...but Courtney it's you...it's always been you" he said cupping her cheek and wiping the tear that had escaped from her eye.

"You don't have to say that just because I am back and"

He decided talking would get them nowhere as he cupped her face and crashed his mouth upon hers. They do say actions speak louder than words.

When they broke she was breathless but she didn't know what to say...she didn't want him to be with her out of obligation.

He sensed her trying to push him away and he whispered begging, "don't think...just love me back"

"I never stopped" she said there foreheads touching and honesty spilling forth.

Six Months Later...

"And I now pronounce you man and wife; you may kiss the bride" the priest said standing in front of the beaming duo.

The kiss was cut short by a loud ewww coming from their son and then a cry of pain.

Everyone suddenly shot to Liz the size of a house in her bridesmaid dress...and it was confirmed with a, "I think it's the baby"

Instead of a reception the whole wedding part sat around in the cafeteria eating the food from the caterers.

Two hours later

Patrick walked through the doors, "It's a girl" he yelled loudly.

Everyone made their way to the nursery to look through the window.

A half an hour later everyone was gone but Nikolas and Courtney. They headed to the hospital room as Nikolas knocked quietly.

They opened the door slowly and walked in on the new mom, dad and baby cuddled on the bed.

"Hey" Liz beamed at them.

They walked over and Courtney sat on the edge of the bed. As the woman oohed and aahed over the baby Patrick and Nikolas went outside to find some coffee.

"Can you believe we are here now?" Liz asked the other woman.

Courtney smiled brightly, "what on my wedding day in your hospital room with yours and Patrick's new baby...nope"

"Me either"

Liz continued, "I've always believed in fate...but this past year everything that has happened...it just taught me so much...Nikolas never gave up...you were never far from his heart...it's inspiring"

Later that night...

Courtney lie in his arms after making love.

"Thank you" she whispered

"For what" he asked stroking her hair.

"For loving me"

"I never had a choice in the matter...from that moment in Alcazar's barn...we were meant to be...our love has no ending...true love never dies..."

Fin

A/N: It's the ending! I kinda wanted to cry writing this, and then I wanted to cry when I couldn't think of an ending...I hope it wasn't too cheesy! Anyway thanks to everyone who has read and reviewed...you guys all have made my day so many times. Until next time my Nicoholics!