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Keep Your Heart Broken

Chapter Eleven: Worthy Trust

"I'm sorry..." He whispered as tears kept flowing down his face. "I'm sorry...I never meant for any of this to happen..I'm so sorry..." he apologized with sheer regret as he hugged her tighter.

She stood still as the warmth of his body surrounds her. She was at a lost of words and couldn't really understand what was happening. Thoughts of every single scene for the past years came rushing to her in a second, their childhood days, her relationship with Tsubasa and it just took over her. For that single second she remembered how much she hated him for leaving and hurting her. And with a blaze of utter resentment she used the little ounce of strength left in her and pushed him away again.

He couldn't blame her for how she reacted. Although he couldn't deny how much it stung like hell. And as if on cue, lightning strike was heard but not even that could shake the silence that was soon to follow.

Enfolding your love in my heart

By the dawn I'll be gone…

The clock stroke midnight and lightning strikes followed the silent album playing inside the room. Two cups of coffee on the table was still steaming hot, still emitting its own vapor.

The young blonde was now asleep, his head in the security of his arms as he laid them both on the table. She noticed that every once in a while he would turn his head and smile, appearing to be dreaming and inspiring her next great invention. As much as she wanted to begin her work for this new project she couldn't help but smile at the view. And with a spark of mischief she pulled out her handy dandy camera and took a picture of the sleeping beauty.

A little disturbed with the flash, it caused him to shift a little and hide his face again. And to much of her dismay, the view was now out of sight. Still, finding no reason to do anything else than sit there and wake him up and kick him out she couldn't push herself to do it.

"I finally found the reason."

Irking her curios nerve and with an exasperated sigh, thoughts of possible reason why she couldn't stop of thinking of that flooded her thoughts and all the possibility pointed to Romantic Interest. She couldn't deny it and so in a desperate attempt to disregard the thoughts drank the two cups of coffee.

After drinking the two cups, stood up and stared at the silk blonde filled head of his and unconsciously gripped on the fully developed picture of him in her pocket. And with a sigh, she made her way to her bed and ended up rememberin him more than she wanted to, more than she thought she wanted to anyway.

"Can you help me with Natsume and Mikan?" he asked her in a hushed tone.

"Oh my little devious animal caretaker, in what way do you ask of my help?" She asked him in her own monotonous voice although her eyes did spark of mischief and amusement.

"You know what I'm talking about." He answered back in an irritated tone.

"Yes, I do." She replied with only interest to annoy him.

"So what's the price?" He asked quickly knowing fully well you can't get her to do anything without payment. Nothing's for free when it comes to her.

And in an instant, she pulled out a calculator and estimated the probable expense this could cause her and of course, the included service charge as well.

Before she could say, they were interrupted by Natsume's voice and like instinct decided to continue on later. And ended up agreeing that they should just meet later at Hotaru's lab.

She turned her head to check what time it is and discovered it was already past one, and they still had not agreed on a price. And remembered how the rain and lightning strikes interrupted their negotiation.

"I finally found the reason…"

There it was again, and all she could do was let out an exasperated sigh in anger. Resting her head on her pillows and staring at the ceiling thinking and pondering on thoughts regarding the blonde in the chair and her bestfriend.

"Mikan…" He unconsciously whispered.

And there it was, on cue-lightning strike, and a knock on the door. In a fit of jealousy maybe, she sat up and threw a pillow at the sleeping lad waking him up and making him fall face flat on the floor.

"Get the door."

You promise to swallow

your tears when I leave you

You promise to follow the leads

I will give you...

"N-natsume, I can't." She whispered after the awkward silence.

And in a sign of defeat, he gave in to his legs and dropped to the ground and rested his back on the tree.

"If only you knew Mikan, how much I regretted everything, if only—"His rant was interrupted with her furious and shouting voice.

"If you told me then-then none of this would have happened!" She interrupted back as loud as she could. "Dammit Natsume, what did you expect?!"

The lightning couldn't even level with how loud her voice and the anger it emitted.

He saw the hurt in her eyes and wanted to do everything in his power to take it all away but he understood what she meant. He understood how much he deserved everything heading in his way tonight.

"I-I told you I was going to wait for you, I waited long enough to realize you didn't even care about me! And now after all these years you come back to me tonight to tell me that! And as much as I want to say the same thing, I'm not even sure if it's worth it."

He lit up at those last words and stood up.

"Mikan, I did everything in my power for this school not to kill you, for Persona to not lay a single finger on you, for anyone else to hurt you. And for all of that I ended up hating myself for leaving you, for not telling you every single day of every single truth that I hid from you!" He exclaimed in regret.

She still couldn't understand what the hell he was explaining to her, and so just allowed him to continue.

"I Love you! And I can't lie about that as much as I was forced to! If I didn't they would have killed you! And I can't live with that." He exclaimed in a final breath and fainted.

"Natsumee!!"

You said you would crawl

in the dark from the laugher

You said you would long

After me ever after….

Ruka ruffling his blonde hair in irritation with the actions of the raven haired goddess on the bed could only obey and open the door. He turned the knob and was shocked to see the people on the other side.

"Ruka?" asked an exhausted female voice.

"Mikan?" asked Hotaru from the bed.

Seeing the man on her shoulders, he quickly took him over his own weight and gently dropped him on the bed. Extremely worried of the state of his best friend and the fact that they are both wet from the rain didn't know what to do.

He began pacing from right to left, from across the room to the other and back.

"What happened?" Hotaru asked the shaking girl now sitting on the chair with a towel around her.

"He fainted." She whispered, surely out of strength.

"We need a doctor now!" Ruka reacted with concern and with speed of light ran through the rain for help.

"What else happened?" Hotaru asked realizing there was more to the story.

"He told me he loved me."

Just promise to keep you heart

Broken…

"Mr. Nogi, I advise that you and your friends get some sleep too. You are all very tired as well. We will make sure nothing happens to your friend." The Doctor advised with a smile.

"Can we just stay here a little longer?" He asked desperately; still very worried for the state of the other.

"Of course, but only one person can stay for the night." He replied and left the group alone.

"Ruka? Can I stay just for tonight?" Mikan asked upon the doctor's leave; a little bit embarrassed upon the request of course but she was worried as much as he was and maybe even more.

"Of course Mikan, and don't worry the doctor assured me he was going to be alright." He replied with a smile, comforting them both that everything was going to be alright.

He then watched Mikan enter the room with a faint smile and couldn't help but sigh.

"You don't believe the doctor do you?" Hotaru asked in a whisper, out of the blue.

"Yeah." He agreed with a sigh as they both watched Mikan through the window.

"Need help going home?" He asked her.

"Sure"

Days pass by like the wind,

And this life is too short…

"I'm sorry Natsume, I didn't know what to say." She whispered in defeat knowing fully well she wasn't going to receive a reply. In exhaustion, let out the tears she's been keeping.

"You might not believe me but I still love you." She whispered taking hold of his hand.

"I trust you now...that you were telling the truth." She continued on. "Just don't die. Please." And with that laid her head on his bed and let the tears take over her.

"I wont." She heard and thinking it was just her dream ignored it. But she was surprised when a hand lifted her head and stared in to those crimson orbs and then and there…

Shared their second kiss that day.

One day I'll come back

if the door´s still open
Just promise to

keep your heart broken

And he made his way to visit her upon hearing what happened to Natsume. Knowing fully well he wasn't really unwanted but he just wanted to know if she was okay and planning to surprise her he first checked through the window if she's still awake.

Only to find out how much he really was unwanted….

"Trust my arse!"

P.s.

Sorry, could someone seriously tell me the color of their eyes, I mean mainly the four characters cause I seriously don't know how to describe them. Yes, that is something to be frowned upon since I do consider myself as a Gakuen Alice addict. (TT)

And as a compensation for my long update, I mainly focused on Natsume and Mikan this time, let them have their moment. It might take me a long time to update again. :( Yeah, i know but if ever inspiration strikes I shall update immediately. :)