Authors note: Hey thanks for the reviews and I'm glad there's people reading still. I'm sooooo sorry I haven't posted I was having really horrible writers block I knew how I wanted it to end but didn't know how to put it into story, but I watched my Instant star DVD's and it came to me and thanks for waiting. Yes I'm sad to say this is my last authors note for this story, and the last chapter and I hope you LOVE it. Also for anyone who's read I Hit the Floor I might post on that one and also all my other stories but any way last chapter and I want to say thank you to all my fans of this story especially the ones who read it from day one. Well Here I go.
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Chapter 13:The End With a Shock
A week had pasted since the memorial service and everything was getting back to normal. Jude was back in the studio but not to record, Darius had been working on the third Instant Star and she decided to help out. She would occasionally look in at the studio and listen to the others but she never went into studio A, Tommy was the same way it had to many memories of Quest so they avoided it. Jude was slowly entering her and Quests house; she had been staying with Tommy and Sadie. Tommy and Sadie had decided to spend some time apart so Sadie went back to the states and Tommy stayed. A part of his heart longed to be with Jude but the other part told him it was wrong she was not in a good state and she loved Quest. It was 12:00 P.M. and Jude had just put Aqua down and she was talking to Tommy in the living room.
"Hey how is she doing?" Tommy Aqua like she was his own he was always there for both her and Jude.
"She's ok now I think she was having nightmares." No Jude that's you remember.
"So how are you doing?" She is doing a lot better compared to what she was before I think.
"I'm ok I mean it's kind of scary being back here I still can't go into our bedroom but I'm making progress." If you call progress touching the doorknob.
"Listen Jude if you need anything you know you can call me ok." I really wish she would open up to me.
"I know. You want anything to drink?" I could use a bottled of wine.
"No I'm good. Listen Jude I know we have had are share of problems in the past when it comes to me and you but I think it's best that we sit down and talk about it." I hope I'm doing the right thing.
"Tommy can we please not bring up the past all of those painful memories are too much." Why is he doing this now?
"No Jude we should really get this over with, please for me." Why do women always go for that "for me" stuff?
"Ok but let's not dwell on the past to long. Where do you want to start?" Hopefully at my wedding and ending at my wedding.
"Well I would like to speak first without any interruptions from you." I know that will be hard.
"Fine but I can't make any promises." Hell yeah I'm gonna interrupt.
"Ok then I think we should start at the beginning when I kissed you. I know that I never got a chance to explain so I'm going to. That day meant a lot to me, not just because it was your birthday but because it was the first time in a long time that you and I actually hung out again the way it was before Shay. So I wanted it to be special and I knew that you wanted me to get along with Shay and believe me for you girl I would have tried, but I didn't like Shay not because I didn't trust him or because I thought he was a liar or a jerk, it was because he had the one thing I couldn't. He had you and that was what upset me the most. I knew I loved you at that point you were the girl for me but you were 16 and I was 22 so it could never happen.
I want to clear that up you know the whole "She's 16 and I'm not that kinda guy" thing. I know you knew." Bet she didn't know I knew.
"You knew, how did you know I heard?" I only told Kat unless he saw me but if he did he wouldn't have said anything right?
"Before I took you on your driving lesson you played the song for me I believe you said "time to be your only one" and then when you recorded it you said "Time to be your 21." And I remembered Quest asked me if you were 21 and I said..."
"In a split second. But if you knew why didn't you say something?" Man he's confusing me.
"We weren't talking and I didn't want to remind you of the hurt I caused on birthday, so I kept quite. Any way when I saw you in the alley I just wanted to hold you in my arms and take the pain away but I couldn't so I just listened and then you started ranting and I kissed you. I kissed you because you were talking about how no one wanted to date you and I wanted to convince you that it wasn't true, that you were wonderful and beautiful and I couldn't answer those questions because I wasn't one of those guys. I know it wasn't the best method but I wasn't thinking at the time so I kissed you and it was the best kiss I ever had. Any way that's how I felt." I wish I had told her this sooner.
"I wish it was easier you know, to say I understand why you did it at the time but honestly now it's different you chose Sadie." That's what I kept telling myself at least.
"About that, that day when you asked me what I wanted and could I make up my mind, my mind was already made up. It was you but I kept telling myself that Sadie was smart, and funny, and beautiful, and that she was 18, but my heart told me you were everything and more except for 18 and that that was the best decision for both of us. You and I could never be because you were 16. So I chose Sadie and over time I convinced myself to love her and she convinced me that if I really wanted to get over you then I would have to move on and I did, but it didn't work. I still loved you. And then the whole wedding thing she asked me what I thought about getting married and I felt obligated to either let her go and long for you or to move on completely and I chose the easy way out. I want you to understand anytime I did something concerning my feelings for you I chose the easy way out because I was scared.
Well the day I found out about you and Quest I was pissed I'll admit but not at you or him, because I told you to move on and you did and I couldn't except it. I was mad though and the thing was I kept thinking I'm not mad at you or Quest but at myself for being scared and dumb. I mean I loved you I knew I did but I had never seen you and Quest together so I couldn't say at that time I knew how deeply he felt for you, but I knew that when he said he loved you I knew it was true. And I was mad because I felt like he loved you more than I could and I was mad because he wasn't scared, and I was mad because he was willing to be with you despite the age difference and I wasn't. So in the end I realized that I loved you and that I always would, but I realized that Quest was IN love with you and always would and it was my fault because I pushed you away, I ran from love and from my heart, and away from you because I was afraid that if I loved you, you would get hurt or we would get caught but he wasn't." That was the hardest thing I ever had to do but I'm glad I did it, and wow she stayed quite.
"I wish I knew what to say, but I don't. I mean I gave you my heart repeatedly and you threw it back so I did what you said I moved on and for the first part me and Quest were close as friends because he loved Sadie and I loved you so we figured that we would wait until I turned 18 and you left Sadie for me and Sadie went back to Quest we just thought we were wasting our time but we weren't we fell in love and it's something I never regret." I can't believe I'm talking about Quest and I'm not crying wow progress.
"I know and I'm happy for you and I want you to know I didn't tell you this in hopes that you would come running back to me but so you know that all the times I hurt you it had nothing to do with you but everything to do with me." God I hope she knows how much she means to me.
"Thank you Tommy I really appreciate that. I use to think sometimes why couldn't Tommy be like Quest and not be afraid to love me but I guess in the end it all worked out. So what are you and Sadie going to do?" I still don't know if I want them together I just want him to be happy.
" Well she sent me the papers and a note that says no hard feelings so." Weird I never thought of her as the type of person that new how to draw such papers.
"Oh Tommy I'm so sorry." I think
"Oh no she sold the house we've been trying to sell are house, she's coming home for good we're going to work it out." I think I'm ready to work on our marriage now.
"Oh well that's good, I'm kinda tired." I wonder how comfortable that couch is.
"Well I guess that's my que to go then. See you tomorrow." I should get some sleep confessing your love to a person who moved on is tiring.
"Hey wait, can I just lay my head in your lap like we used to?" I miss that that was nice.
"Anything for you girl." I miss that I loved rubbing her hair it was always so soft.
"Wow you haven't called me that in a long time, I miss that." I miss my best friend and Quest and my music, it seems like I lost it all when I lost Quest.
"Well I will never stop calling you girl even when you're fifty. How does that sound?" Tommy was rubbing Jude's hair as she slowly drifted off to sleep.
"Sounds good. I had this dream the other night and in it I was in a field and I was hanging close to dry and I had a a little girl and she was running in and out of the clothes and she fell down and she started to cry and I went to pick her up but I couldn't get to her the clothes were tangled around me and she kept yelling for her daddy and I couldn't get her and she kept crying mommy daddy where are you why did you leave me. I stopped running I couldn't move she felt as though we had abandoned her and she was crying and I started running again and she was so close to the edge of a cliff I could see it through the clothes and she said that she wanted to be with us again and I yelled for her to stop and I yelled and she couldn't here me and I cried and I said I'll never leave you I promise and I kept yelling it and when I stopped yelling I came out the clothes and there she was at the cliff and right beside her I saw Quest and he was holding her and telling her he would never leave that he promised he'd always be there. Does that sound weird to you?" Jude had tears rolling down her cheek and she was sobbing as she told him.
"I doesn't sound weird at all. I think it was your way of reminding you that Quest was still alive in your heart." Tommy was brushing her tears away and she started to fall asleep and he kissed her forehead and did the same.
The next day Jude decided to go to the studio when she walked in Darius was yelling about something and Jude decided to slip away but when she turned around she realized where she was. She walked over to the soundboard and sat down in his chair grabbed a familiar looking piece of paper and she started crying she didn't even notice Tommy walk in or sit beside her. She looked up when she saw his shoes.
"Hey what's this?" He took the paper from her hands and started reading it.
"It's a song Quest and I were working on for Aqua. We had just perfected it and laid music with it. It was our little secret you know we were going to sing it to her every night before she went to bed." Jude started crying again as she thought of it she looked up when she saw that Darius and the whole gang were in the doorway.
"I sent everyone home early you guys can go if you want." Darius spoke in a very polite way which he did often around Jude now days.
"Hey what's that Tom?" Porsche walked over to Tommy and picked up the paper.
"Jude wrote it, with Quest for Aqua. It's really good." Tommy looked over at Darius and then at Jude.
"Can we here it Jude. I mean if that's ok with you." Jude looked at Shay and then at Tommy.
"It branches off into two parts but if you want to hear." She stood up and grabbed her guitar and started going to the door. "Could we do it out there, I don't want to be in here." They all nodded and walked out into the lobby Jude sat down and started playing." Quest is supposed to come in right after when you're daddy's little girl so I'll play up till there. She started singing.
Daddy take me with you, I promise I'll be good
Daddy this is next time and mamma said I could
Sitting in the front seat, riding downtown
An ice cream cone I would wrap him around
My little finger tighter than my baby curls
You can make a tear go a long long way
When your daddy's little girl
Well he tightened my bike chain from 7 to 13
Taught me to drive when I was a wild thing
Preached and he prayed while I made some mistakes
That I wouldn't have made if I had done it his way
Now he hugs me when he sees me
We talk about the past
He tries to give me money
And I try and give it back
He's a book of advise more than I need
A look in his eye's is saying to me
Let me help you all I can
While I'm still in this world
What will you do when you daddy's gone
When your daddy's little girl
There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven
And she's Daddy's little girl
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all for..
Butterfly kisses with her mamma there
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk me down the aisle Daddy, it's just about time
Does my wedding gown look pretty Daddy? Daddy don't cry"
Oh, with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve a her love every morning
And butterfly kisses for life
What'll I do when my daddy's... gone...
Everyone turned around to see a perfectly healthy and very much alive Quest. Jude nearly fainted as he walked up to her she had tears rolling down her cheeks and she couldn't even speak. Everyone else was just as surprised to see Quest but like Jude They could barley even talk they all just stood there and looked at Quest and Jude who had finally moved into Quests arms and she was crying almost as hard as when she found out that his plane went down. Shay was the first to speak.
"Quest I can't believe it's really you. We thought you died in the plane crash. What happened?" Everyone still in shock just shook their heads at what Shay said.
"Well the plane went down near an ocean or something and when the door flew off some of us jumped. They had heard on the radio that the plane went down but they didn't know exactly where we where at so when they found the plane it was farther along from where I jumped so they didn't find us until they went back to clean up the mess. We got lucky and let me tell you the island we were on was no walk in the park it was hot as hell and there was no food. The only thing that kept me alive was knowing that if I died I would never get to see my wife or my daughter grow up." Quest looked at Jude who had by now stopped crying and spoke.
"We thought you were dead and we held a memorial service and I couldn't stop crying and I was so scared for Aqua but I can't believe you're alive. I missed you. Don't you ever do that again?" She punched Quest in the arm.
"Ow, Don't worry I don't plan on it. You can't imagine what I was going through." Quest was thinking of the stuff that scared him the most.
"Yeah I can imagine all that dry air, and no food, and not knowing if you're going to survive." Tommy finally spoke and walked over and hugged Quest.
"No I was talking about Jude. I had this whole Pearl Harbor thing going on in my head." Quest laughed and so did everyone else. Quest sat down and Jude followed him and they all sat down to listen to Quest talk.
It had been five hours and everyone was feeling Quest in on what happened and the were listenining to him tell his experience. It was almost midnight and they decide to call it a night. Everybody hugged Quest and left except Jude and Quest they were last to leave.
"So Babe you ready to go home and sleep in our bed? Oh how I've missed our bed and you. I love you so much." Quest smiled and kissed Jude.
"I missed you to and it is great having you home. I love you to." Jude kissed Quest back and they walked out of G-major hand in hand and smiled as they walked out.
Tommy was standing outside by his car thinking if he was really over Jude He would never be sure but he knew he had to try for Quests sake and there daughter.
"Hey T, what's up you going home?" Man wonder what's wrong with him.
"Yeah I was just thinking about Sadie and the house and stuff, I guess I got sidetracked." So headed home? Well it's great to have you back man we missed you all of us." Even though I still love your wife.
"Yea, it's good to be back can't wait to see Aqua again." Man he's acting really weird.
"Well I better get going long day tomorrow." I'm going to miss going home to Jude in the house.
"Oh ok. Hey Tom thanks for looking out for my girls. Especially Jude." Quest smiled and held out his hand. Tommy grabbed his hand and hugged him.
"Yeah no problem they were great to have around and I do anything for both of them." Tommy smiled and watched them walk away together.
Tommy stood there and started thinking again and talking out loud to himself.
"Man I've got to get over this girl how did she just get over me like that. What if she's not? Ok T if she looks back she still loves you. Look back; come on Jude look back." A slight turn and Jude looked directly at Tommy right in his eyes and smiled.
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