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Chapter 1

Unsure

As Luke got ready to meet Lorelai for dinner, he had no idea what to expect. He was crazy nervous and hoped that it didn't show. He went over and over what she had said earlier, but it was pretty vague, and could have meant anything. He was excited for the chance to spend an evening with Lorelai, but also worried that something might be wrong. He wondered where he would be when he got back to his apartment…..would he have finally shared his feelings for her. Why does she want to meet him? When he thought about to wear, he realized that the only appropriate thing, would be the clothes that she had bought for him years ago. He secretly had never taken them back; they made him laugh, and think of her. The look on Rachel's face when she walked in on her dressing him was priceless…..Rachel. Why didn't he go after Lorelai after Rachel told him to? She was getting married, he was scared- there were many a reasons. The point is that he didn't, and he had to now. He had waited far too long. He determined that he would talk about it with her tonight, confess his feelings for her. Tonight.

"Well, now is as good a time as ever" he thought to himself and walked out the diner, and towards his car. Feeling weak with what was going to happen tonight, Luke looked around. Surprised, he saw Lorelai walking towards him, but hadn't caught sight of him yet. He had seen her everyday for eight years- and everyday, he felt like he did a pretty good job of hiding his feelings for her. But tonight, she was crying. Right at this moment all of Lorelai's walls were down. The strong person that needed nothing from anyone was scared and unsure about her future. She was vulnerable. And that quite possibly made her even more beautiful to him then she normally was. But he had to hold that inside. If there was ever a time not to share his feelings for her it was right now. He just had to be a good friend and listen. So what if she looked adorable hiding her tears from him? So what if he could barely breathe as she reached out to hug him? She smelled as good as he thought that she would, and at the moment it was enough. She tried to pretend that everything was okay for a couple of minutes, but she had already been crying, so there was really no hiding. She sobbed on about how she hadn't talked to Rory in days and about Sookie and Davy, and something about her hair. She finally let out about needing money. Of course he would give her money. At this particular moment there wasn't much that he wouldn't do for her. He thought about the bond that she had with her daughter. That bond was always so amazing to him. She always felt out of place when she was supposed to be meeting Rory and she wasn't there yet. Of course she would feel weird not having spoken to her daughter in a couple of days. They needed each other, and they were almost a part of each other. Lorelai was starting to breathe regularly again, and he knew that she would be alright. As she started to pull away, he knew that he would have to let go also or else there would be some serious questions that he would have to answer. He wiped her tears away with his sleeve with the excuse of an eyelash, and watched her finish collecting herself and started to walk away.

"Lorelai, can we sit down and talk for awhile?" still worried about her, and wanting to spend some more time with her.

"Ummm, well, okay. Want to go in and get some coffee?" wondering what he could want- but liking the excuse to keep the inn stuff out of her head awhile longer.

"Sure, I'd like that" he let his mind wonder a little bit as they walked towards the diner. But as he walked in, he knew that he would have to tease her about the coffee addiction. He had to keep up the tradition. "You know, if you would just drink tea, I could wake up every morning with a clear conscious. This coffee is going to kill you."

"No, I need your coffee. Do you really wake up every morning feeling guilty about my coffee habits?" she said looking a little surprised that he thought that much about her drinking coffee.

"I am your main supplier, shouldn't I feel guilty about giving into your addiction, when truly I am slowly giving you the tools to kill yourself?" hoping that was enough of an excuse, being he had said too much.

"But I appreciate your killing me, I wouldn't live long without it anyways!" as she took a big gulp of coffee just to prove her point. She knew that she should be heading home, she still really wanted to talk to Rory, and she couldn't if she didn't get home soon. "Okay, well I should be heading out. Still want to catch Rory before she goes to bed."

"Oh well of course." He said hoping that the disappointment didn't show in his voice. He knew it was now or never. Taking a deep breath he started to make the move that he had thought about making for eight years.

"Well, see ya!" she called to him opening the door and walking out.

And it was too late. It would have to wait for another time. He sighed and then did what he always did when trying to get Lorelai Gilmore out of his head. Wipe down the tables. There was always one spot that he would wipe down when he couldn't stop thinking about her- right where she always sat. Actually there was probably a place where the counter was worn down; she was on his mind so much.

One day, she would be his, one day they would both wake up and see that they were meant to be together. Yeah, Luke already knew it, had for years, but he was terrified to find out he was alone. So they playfully flirted everyday, truly hoping that one day the other would do something- give some real clue that they were together on this. Luke yelled to Caesar that he would be out for awhile and walked out the door. He was done just waiting around for her. She could be his tonight if he could get up the courage to ask. But he needed an excuse to go over there. He was always over there, there had to be something. Luke passed the town square and then gave up. Walking into Doose's he stopped short, there she was. What to say, what t say…….. Unfortunately when he was fighting the urge to tell her his feelings for her, his words came out grumpier then normal. So he tried to act as normal as possible as he "ran" into her.

"Hey" she said, happy with life once again. She was also really happy to see that she hadn't weirded him out by her crying all over him. It had felt very nice, and she was still wondering at the feelings that it had left her with.

"Hey, I just came in for some sugar, we were close to being out, at the diner" he rambled. "Lorelai, could we maybe……… sometime…" he stammered not really sure what he had meant to finish with. He just wanted to keep up the conversation so that he could stay and talk to her.

"Look Luke, I'm really sorry that it all came out like it did. I really didn't mean for it to. I was upset, and my feelings were overflowing." She said feeling guilty.

"Lorelai, of course I will give you the money, I will help you in any way that I can." Allowing some of his feelings to come out- but wishing they weren't coming out quite as feeling-y as they were.

Lorelai visibly gave a sigh of relief, "Really? Thank you Luke. You know, I will pay you back every cent, I just don't know what I would do without your help Luke, thank you." She nervously ranted.

"Its fine" he said, as he returned to his grumpy old Luke ways. "I should get back" as he was losing all nerve to talk about what was truly on his mind and heart.

"Yeah me too, Rory is waiting for me with a movie. I was here to get the junk food." And she turned around and started walking out of the door.

"Wait, Lorelai! Can we talk about something?" it's either now or never Danes, Luke told himself.

"Yeah, hey what's up?" she said, a little surprised at his urgency, as they had just been talking.

"Lorelai, I…." and because he couldn't get the words out, Luke leaned down and kissed her soundly on the mouth. I just kissed Lorelai Gilmore. And with that, having no words, he walked out of Doose's. Much like Rory did after Dean had given her first kiss. He walked out with whatever was in his hands, which happened to be a pound of sugar.

And Lorelai stood there stunned. He hadn't given her a chance to kiss him back, or say anything, just stand there looking dumbfounded. They had a lot of talking to do, but for now, she would collect her thoughts and head home. She walked towards checkout, and rambled on and on to Dean about nothing whatsoever, and walked out of Doose's. She didn't feel like heading home to her daughter, she had no idea what kissing Luke meant to her, but it confirmed the feeling that him holding her as she cried had given her. Wow, the town was right. Luke Danes liked her. He might've always had, and he got up the nerve to tell her. Now, what was she feeling? Now that she could breathe once more, she hadn't stopped smiling. She LOVED that realization. Maybe I am in love with Luke. Is this crazy town actually right about something? And what about the stress she was under when she had walked into Luke's this evening? Where had that gone? It wasn't gone, just put into a much better perspective. Everything would be okay-especially with Luke there beside her. She couldn't imagine life not being good with Luke in it. But she was WAY ahead of herself; they hadn't even talked, just kissed. Luke kissed me! She thought extremely happily.

Luke walked away was quickly was possible. It hadn't quite hit him yet what just happened, and he didn't want it to. He also didn't want to risk seeing horror or anger on Lorelai's face. So it was better to get out of there. At least it was finally out in the open. He liked her, and he always had. He sighed, feeling relieved. Oh, who was he kidding? He was scared to death. But he had kissed Lorelai Gilmore! He now was right up there with all of the 'luckiest guys in the world' that had gotten to kiss Lorelai. But he could be so much better for her, if only they had a chance. Luke and Lorelai together…….the thought made him almost giddy. If Luke could ever be giddy, this would be the time. As Luke sat in the cold on the bench in the gazebo, he was just daydreaming. The thought of seeing rejection in her eyes, scared him to death, but on the off chance that the GORGEOUS women he just kissed, felt the same way, made him feel almost high. They would definitely be having a talk tomorrow, but for now, Luke was happier then he had since his father had died.