Author: Jessy Marie
Rating: R / M (Just to be safe, because of the topic of the story.)
Genre: Angst/Romance
Disclaimer:
I do not own NCIS or any of the show's characters (sad to say), and
I definitely do NOT own any of the actors or actresses, lol. This
fanfic is obviously just written for entertainment.
This
fanfic is from Ziva's point of view.
I've never felt so helpless in my entire life. I didn't think it would ever happen to me, or ever could…
I feel alone and afraid. I'm afraid to tell them, for fear of looking weak in their eyes. They never would have imagined this happening to me either…
But I know someone who'll understand. We understand each other, Tony and I. I just hope he'll understand how I feel and that he doesn't think less of me. After all, as hard as I tried, I couldn't help what that cruel man did to me last night in that dark alley, leaving me physically and emotionally injured.
Worst of all, I no longer feel like that same strong woman I've always been. I no longer feel like I can protect myself... I'm a failure to myself, and my friends...
But, Tony... he's the one that I know will make me feel better. He's the one I want comforting me, the one I want whispering sweet words to me, letting me know I'll be alright... the one I want to love me, even when I feel as weak and helpless as I do now...
No one else was in the room besides me when had Tony arrived. He spotted me sitting on the floor, behind my desk. I was crying to myself as I sat with my knees pressed tightly against my chest, rocking back and forth slightly, trying to get the horrible memory of last night's events out of my head...
"Oh, my, God... Ziva!" Tony exclaimed, rushing over and kneeling next to me on the floor.
"T-Tony..." I sobbed. "I tried... I tried to get away..."
I looked up at him, having a difficult time looking into his eyes, and he looked at me. He was confused at first and then a look of horror washed over his face, and I could tell that he realized what had happened to me...
"Oh, Ziva..."
"I had to walk back to my apartment last night because I missed the bus. I took a slight detour... Then, the next thing I knew, I was hit over the head with something really hard and couldn't fight back because I was dizzy. Then I saw the figure of the large, strong man as he bound and gagged me… It was too dark to see his face though..." I explained, pausing to take a deep, shaky breath. "When he was done with me, he released me and left me there... I was too scared to go home and be by myself after that, so I came back here..."
"You've been sitting here all night!" he asked, and I simply nodded as I began to cry again.
"I'm so scared, Tony... This is the most vulnerable I've ever felt... I seriously thought I was going to die last night…"
"Oh, honey..." Tony whispered, taking me into his arms and hugging me tight. "Oh, how badly I want to torture and kill the evil man that did this to you... I love you so much..."
After hearing him say those three words, 'I love you', I looked up at him, feeling happy for the first time since before the incident...
"You love me?" I asked, smiling slightly.
"Of course I do, Ziva..." he said, looking into my eyes, and it was then that I knew I truly loved him.
I leaned forward, giving him a soft kiss on his lips. After that, he gently looked into my eyes, and then he held me, and continued to hold me close to him, neither of us ever wanting to let go...