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Last chapter guys. Sorry vegibee – I was late + no festive thing. Not really my thing.
+ haven't proof read and its late here so I'm sorry.
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"Life goes on…"
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Regaining his senses slowly, Fuji couldn't help but to feel the differences. For a start, the normal, sleep-able pillow that he normally sleep on changed to a rather hard one, but very warm indeed. He also feels a somewhat heavy existence with the same warmth as his new pillow, hugging him closely like a teddy bear.
Opening his heavy eyes, the petite man was greeted with the view of Tezuka sleeping soundly. Sitting up slowly to not disturb the other man, Fuji pinches himself to make sure it is not a dream as he recalls the night before.
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Surrendering to the pleasure and lust, Fuji can only moaned as the taller man captured his lips passionately while his hands touched the sensitive area, wet from sweat and anticipation. Their bodies glued together tightly, hugging each other as if their lives depends on it.
"Tezuka." Fuji gasped as the other man teased before inserting his already wet finger. Squirming, the petite man tightens his grip, leaving marks on Tezuka's back.
Responding to his partner, Tezuka moved to Fuji's long, delicate neck and starts to kiss it softly, hoping to distract the pain. As the moan grew louder, Tezuka couldn't help to smirk as he bites the soft, pale skin, leaving the mark of possession.
Inserting another finger softly, Tezuka gently prepare the petite man who could only moaned and gasp as the taller man rub his sensitive spot. Buckling his hips, Fuji couldn't take it anymore.
"Tezuka," Pleaded Fuji. "Please."
Finding himself unable to resist the seductive and manipulative Fuji, Tezuka followed his lust and let his mind be blinded by the pleasures.
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Panic hits Fuji as his face burns red-hot remembering all the moaning and all the things that Tezuka did to him.
What should I do? What should I do? Fuji thought. Should I run?
Unable to believe the current situation, Fuji wanted to leave but as soon as he step off the bed, he was pulled in again to the bed with Tezuka on top of him, kissing him passionately like last night.
"Going so soon?" Asked Tezuka playfully while licking his necks.
Moaning, Fuji tried to push the other man away but finding it difficult as the kisses and biting didn't stop. Moreover, Tezuka seems to be more energies and playful than last night as he casually insert his fingers inside the loosen hole, pushing the sensitive spot. Trembling, Fuji moaned loudly as he buckled his hips and came.
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"My butt hurts." Complained Fuji, sulking, as he hugged the hotel's pillow. "Is this your idea of stopping someone from leaving? By having sex 10 times?"
Raising his eyebrows at the naked Fuji, Tezuka gulps down the water. Wearing only his pants, he moved closer to the bed and gives Fuji a quick kiss before giving him the sip from the water bottle. Water poured down from Fuji's delicate mouth as he clumsily drinks it. Throwing the empty water bottle to the floor, Tezuka moved closer, drinking the spilled water around the delicate mouth. Licking it clean as he moved down to the neck.
"Ne, how about your girlfriend?" Asked Fuji suddenly, stopping Tezuka in his tracks.
Eyeing the blue eyed man, Tezuka claimed his mouth again, more forceful and passionate. Gasping, Fuji clings on him.
"I told you she's not my girlfriend." Tezuka replied calmly as he held Fuji tightly and stared at him on the eyes. "Reiko used to be my friend's girlfriend."
"Atobe?"
Kissing the soft, wet lip again as if for support, Tezuka tighten his grip and rested his head on Fuji's shoulder, breathing his scent.
"Yes, him." Continued Tezuka. "We were best friends despite the differences in personalities. I used to be uncontrollable. I hated my family. Since I was the only child, they had force me and control my life from when I was a child. I never wanted to become a doctor and yet they never listen to my opinion, so I turn against them and thought that life was shit. Until I meet him."
"He was practically annoying and very full of himself. Think that he is the best of everything although he was actually. " Grinned Tezuka. "Now that I think about it, I wonder how did we even became friends. He was so freaking annoying."
"Anyhow, somehow, because of him, my life changes. Life seems more enjoyable despite my family still the same but the world seems brighter." "His dream was to become a doctor although he died before he could achieve it and I made a promise to him to take care of Reiko, since she also has problems and was very important to him. But now, I don't think I can anymore."
Clutching him tightly, Fuji kissed Tezuka's forehead softly then his lips, comforting him. Returning the kiss, Tezuka too brings Fuji closer as he deepens the kiss. Gasping for air, Fuji breaks the kiss and there was silence for a while as they both pant for air.
"How did he die?" Asked Fuji.
"Overdose." Replied Tezuka before giving a quick peck. "He was sick and has to be hospitalized. It wasn't serious and he should have gotten out of the hospital in 2-3 days but in the end he was hospitalized for almost a year and died in the end." "That Milch guy was experimenting on him."
"You're lying…"
"He was working there to not only supply his brother but also experimenting with his patients to test his drugs. The bastard killed my best friends." Said Tezuka angrily. His eyes light up like a beast and rage filled him.
"I'm sorry." Fuji apologized as he realized the truth. They were both fucked up.
"That bastard disappeared quickly every time he got suspicious, so I became a doctor to get him close. My family didn't wonder by the sudden change, they were just happy about it. When I found him in that hospital, I quickly moved there."
"…."
"Though in the end, I was able to meet you." Smiled Tezuka warmly as he kissed the exposed stomach softly. "For that, I was glad."
"WHY DIDN'T YOU HATE ME!!??" Shouted Fuji angrily, breaking away from Tezuka, and pushing him to the floor. "I WAS THERE!!! I WAS INVOLVED WITH THEM. I could have stopped them but I didn't despite knowing how fuck up they are. Why didn't you hate me? It's my fault. It's my fault. If I didn't stab my mother. If I was dead at that time. Everything will be better off."
Sobbing, Fuji covered his face with his hands as he breaks down. Pulling himself from the floor, Tezuka grabs the petite man's hands and pulled it away from his face.
"Let go of me!!" Shouted Fuji as he struggles to free himself from the strong grip.
"Fuji! Look at me!" Ordered Tezuka. "LOOK AT ME!!"
At the taller man's command, Fuji freezes. Tears running down from his fragile face. Releasing his grip, Tezuka kisses the other man softly and slowly while holding him steadily.
"I love you." Answered Tezuka calmly as he kissed Fuji again. "It's not your fault."
At that words, Fuji's heart feels lighter and warmer although the tears wouldn't stop, he feels accepted.
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Watching the red sky as the sun was about to set while hearing the breeze of winds and waves beside the person you love, Fuji was sure he was in heaven or most likely in his dreams. But this is reality.
"I used to hide in a small, dark spaces to hide from my mother which probably the reason why I'm so scared at such tight, murky places. Places where there wasn't any light penetrating. At such places, I could hear my mother screaming and swearing. Destroying the furniture and shouting my name." Explained Fuji. "After that incident, I wasn't charged with anything since it was for self defense. My dad remarries and I had to move town and there I meet Yuu. Since I was depress and still in shock, I took his drugs as a way for me to escape, even when it meant I have to sleep with him."
Grinning weakly, Fuji could feel his eyes tearing up although he could also feel the tight grip of Tezuka holding his hand.
"I hated myself and him. So when the drugs trade gone bad, I took all the money and left them to die."
"…"
"I'm such a coward, a fool."
"Fuji." Called Tezuka softly as he kissed his forehead. "It's all right." Tezuka said as he wipes down the tear from Fuji's face.
"It's all right." Tezuka said again. "Life goes on. We were both fucked up so let's try it again. Together, this time."
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All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, Going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, No expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
These dreams in which I'm dying, Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very, very
Mad World, Mad World
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
These dreams in which I'm dying, Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very, very
Mad World, Mad World
Enlargen your world
Mad World
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Wow.. guess what.. I finish!! That's it folks.. thank you so much for sticking with me for like what, 3 years now? Sorry for the bloody long wait. I got busy and was stressing with lots of stuffs and was lacking with inspiration but now I'm finally able to finish this. Hopefully you like it and hopefully there wasn't much mistake. I stay up till late to finish this so there probably mistakes and some unknown sentence lol.
Anyhow, thank you so much for sticking with me. Thank you for the reviewer, the person that proofread my work in the past, the one that fave this story and alert it. Anyway thanks to all reading this. Love you all.
I finally finish the big one and man.. don't think I'm doing any long story anymore (or soon). I like one shot better hahahha.
So yeah, hopefully this last chapter explains everything and to your satisfaction (I include smut for that lol). Thanks guys.