What Buffy thinks when she sees Spike again when he has earned his soul to be a better man for her. She decides that she should have been a better woman.

Why is it that when I look at you I want to die? I have killed you in so many ways.

I think I am starting to love you againt my judgement. I hope it's just a faze.

You would have given me the world if I had opened up. But instead, I used you.

You were the one that helped and understood me. I wish I tried to understand you, too.

I know I will cry tears of blood; all of the blood that remains unshed because of your love.

If I look at you again, that will be my fate. All because of what I did to you, that will be my fate.