Okay, so I decided to write down my thoughts and post them online. What does that mean...I HAVE THREE STROIES TO WORK ON AGAIN! Sorry, but this one came to me while I was laying in bed last night, and it has been eating away at my mind all day! I had to get it down on paper and see if all my fans liked it or not! And hey, I do this for all of you, for it seems that all I can think about is what can I write about so my friends will be happy! So, this new story is for you!

Now, about the story. Like I said, this came to me last night. Some of it came from a story I was reading and I wondered...what would happen if Anna survived that fall and Dirk helped her live? Yes NAMCO...Anna will live, but will Kratos know that? When will he find out, and how will his son react when he finds out? Plus, this is a first person POV, it will change to different people. I hope I don't confuse you. Yes, this is a twist, so sorry if you don't like it...cause I DON'T CARE!

Disclaimer: New news...I don't own the characters from Tales, not the events until the twist comes, but I guess you don't care!

The Struggle

It's over. There is nothing I can do now. There he sits, laughing as he lifts a small dagger up to him. No, he won't get away with this. He has done too much to me and my family! I won't sit back and watch anymore. Behind me, I can hear the clashing of swords and Noishe's angry yells as he fights the Desians that we have been evading for so long. My attention is brought back to the man with my child, my only child, when I hear his cries of pain and fear. That man, Kvar, the man that used my body as a project, stands there, demanding it back for the sake of my son's life.

"Give it back to me! The Project is completed, so it's either your life and not his, or…your life and his! Either way, I will get that Exsphere back!"

I cannot keep myself from advancing to my death. He has my weakness, one of the two, pinned down against him with a knife. I see Lloyd, my strong, three year old son, squirming to break free from his grasp. I grow worried for his life as his every movement draws him closer to the edge of the blade. Kvar seems to be enjoying my pain that is more than likely showing in my eyes. I approach Kvar until I stop; someone is calling to me, but who? Who would care that I am about to be killed in order to spare my son's life? I do not need to turn around, for I now know who it is. If I did, I would only see pain through his eyes, which was not what I needed now.

"Anna, don't do this! We have come too far for you to give up now!"

I drop my head in despair and regret that I couldn't have prevented this from happening. "No, I…I have to do this. Lloyd means too much to me. I…I'm sorry, but I have no other choice."

"No, there is and there will be another way! I won't let this happen to you!"

The pain in his voice is enough to break what is left of my heart. I have to save my son, but in doing so, my love will suffer just like I will, death of the heart. I turn to him, tears running down my face as I look into his eyes. The eyes that were once so full of love for me and his son, were now full of pain, fear, and anger. I cannot keep my eyes on him and say what I must say, what we both know I have to say.

"Kratos…there is no other way." I turn back around, keeping my eyes on the barren earth beneath me. I continue to walk forward; Kvar seemed to grow impatient with me. When I was within arms reach of him, he smiled and threw Lloyd to the ground. He immediately grabbed my arms and turned me around to face my family, the one's I would never see again. This would be the last moment before I died.

"I never would have expected a man such as you to lower and debase yourself for such a being. You have really proven that humans are hopeless." I could see Kratos glare at Kvar, but I knew he didn't care about what he said; he was more concerned about me. I wanted to tell him to forget about me, but I didn't have enough courage to say it.

"Give her back Kvar!" he yelled at the man holding me hostage. Even though I could not see his face, I knew Kvar was smiling back.

"I am afraid I cannot do that Kratos. You will pay dearly for you actions against Cruxis. However, this is just to get back what you took from me!" he screamed back as he reached around my neck and placed his hand on the Crystal on my skin. I could see a look of horror come across Kratos' face, which was too much for me to bear, and I looked away from him.

"No, weave my Mommy alone!" I looked up and saw my son, running and crying as he approached me and Kvar. A few guards came into my view. I didn't have to say anything; Kratos was running to get him, but one of the guards beat him to him. He held Lloyd up by the back of his neck and I watched in horror as the guard tied his whip around his neck. From the position I was in, I turned my head to Kvar.

"You said that you would spare him! You have me; let him go!"

Behind me, I heard him laugh. "Anna, this has nothing to do with you. This is to teach your husband a lesson or two about who is in charge here."

"Last time I checked, he had the higher ranking."

"I have no need for your smart mouth!" he yelled as he rammed his knee into my back. I let out a quiet scream, but loud enough to catch Kratos' attention. Kvar's hand kept me from falling over and I tilted my head so Kratos could see me.

"You have to save Lloyd! I will never forgive you if you let him die when you could have saved him!" I catch a glimpse of his eyes, so full of pain and now, tears. There were only a few times that man cried, and I hated each time. I drop my head after what I just said. He was going through more than I was, and here I am, yelling at him when he knows that either way, his life will never be the same again.

"Please…do this for me. I want him to live and to grow up living the life that I could not provide for him. I know you will do that for me." With my head remaining facing the ground, my vision is blurred by the tears forming and falling from my eyes. I can only imagine what Kratos is feeling now. Seeming to read my thoughts, Kvar lifts me back up so I can look at my family once more. I felt much better when I saw Lloyd back in his father's arms, Kratos' hands covered in blood, my guess is that it was the guard's. Kratos put Lloyd down at his feet and Noishe walked up to him, taking Lloyd in his mouth and walking away from scene.

"Now what Kratos? What are you going to do after I kill her? Will you return to Lord Yggdrasill and Cruxis, or are you going to baby-sit for the rest of your life?" I could feel Kvar's hands press down against that stupid Crystal, but Kratos' face remained unchanged.

"I will not let you kill her. I will stop you, and then I will kill you so you will never be able to take away anything or anyone."

I didn't want to admit it, but for the first time, I could sense fear in his voice, like he didn't know if he would be able to uphold what he just said. I saw him draw his sword, the red fire looking sword he had been protecting me and Lloyd with ever since we knew him. I didn't know why, but a small smile formed on my face.

"Kratos, it's okay. I…I don't want you to save me. I want you to take care of Lloyd. Don't change who you are because I will not be there."

His face loosened up and his eyes dropped to the earth. "Anna…I can't. You made me what I am, so if you are gone, I will die along with you."

"No, you have to live for Lloyd…"

"And you have to live for me!" I look into his eyes for a split second until he looks away. I knew he was crying; his tears reflected the sun's light. "You don't understand. I found myself when I found you. If I lose you, I have only lost myself."

His words are a dagger to my heart. He was strong enough to fight of the hundreds of soldiers in minutes moments ago, but he wasn't strong enough to handle my death. I wanted to reach out and tell him something, but pain began coursing through my body. Kvar's hand was ripping away at my skin, digging to take hold of his Exsphere. Kratos ran over to my side, but by the time he reached us, it was too late. Kvar held up the bloody Crystal like an honored piece of work as Kratos caught me before I hit the ground.

"Anna, are you okay?" Kratos asked, his tears falling onto my face. I wanted to say something in return, but nothing would come out of my mouth. I was shaking beyond control and I didn't know why. My heart began to race as I felt like my body was on fire. My pain must have shown through on my face; the look on Kratos' face was telling me that.

"Tell me what's happening!" he shook me to try and get me to do something, but all I could feel was the pain. I put my hands up to my head to make sure it hadn't exploded yet. Even though it hurt me to do so, I pushed Kratos out of my reach.

"Go…run, get out if here! I…I don't want you to see me like this!" Each word was draining what little amount of energy I had left. I sat on my knees, hands on the ground, trying to catch my breath. My body began stretching and pulling apart. Each movement I felt was too painful for words. My flesh began to change form and eventually turned a moldy, green color. My arms slowly became deformed and large and resembled two wooden clubs with small, sharp claws on the ends. My vision became blurred and before I knew it, I was transformed. The pain subsided as I realized that I wasn't human anymore; I was a monster.

"No! Anna…" He ran over to me, to snap me out of the monster I had become, but since I had no control over my body's actions, I used my newly formed arms to keep him from coming close to me. My arm connected with his stomach and he dropped to his knees, holding his injury. If I had the option, and the power, I would have killed myself for doing what I just did. However, my mind had no control, so before I knew it, my hands were above my head, ready to deliver the final blow to my husband. I wanted to stop, for I could see everything. I had to stop myself from killing the one person that gave me happiness and showed me love that no one else had done before.

"This is great. I have the Exsphere that I want and I get to see the fallen Seraphim in his last moments. I always thought that myself or Lord Yggdrasill would finish you off, not your wife!"

I could see that Kratos made no attempt to move, and I instantly began to fear for his life.

Please Kratos, I can't control myself. Get out of the way! I don't want to kill you! Those words did not come through to him, but the pause in my actions seemed to make him wonder if I was fighting off what had become of me. He looked up into the monstrous eyes and I froze like a block of ice. He wasn't going to move!

"If this is how I die…then so be it."

Kratos, no! You have to watch over Lloyd! There is nothing that can be done to save me! Please, you have to do this for me! You have to live on because…

If I had one chance to say anything to anyone, I wanted to have the control and the power to tell him I loved him.