The guilt was almost unbearable, and Alexis knew if it wasn't for little one to look after she would be lost. Her hand instinctively traveled to the soft swell of her belly; still unnoticeable to the public eye and more so to her and the business suits she tried squeezing into daily. This baby was all she had left, and Alexis hated herself instantly when her thoughts strayed to Sonny, she hated herself for thanking him for providing her with the one thing that would keep her strong and alive, her child ... their child.

The guilt replaced any remains of long ago friendships and promises, she hated him and then in the next instant she could never hate him really, because in the very crevices and cracks of her broken heart, not only for the loss of her sister, he was there, haunting her. The ache in her heart strained against her chest, using her other hand she rubbed the flesh as if it would take away the pain, shutting her eyes she began to pray, " I know you have your reasons for taking away my sister, is this my punishment for loving the wrong man? I'm angry that you took her away from me, I'm angry at Sonny, and I'm angry at myself ... why dear God, did you have to take her from those that loved her?"

" Alexis."

Alexis jumped with fear, and then joy rushed through her as she sat up in bed, "Kristina?"

Kristina stood at the foot of her bed, her long red hair shimmering with the glow of angels around her, when she spoke it was soft but full of question," What you just said, was that for me, or was that for you Alexis?"

Alexis found herself swallowing hard, her big brown eyes wide with awe, she reasoned she must be dreaming, that things didn't happen like this, but even if it were a dream at least her sister was here with her and for that moment she didn't care if she was crazy or not.

Kristina watched her sister and then spoke again, " That was quite a performance yesterday, " she shook her head, " I don't think that had anything to do with me, did it Alexis?"

"I wanted to lay the blame at the feet of your killers, Kristina." Alexis said defensively, suddenly feeling more ashamed than she had yesterday after all had been said and done.

"Then you made a mistake, they aren't my killers."

"No, I am!" Alexis wailed, the tears beginning to flow, " I sit here staring at what is most likely a figment of my imagination, and I still want to hold you, laugh with you, love you, and protect you... I didn't protect you," the last of her declaration came out in a voice of defeat.

Kristina came around to the side of the bed and sat down next to Alexis, slowly she took Alexis in her arms and let her big sister release the sorrow, caressing her hair Kristina spoke, " I'm very real Alexis, and you are a very special gift to this world, that's why I'm here, we didn't have enough time to make our peace."

Alexis body racked with a sob, she lay across her sisters arms like a child would to it's mother and she felt so protected and loved in that moment, she placed her ear next to where Kristina's heart lie, listening, and was surprised to hear instead of the beating of life, it was replaced with the sweet soft sound of music.

"You forgave me, after I deceived you in the worst way, and you kept my secret," Alexis said between the anguish, " I won't disappoint you Krissy, I'll never tell him… never."

"Don't use me as another excuse, Alexis." Kristina warned gently, " That would only disrespect my memory."

Alexis rose up to look into her sisters eyes, the truthful eyes of an oracle, the glow around her penetrated Alexis's heart, " I never want to disrespect your memory."

"I'm glad, because I believe your making a grave mistake."

"I'm protecting my baby, I thought you understood that day ... that horrific day." Alexis choked back another sob and wiped her eyes.

"My spirit died with your secret, because it was then that I realized it wasn't my secret to tell, it's yours, " Kristina stared intently in her sisters eyes, " and while I know on many levels your doing this for the protection of this life growing inside you, I think we both know this runs much deeper."

"Let's not bring him into this." Alexis deflected, " we can talk about anything else… just not him."

"Why Alexis? Be honest with me, be honest with yourself for once, you loved him and you lost him before you had the chance to think of a future, and no matter how you tried to get past it, you were angry, your still are! It hurt to know he chose Carly over you."

The words stung the very core of Alexis, and she knew why, because in all her denial, it was the truth, " What'd he do give you free reign on my thoughts and feelings?" Alexis said pointing upward.

"My knowledge of your feelings came long ago, when I reunited with my sister, the person that became my very best friend, my love for you caused me to do foolish things while I walked the earth, but they were all done with good intentions."

"You aren't to blame for your death Kristina, the fact remains your blood is on Sonny's hands, he chose the life of a mob boss… but I'm choosing my child's life over any feelings I ever had for him."

"Are you listening to yourself Alexis?" Kristina asked bluntly, " True Sonny and I were never bosom buddies, but you've got to know, I knew good and well that he had enemies, I took that chance because once upon a time I saw a side of Sonny Corinthos that was good because of you, and I thought if he knew about the baby it would shake him up enough to reevaluate his lifestyle."

"He'll never change, " Alexis said coldly, ' he lives in misery, he relishes it."

"Anger and bitterness cost a lot Alexis, " Kristina warned, " it's caused you to lose sight."

"I can see perfectly fine."

"Really, then did you see the man you fell in love with the day I died as he comforted you, taking your pain into his own heart, did you see the man you fell in love with yesterday? I did, he watched you, he could see your darkest recesses, and he took your wrath even though it cost him his pride, and it cost him the very piece of him that was good ... you."

"Am I supposed to feel bad?" Alexis said defensively and then faltered, " He doesn't care, he's just trying to play up his sympathy so when Scott Bal..."

"Hey, again, are you even listening to me?" Kristina asked peeved, " What's the point of all of this if your going to disallow everything I tell you."

"I don't want to hear your truths Kristina, because I don't want to feel for him anymore." Alexis confessed.

"You'll never stop loving Sonny, and it's not just because of little one, that you refer to as "My Child," remember Alexis this baby not only has your blood running through it's veins, but Sonny's as well."

"You know I contemplated telling him, you saw the note, " Alexis said, " it's not safe now, that's apparently clear."

"Your right, this isn't the time to tell him, " Kristina replied, " bad things are coming his way Alexis, as well as Jax, " Kristina looked up and then back to her sister, "it's time for me to go Alexis."

"NO!" Alexis wailed pulling her sister close, " Please, let me have more time with her."

"Be careful Alexis, but don't block your heart from the love you feel for him, I want you to be happy."

Alexis went to speak and she realized she was alone, but somehow the warmth and peace that suddenly surrounded her soul, she knew it hadn't been a dream or a hallucination, but her Sisters angel, her very own oracle of truth.