This is my first Grey's Anatomy fic. I was inspired to write a story on Addison after reading Beauty in the Breakdown21's "I'm Human Too". Thanks for the inspiration.

My name is Dr. Addison Shepherd. Bitch! That is what they call me. Don't they know a part of me is dying inside? I can feel pain, I feel hurt. I hold back my tears. It's just that I can paste on a smile when it becomes too much. That is all what they see.

I do know how to cry. I do so in the privacy of my own home. My heart is not made out of stone. I hide it well underneath this mask. They don't know me at all. The hurt I feel in this icy cold heart of mine. It can be melted if given a chance. Some people have even touched my heart, broken down these walls of mine.

Maybe, if we could meet halfway, look inside my heart and soul. I could forget the hurt and pain, I've become accustomed to. My apologies, to everyone, for what you think of me. Cold-hearted, is that what I've been called? Or is it heartless? How much longer can I go on this pretense? I just don't know how to let my feelings out. Help me bring down this wall, I would gladly open up to you, what to feel, what to say. Won't you take the chance with me?

Holding my head up high is sometimes too unbearable for me.