This is for Firebend, my dear friend and Fire Nation General! This poem is based on our conversations on Zuko. Thank you for cheering me up, you are the sister I always wanted. Okay, this poem is a bit long and extremely depressing to write. I cried a bit writing. Warning for themes of death. Hopefully, my muse will obey and I'll be able to write some Iroh and Ozai poetry, I have plenty of ideas for that. Then I want to keep writing my two stories, hopefully finishing Downfall in seven more chapters so I can start another Avatar project. The Chosen will be going for quite a while though, don't worry. I started work and school so not sure how much time I'll have but I'll give it my all. Also, a special thanks to everyone who reviews my work. Your comments make my day! For Blaze83, please see end notes! The rest of you can read it if you wish but it's a bit...strange.
Change Your Fate
The gauze covers my eyes
So another reads the
decree
I had prayed and hoped
That Father would have mercy on me
But instead of salvation's pardon
I heard a sharp silence in the room
I took in a frightened breath
And waited to hear my doom
I wait to hear the words "Death"
To be dragged to the public fire
How right it is that my flesh
will be consumed by angry fire
At least I won't be able to see it
I'm blind to the world, I'm deformed
Tis better to die proudly and quick
Then to live my life ugly and deformed
But the news is far worse
Then I could have ever feared
The fresh pain in my heart
Overwhelms the flesh he seared
He calls me weak and useless
I am no longer fit to one day lead
He says he has no son anymore
His place I'll not succeed
I have been banished forever
Stripped of my title and place
My name removed from all scrolls
My world will vanish without a trace
I will have nothing in the world
Scorned and chased, without a chance
My father, who always loved me
Abandons me without a glance
There is only one course to take
I order a servant to fetch a blade
I'll restore honor to my name
Fix the mistakes I've made
A moment later, the knife's in hand
I feel it's metal, smooth and cool
This is my salvation now
From a fate so cruel
I line the blade to my heart
I'll die within my land!
But as I take the final breath
Someone pushes away my hand
Another hand takes my shoulder
Forces me to lie back and still
"Don't give up hope so quickly
Your blood you need not spill"
I laugh at my uncle's gesture
"What reason have I to stay alive?"
Uncle takes my hand tight
"For a goal to which you'll strive
Return with the Avatar in tow
And your birthright you'll regain
I believe that you can do it
And someday you will reign"
His words, they give me hope
So I lay back for I must heal
I will overcome my fear
And the uncertainty that I feel
For it doesn't matter how
No matter how long or when
I will return in triumph
I won't fail Father again
A/N: The prayer you are thinking of was written by St. Theresa of Avila, who was of Jewish origin and most likely based that prayer off this prayer. This prayer creeps me out because I always wondered if God was my father or my king. A father loves his children (besides Ozai!) and cares for them as his first priority. One speaks to a father and gains wisdom from him. A king is responsible for his servants and his country, but he leads and may sacrifice them, he may tax them brutally and be cruel to them, his rule must be unquestioned. A king owns his servants and can do with them what he pleases. I just hated this image of a heavenly despot, sitting in judgement over me. I hated this image of God in the bible, judging people, playing favorites, wiping out people on a whim, flooding the world, destroying cities. That was no father to me, that was a tyrant. I wanted God to be about love and personal responsibility! I just didn't know how to visualize God, a King to be feared or a Father to be loved. I may update that with more poetry based on prayers if I can force myself to actually open up a prayer book more then once every two months, but I wanted to answer your question ASAP. Yes, I am of the Mosiac faith but I'm not very religious anymore. I left the faith for the most part although my parents are still religious and I still practice many of the traditions out of habit. Thank you for reviewing.