Notice: This is my fanfiction work, my author's name was originally ac4cherryz, but since someone (known as f#$king Fan fiction Net) took off my account, they erased ALL of my fics, which some I hadn't even saved. I will be now officially known as Bombay-Elk or simply Elk in other fanfiction sites.
A/N: Ah, well there's a warning for any of you readers reading this fic: Kite might be way OOC in here, but I don't know what I can do to make it less OOC. R&R!
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Imagine if someone made a complaint of a fic that YOU liked and they took it off, that'll be a bitch, right? 'Sides, WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND. With that said, people who liked this fic may continue on reading.
Anyways, on with the show and Happy Reading!
(8/26/05) - At the time when I wrote this chapter, I was pretty immature and didn't know much on how to write the story in detail. This idea of mine for Heart To Get happened when I was around maybe 13 or younger, I didn't particularly like rape since it traumatizes the people who experienced it in real life situations, but I needed to do this order for the other parts to play into role and make the story work. I made some changes in the chapter, fixing some misspelling and trying add some more detail and deleting the phrases I repeatingly use, thus showing I'm not a perfect writer ;;.
Although, the changes for this chapter are not very much different, I made it longer and made some things a bit better. I cut out the rape scene which is entirely changed and reedited since when I read it again myself, most of it doesn't make sense and it might've sickened most of the people who read this. If you would like to see the full version of the lemon scene fully revised/reedited, you can go to:
Adult Fanfiction . Net (go the Google, type in Adult Fanfiction . Net and you'll get the link to it under the author name 'Elk')
Boy Toys Fanfiction (the same to find the link, go to Google and type in Boy Toys Fanfiction under the author name 'Elk')
Media miner . org (under the name 'ac4cherryz')
or
you can just email me for the scene at ac4cherryz (at) hot mail . com .
Warning: Yaoi (male/male), OOC of characters, sexual content; rape
Heart To Get: Chapter 1
Daybreak flooded into the city of Kyoto, most of the people living in their homes were unaffected by the pouring light that seeped into the dark of their rooms. However, one young man had awoken earlier even before the sunlight had risen over the city, sitting next to his desk and typing on the keys furiously, pausing from time to time and pressing the backspace button, sometimes even typing the same word he had just deleted.
Scattered cerulean eyes read from the beginning to the end of the sentence quickly, double checking for any misspelled words or other grammical errors he might've missed.
Alright, let's double check this one more time before sending it to him. Kite thought nervously, scanning the small passage for the fifth time.
An hour ago, the young Twin Blade had been working on writing an email to a certain Wavemaster and after changing and editing the sentences, Kite has resulted with a simple small message which was difficult for him to think and write:
Subject: Hey Elk
Sender: Kite
If you're available on today, would you come to Hidden Forbidden Holy Ground in the Mac Anu server? I need to tell you something very important. Hope to see you there.
Clicking the 'send' button, Kite instantly went into 'The World' to meet Elk. Opening his eyes, Kite saw himself in Mac Anu, feeling the cool breeze brushing against his marked cheeks. Kite smiled, after the restoration of The World, CC Corp. updated the online game with more special features. Every user can now use all five senses within the game, making it more realistic and popular all around the globe.
There's no time to waste now. Kite thought, rubbing his leather clad wrist nervously. I have to reach there before Elk does, I can't hold this feeling back any longer...
It had only been a few weeks before the young hero had realized he had developed deep feelings for the shy Wavemaster, seeing the young boy occasionally when Kite asked him to join him on a journey made his heart flutter. The way Elk stammered so happily with joy when Kite gave him upgraded weapons and armor to him was an adoring and memorable sight for the Twin Blade.
His first reaction when he discovered these unusual feelings for Elk, was overwhelming. Was his head functioning well? He was in love with a boy, but not just any boy he would joke around in school and cut class with. Elk is different from the others, he's more kind and serene, his voice always so soft and comforting like the touch of a feather. In some ways, Elk had behaved more effeminate than boyish, Kite had discovered. Even the way how the clothing had clung to the small form had shown curves which growing young boys would not develop had signified that.
The first time he had become friends with Elk, his feelings were nothing more than family affection as the young Wavemaster has tried his best to aid him in any possible way he can. But as their frequent meetings increased, so did Kite's attraction towards Elk, and slowly developed the emotions in a higher stage.
He admits he felt jealous when Elk was always following behind Mia, receiving most of his attention, but he reminds himself every time Mia is Elk's very first friend and she's his idol self. She knew Elk longer than he does, so there must've been a deep bond of friendship between them.
And at the time, when I had to defeat Mia... Kite thought sadly, still remaining close to the Chaos Gate.
Recalling the painful memory, the feelings of guilt had seeped onto him. He had to kill her, one of his dearest friends, just to defeat the Wave, not to mention the fact he was also ordered to destroy her from Lios. She died in his arms and Elk saw her life taken away from Kite's own hands, disappearing out of existence. Kite felt his heart crushing in pieces when Elk yelled and turned his back at him, logging off and seeming to never see him again after he realized what Kite had done.
Then...he saved my life when everyone was being Data Drained, that...that has to be one of the signs! Kite confirmed.
Sensing of being too overconfident, Kite shook his head at his assumptions, running a hand through his sea green hair in frustration. All of these points don't seem to get him nowhere.
I can't jump to conclusions just yet. It could also just mean he wanted to save me because he wanted to do that as an act of apology before he knew what really happened.
The feelings of hope lowered, then brightening up when reoccurring another memory. That journey when Aura emailed both Kite and Elk to come see something that would be born and try to prevent an error from repeating the same mistake that happened long ago. Kite felt his heart soar when he saw Elk's face lighting up in happiness of seeing Mia again, and wanted Kite to call him whenever he's still playing in The World.
He would always come to me if he's in trouble when Mia wasn't around. Either needing my help or just accompany him. He could've asked BlackRose or someone else to go with him, but he always asked for my company most of the time.
The feelings of confidence had uplifted once more, raising his fist towards the Chaos Gate.
Now I'm positive he must've felt the same for me, there's just no other reason to explain it!
Except deep in his heart, a creeping fear of doubt began to arise slowly. But Kite shrugged the feeling off quickly, hoping it wouldn't jinx in the situation he is in now.
"Hidden Forbidden Holy Ground!" Kite yelled, three golden rings surrounding him to transport him to his designated location. Without wasting anymore time, Kite ran to the marble built church, slowing down as he hasn't seen any sight of the small Wavemaster in the empty room.
Maybe he's just signing on, it is pretty early in the morning when I wrote and sent the email to him. Kite reassured himself, waiting by the rail where the statue of Aura was perched.
As time passed in an incredibly slow pace, the Twin Blade felt agitated by the second. From the time of The Wave, he hadn't felt this nervous, he was determined to restore the game and would even sacrifice his life to regain back its order.
But this...this is different...it's about taking this relationship to the next level or not...if he feels the same...or if he doesn't...
The sound of rushing footsteps was heading towards to the church, a quiet sound of panting and the form of Elk's figure appeared at the doorway, running past the long benches and in front of Kite, bending down to his knees to regain his breath.
I knew I should've woken up early! Kite must've been waiting here standing up for a long time while I was still sleeping! Elk thought guiltily, shutting his eyes tightly.
"Sumimasen! I just received your email when you sent it to me over ten minutes ago! Please forgive me!"
All thought left the Twin Blade at the sight in front of him, the Wavemaster's silver blue hair was blown away from Elk's running and glinting in the sunlight. His cheeks flushed hotly as he was breathing heavily for air, and the sight of his pale pink lips glistening from each warm breath that moistened his lips as they leave from him.
Elk isn't pretty, he's beautiful.
"It's all right Elk, I wasn't waiting that long, I came a little late too," Kite lied, "There's nothing to forgive, I'm not mad."
"Really? I'm pretty much of a deep sleeper on the weekends and I didn't wake up until my alarm went off. When I got dressed and read your email, I realized I was going to be late when you wanted to tell me something really important. What's wrong, is it about Aura?" Elk asked, standing up as his breathing was even.
Kite gulped silently, seeing Elk's innocent wide eyes peering at him curiously. This was it, Kite couldn't back out of this now, not when he promised himself he will confess his feelings today. Kite took a deep breath to steady the pace of his thundering heart, moving away from the rail and walking closer towards Elk.
The crimson eyed Wavemaster blinked in confusion, noticing his movements are causing him to be closer to him, too close to make body contact.
"Kite?" Elk asked again quietly, doubtfully of what Kite might say could be far from about Aura or anything related to The World.
A silent frightening feeling began to unfold in him, an instinct telling him to run away from the tall Twin Blade before he'll have the chance to say something to him. But his body remained frozen and blocked all transmitting warning messages from the brain, suddenly feeling vulnerable in Kite's gaze.
"Elk, the reason why I wanted you to be here is because there is something in my heart that's been hard for me to say to you. I've been hiding this feeling for a long time, but I can't hide it forever since it's been growing and wanting to burst out of me," Kite replied sincerely, his heart caught in the middle in his throat as he tried to muster enough strength to say those three words. Those three words which haunted him in his dreams every single day...
Kite took one of Elk's hands with his own, searching the boy's deep ruby eyes with his tender blue ones.
"I love you Elk."
Elk's eyes widened and dropped his staff, shock written all over his face as Kite continued on, his quiet voice becoming stronger after the next word.
"I've realized I liked you more than friend and that liking in my heart for you slowly changed into love. I don't care what everyone would think, I care what you might think," Kite finished softly, his other hand caressing Elk's cheek and gripping the chin gently, yet firmly. His eyes trailed down to those luscious lips, his body automatically moving on its own.
He can't stop himself anymore, he had been waiting for this moment to come and won't waste anymore time to finally achieve what he wanted.
"Kite, I-"
Elk froze when Kite's lips were pressed against his own, the Twin Blade's hand moving away from his chin and wrapping itself around his waist to deepen the kiss more intensely.
They felt warm, real, and soft, those exact words fit into what Kite has been feeling Elk's lips against his. He couldn't believe what he was doing; he hadn't given Elk the chance to tell his own feelings. But his mind was slowly fogging his concentration on reality as he pulled Elk's small frame against his, fitting each other perfectly like destined lovers chosen by God.
A coil unfurled inside the pit of Kite's stomach when just the simple action of lips touching wasn't enough for him. He wanted, he needed more of Elk's taste as he suddenly became bolder, opening his mouth as his tongue slowly licked those supple pink lips, begging for enterance.
A gasp escaped from the timid Wavemaster, slightly parting his lips in surprise from the feel of his friend's soft, yet rough tongue practically licking his lips. Elk's parted lips was just enough for Kite's tongue to slip into the moist cavern, searching more of the stimulating taste which awakened the burning feeling of desire.
Elk raised his hands up slowly to Kite's chest and pushed, forcing himself away from the hacker and breaking the kiss. He hadn't expected that, especially from Kite! He always thought of the Twin Blade as one of his best friends, who would forgive and give everyone a second chance without hesitation. He thought Kite was always treating him more nicely and giving his attention more than anyone else was because he hasn't had many friends.
Now, he knew the reason, and pain came to him as he stepped away from Kite, biting his lower lip, wondering how to reply to Kite in the most calming of words.
"What's wrong?" Kite responded, his eyes slightly unfocused. He wanted to meet those lips again as his own were burning for their touch; he would do anything, anything just to feel them against his own once more.
Vanilla...that's what he tastes like...vanilla with a hint of cherry in them... The thought drifted across the young savior's mind,
"Kite, I haven't told you my response."
Elk casted his eyes downward and looked up at his friend, a sad expression on his face.
"I hadn't known you felt for me that way, and it's...really surprising for me to hear it. But...I'm sorry Kite, I'm afraid I don't feel the same feelings for you. I liked you as a great friend and I thought the reason why you were acting like this is because I haven't gotten many friends and you didn't want me to be left alone. I hope we can still be friends," Elk added hopefully.
Kite's heart was crushed to oblivion, the words ringing in his mind over and over again, disbelief coming to him.
No...no, it's not true! He's just kidding, he has to be! But Elk doesn't joke around in these kinds of things. I really thought he liked me back!
Undefined rage sprouted within the hacker, shaking as hate and anger took over his body and mind in control. He so sure...and after all this time waiting and putting up his courage to confess...was for nothing. He was left with nothing, the offer to remain friends is unacceptable, he cannot love Elk as a friend, nor family.
"Kite?" Elk asked worriedly since his friend remains silent, he hoped he hadn't made Kite sad or angry; he didn't want to hurt his friends, especially losing them. Elk knew their friendship wouldn't be the same again, now that Kite has told him his feelings, it would be awkward.
"No Elk, we can't be friends, I can't allow that anymore now I have told you my feelings," Kite whispered angrily, raising his head to meet Elk, "I've loved you for a long time, and this is what I receive? I don't want to be just friends, I wanted it to be more than that!"
Elk took a step back, shocked to see this hidden, dark side from the hacker, but the young hero shot out his hand and gripped his arm tightly to prevent from moving away from him.
"Kite, stop it! You're scaring me! Let go!" The Wavemaster pleaded, pain shooting up his arm as Kite's grip increased.
He looked up at Kite in fear, and saw the once adventurous warm eyes in a cold gaze, no hint of joy in them. The sudden change of emotion in Kite's eyes made the Wavemaster become even more frightened, knowing of what power Kite contain which can cause utter destruction.
(WARNING: For the sake of not having this account deleted as well, you must either go the websites I listed up above the Author's Notes, my Bio page or simply email me for the lemon scene.
Also, if you are not comfortable with rape, it isn't exactly necessary to read the lemon, but I really highly recommend it so you can understand how Elk feels afterward and what are the consequences Kite has to face later on.
For everyone else who doesn't mind, continue on going to the sites I listed, it's very much changed into a more better lemon scene I hope. I'm really sorry about doing this, but I cannot risk of losing this second account. Once again, I'm really sorry!)
"I love you Elk..." Kite whispered, nuzzling his head into the crook of Elk's neck, placing small kisses and bites before going into a deep slumber.
Elk sobbed quietly, turning his head away from the sleeping face of his friend and laid there for a while, tired and exhausted from all the pain and pleasure he felt. After a moment or two, Elk roughly pushes Kite's body away from his own and tried to curl into a ball, continuing to sob. Kite, one of his own best friends, had broken him to pieces and broke their friendship. He had broken two of the most important parts of himself: his heart and soul.
Mustering what strength he has left, Elk tried freeing himself from the rope, his wrists bleeding from the material scratching and bruising him. After many attempts, Elk pulled the rope with all his strength in one last attempt and the knot gave way, releasing his hands from its tight hold.
Elk couldn't help but let out another cry of anguish, whimpering as he brought his knees closer to him, wrapping his arms around them.
Why? Why would he do this? I...I...
Elk shook his head, reaching for his staff, wincing as the bite marks that were all over his body was stretched and flaring in pain. Grabbing hold of the staff, Elk used it to get himself up, limping out to the door. Looking back at the sleeping form of the Twin Blade, Elk felt his eyes watering again.
Why Kite? I thought...we would always be friends...
Looking outside of the background, Elk shivered and trembled at the slight breeze from outside caressing his naked body. Slowly, Elk raised his staff, three golden rings surrounding him to lead him back to Root Town, where his clothes and wounds would recover as if nothing ever happened. No one will find out about what had happened to him, no one would ever believe of Kite possessing a dark side of himself, he's alone...with no one to turn to...
A thought drifted across his mind before he disappeared and was transported to Mac Anu.
Why me?
A/N:
(8/26/05) - I still need to fix some of the things in this chapter since some parts doesn't seem to make sense, I tried my best to improve this chapter, but with class coming up soon, it'll take time for me to change it. I'll also change some parts in Chapter 2, 3, and 4 to see if I can improve it, along with my beta to change the chapters be a little more better.
-ac4cherryz a.k.a Elk