Disclaimer: I do not own these characters. They are J.K.Rowling's creation. I just corrupt them to my fancy.

Rating: M just to be safe and it will go in the M area later on

Summery: A story about Remus' days at Hogwarts starting at day one. It will mostly be about him and Sirius. It will be Slashed in later years. Will contain Slash if you do not like slash do not read.

A/N: I want to thank everyone who read and reviewed my Amor vincit omnia Story, Apus-Equuleus, dedetomkiewicz, SongOfStars, and siriusmoonlite. This is a work on progress.

Phases

1.1

The train slowly pulled out of King's Cross Station. The boy sat alone in the compartment, lost in his thoughts as he looked out of the window. His mind was filled with things no eleven year old should ever have to think about. He was filled with fear. Being accepted into Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, added to the problems he already had. He had received a letter from the headmaster, Albus Dumbledore himself, reassuring him that precautions would be taken to protect both himself and the other students. How was he going to keep his secret?

His name alone showed his affliction. His name was Remus John Lupin, and he was a werewolf. He had been isolated at a very young age to protect his secret. He never had friends or classmates. He was tutored by his mother and father. He was being given a grand opportunity to have a normal life. He wondered what would happen if anyone ever found out about him. Sure the teachers knew, but how did they feel about it? Would they resent him, fear him, treat him like a porcelain doll? He just wanted to be treated like any other student. He was so lost in his thoughts he was startled when someone placed a hand on his shoulder.

"Hi, didn't mean to startle you but can we share the compartment?"

"Sure" Remus hesitated, as the three boys sat down. He glanced down at his robes and blushed. His parents spent most of their money trying to find a cure for his condition, and could not buy him new clothes, or toys, or anything for that matter. He desperately wanted to make a good impression.

"My name's James Potter" said the boy across from him extending his hand. He was tall and thin for his age. Remus noticed vibrant hazel eyes hidden behind the glasses he wore.

"Hi, I'm Remus, Remus Lupin." He shuddered as he said the last word. Would they laugh at him? Would they know? Could they tell by looking at him? Would they run away screaming? He awkwardly shook his hand, it wasn't often he met people.

"Nice to meet you and this is Peter Pettigrew" he motioned to the small pasty boy next to him.

"N-ice to meet you Remus, you wouldn't happen to have any sweets would you?" Peter said looking around the compartment.

Remus blushed again and turned his gaze to the floor.

"Please excuse Peter; he seems to think that he needs to eat sweets constantly." The tall boy sitting next to Remus laughed. "I'm Sirius Black."

"I'm pleased to meet you. Is this your first year at Hogwarts?" Remus blurted out, trying to get into the flow of conversation.

A collective 'yes' filled the compartment. The boys spent the trip getting to know one another. The usual topics were discussed, where they lived, what music they liked and what wizard school would be like. When the witch came by selling sweets, Sirius bought a little of everything to share with his new friends. For the first time, Remus felt like he belonged. Maybe, just maybe things would work out for him.

The train came to a halt and the foursome disembarked soaking in the new scenery. Remus noticed the carriages off to the side and saw that they were drawn by thestrals. His parents had told him about these creatures, he had been afraid of what they would look like, but instead found them to be magnificent. He wondered how many others could see them, since one had to witness death to see them. He started to walk towards the winged horses when a hand on his shoulder stopped him.

"Hey, Remus you're going the wrong way mate." Sirius had a grin on his face as he turned Remus in the right direction. That's when Remus heard the booming voice.

"First years this way, first years follow me"

Remus followed the voice and saw the largest man he had ever seen. He was easily three times the size he was. He was shocked when the giant addressed him.

"Hello there Remus, names Hagrid hope you had a good trip. Be careful crossing the lake."

Remus needed to think quickly, how was he going to explain Hagrid knowing him?

"Do you know him?" James asked.

"Oh, that's Hagrid. Umm my parents met him at The Three Broomsticks when they were getting my school supplies. They must have shown him my picture." He hoped that sounded plausible, he'd hate to be caught in a lie.

"Oh my parents show my picture to anyone who will look." James rolled his eyes.

The four of them managed to get in to the same boat. They were all busy trying to catch a glimpse of the giant squid. They did not notice Remus' gaze shift from the dark waters of the lake to the moon above. It was a waning Gibbous moon. Before his bite he had always loved the moon and now he feared it, he was cursed by it. The recent full moon was still having its effects on him. He was tired but mustered all his strength to not let it show.

His trance was broken when Peter, having thought he saw the giant squid stood up in the boat. The boy was quickly going to find out if the waters were safe, when Remus grabbed the back of the boy's robe and pulled him to safety.

"Thanks Remus. I don't know what I would have done if I fell in." Peter's face was flushed.

"Wow Remus nice save, I don't think I could have done that." Sirius stated. He looked at Remus with a questioning eye.

Remus could feel his face turn red, why didn't he just let Peter fall in? Well because that's not what friends do and yes he considered these three to be his friends.

"Oh it must have been an adrenaline rush. I am sure you would have been able to do that no problem." He sure hoped that was a believable reason. He could have told the truth 'oh it was nothing I am a werewolf so I look like a weakling but have freakish strength.' He let out a small chuckle; he wondered how quickly they would jump into the lake if he told them what he was.

The rest of the boat ride was very quiet. James and Sirius were busy trying to spot the giant squid and Peter was frozen to his spot on the boat, obviously he did not want to risk moving for fear of falling in. Remus just watched the approaching castle. He could not put into words how happy he was to be here, and he would do everything in his power not to let Headmaster Dumbledore down. They reached shore and were thankful to have arrived they were getting hungry. The castle was overwhelming. Being made of stone one would think it would appear cold and sinister, yet it did not it was inviting and warm. The students were ushered into a grand entrance way. Here they all whispered and speculated as to what was going to happen next.