Author: Strings393
Fiction Title: His Vermillion
Chapter Title: His Vermillion
Pairing: Draco/Hermione
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Angst, Drama, Death
Summary: She is everything to me…the unrequited dream…a song that no one sings…the unattainable. She's a myth that I have to believe in, all I need to make it real is one more reason…
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter. This is all just fiction. The song is Slipknot's Vermillion Part 2 I love the 'Knot. XP
Draco's POV
"She
seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame
All the
torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do
anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she
makes me sad"
Everyday I watched her from across the Great Hall. I don't know when I started loving her, but I know that I hated her first. I wished I could take back all that I ever said to her to make her feel bad. I've taken to saying nothing while she's around, just so she can be happy. I would do anything just to have her next to me at night…to hold her in my arms. I love to watch her laughing with her friends at lunch and smiling. In class, I love to see the pride on her face when she gets things right. I could care less if her house was rewarded points for it. I loved her, and I couldn't have her.
"She
is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one
sings
The unattainable
She's a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I
don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes
me sad"
She was what I woke up for every morning. I would give up everything I had, everything I ever owned, just to have her as mine. When she was sad, I was sad. When she was happy, I was happy. But I was slowly coming back to reality. I knew I could never have her. She was part of the Dream Team, the Golden Trio, the Tremendous Three….I could never in my life have her. I was from the Dark side, she was from the Light. She would die before being with me.
"But I won't let this build up inside of me"
I was a Malfoy. I was a pureblooded Malfoy that would never affiliate with anything like Hermione Granger…a mudblood. The epitome of beauty, my blood ran for her, but I would never let anyone know that. She was my blood. She was what I lived on. She was what I would die for.
"I
catch in my throat But I won't let this build up inside of
me
Choke
Torn into pieces
I won't - no
I
don't wanna be this
I didn't want to think about her anymore…but was it possible to forget about something that you saw everyday? That you loved entirely? That you thought you would die without? I suppose it was, because that's what I was going to do. She was nothing I can attain, reach. I would live my life and she would live hers. The Hermione I wanted to spend of the rest of my life with wasn't the real Hermione that I saw everyday. The Hermione I wanted would be able to dump Potter and friends at the drop of a hat and join me. She would be able to be my queen and that's how I'd treat her. The girl I wanted, was beautiful, evil, smart, but unreal. I didn't want to feel this way anymore.
"She
isn't real
I can't make her real"
She was unreal. She was my everything. She was my life. She was my blood. She was my vermillion. I went out into the Entrance Hall and pulled out my wand, placing the tip to my temple. Calling out the two words of the curse I was taught my whole life, I ended everything. I finally knew what to do when she made me sad…
When breakfast let out, everyone looked at my body in complete surprise. People asked why I would end my life when I had everything. Slytherins were crying, but I didn't care about them. I cared about her. What would have killed me again; was the fact that she was looking at my dead body…and she was smiling in satisfaction.
Fin.