Help Me Help You

Disclaimer: I don't own them.

Author: Purity85

Summary: Takes place a few months after "Weak" as if Elliot has basically frozen Olivia out of his personal life. He thinks he can't talk to her about his divorce because he blames her and because he wants to be with her as more than a friend or a partner if you get my drift. Things get more complicated when they have to go undercover.Thoughts are in italics.

Part One?

Every time I see her I wonder just how different my life could be if I took that step. If I just made a little bit of effort we could be together and we could both be so happy. It's almost as if I couldn't see the negative side of us just taking the next step with our relationship. I know that there is a negative side, we are all too familiar with the negative sides of life but that's what makes us so close. In the past five years there has been nothing that I wouldn't say to her, only recently when I became available to more with her that I've shut her out. It's not as if I had a choice I couldn't just take that step when it first popped into my mind, not while I still blamed her for what I'd lost . What if she responded differently to the possibilities in our relationship? I can't ruin the best thing in my life and she's not the type of person I can half-ass this with.

"What is your problem?" Elliot was drawn out of his thoughts by their subject yelling at him.

He shook his head and looked up at the angry brunette that was standing at his desk. "What's wrong, Liv?" He asked masking his voice in annoyance to hide his true feelings.

"That's what I was going to ask you. I'm really tired of you ignoring me and brushing me off every time I try to help you. I'm your friend and your partner, this is what I am here for… talk to me El." She said in hushed tone so that only he could here her as she opened her heart to him. She slightly chewed her bottom lip as she waited for his reply anxiously.

He was stunned for a moment by her out of character outburst. He shut his eyes and sighed deeply. Then his blue eyes met her deep chocolate ones head on. He reached out and lightly touched her hand so quickly that she could've imagined it. "Let's have a drink tonight after work and I'll try to pour my heart out a little for you, okay?" He said in a tone mimicking hers.

She nodded and returned to her desk without a word. She quickly busied herself with paperwork and to look at them you would never have known that anything had transpired between them. He shook his head and tried to hide his involuntary smile. It seemed that he was going to be forced to face having to take this step.

End of the Day

He walked out of the crib loosening his tie as he walked over to her desk. "Olivia, you ready?"

She quickly glanced up at him and nodded. "You are paying, right?" She asked as she grabbed her jacket and pulled it on as they walked to his car.

He chuckled and shook his head, "I should've known that you were only doing this to mooch off of me." He said dipping his head around to look at her as he held open the car door for her.

She smiled at his joking normalcy, "You know me too well." She said shaking her head as they started driving, "You know that you're paying though right?" she asked lightly touching his shoulder with a sweet, almost flirtatious smile.

He glanced at her from the corner of his eye and nodded, "You know… I've got alcohol and take out menus back at my place… have you been there yet?" He asked as they pulled up to a light.

She frowned at the fact that there was such a big aspect of his life that she had been excluded from. "Nope… not yet, but a free meal sounds good too." She joked trying to lighten her own mood.

He smiled at her as he changed his course to head towards his apartment. "Plus… my apartment will be a more private place to talk." He said touching her arm reassuringly.

At the Apartment

Elliot handed Olivia her drink and sat across from her at his kitchen table. "So what do you think of the place?" He asked casually.

Olivia smiled as she took a sip of her drink, "It's nice reminds me of mine."

Elliot smiled and responded absent-mindedly, "That's why I like it, too." He looked at her as he realized how that must have sounded. "I thought your place was nice." He explained covering his tracks.

She smiled nervously, "Well it's a nice place." She boasted. Soon her face turned serious as she stared at her partner. They just sat there in silence for what felt like an eternity.

He returned her nervous smile and he opened up like a flood gate letting out information. "I got the divorce papers last week. She got tired of me working all the time, tired of me never telling her what went on, and jealous of you…" He started telling her about his troubles.

She scoffed, "Jealous of me! Why? We never slept together, barely touched each other!" Olivia was getting angry and defensive. "I am just your friend, she's the lucky one! She had your heart!"

"No she didn't!" Elliot admitted for the first time to himself and out loud.

Olivia looked at him like a deer in the headlights trying to understand what he meant by that. "What…" She started to ask but she was cut off by the ring of her cellphone.

To Be Continued and I know this was short I'm sorry just wanted to get it out there... Please Review:)