Disclaimer: The characters and situation mentioned are from the motion picture What a Girl Wants and not my property, but some major motion picture studio's. What I have written, however, does belong to me. No money is made off this; it is purely for pleasure and the sake of writing.
Author's
Note
This piece is a
mildly drastic depart from my usual writing style: it's darker and
doesn't really hint at any silver lining, unlike my first two
pieces. It also has the new element of an integrated song. In short,
I've written a darker, angstier songfic than before.
Apologies
Maybe I'm not cut out for this life. Maybe this isn't what I'm meant for. Maybe Clarissa was right.
Maybe…I don't belong here.
I ain't no
queen of hearts;
I go through
stages;
I fall in
love,
Then
complicate it.
Then where do I belong?
That more,
I thought if
I had more,
I wouldn't
get so bored,
But
everything just left me empty.
God, everything's a mess. I've publicly embarrassed everyone: my father, my family, everything the Dashwood name stands for. I didn't want to admit it…but I am an embarrassment.
I'm just
trying to be creative,
But
everyone's so opinionated;
They wanna
tell me what I'm feeling.
I'm sorry I'm not charming enough.
I'm sorry I'm not talented enough.
I'm sorry I'm not polished enough.
I'm sorry I'm not everything you want me to be.
But most of all, I'm just sorry that I'm not the perfect daughter.
Fin
Song Credit: "What's Good For Me," performed by Lucy Woodward on the What a Girl Wants Soundtrack.