RATING: PG

SUMMARY: Takes place about five months after Against All Odds. Shannon's past relationships have left her insecure, which may end up affecting her current relationship with Sayid. What will it take for her to realize that it might just be ok?

DISCLAIMER: I don't own the characters from Lost and am not making a profit. If they were mine, then there would be more Shayid moments.

Chapter One – Bored

Shannon was lying on her towel on the beach. About an hour ago it had seemed like a good idea to let Sayid go off to be helpful and for her to just relax, but now she was bored. She sighed; she guessed that being on an island for six months would make sunbathing less fun. She had really only said that she was going to sunbathe because she needed some time to herself to think and she knew that Sayid would give her whatever she needed.

It was still hard for her to believe that she had been with Sayid for five months; she had never really been with anyone that long and still be happy. Every morning she woke up in Sayid's arms and was so thankful that she was so lucky to have him. He was always there when she needed him; it was unnerving at times how he knew exactly what she needed. Like the one time she had an asthma attack while out with Kate picking fruit. Sayid had come out of nowhere it seemed and held her until her breathing returned to normal, rubbing her medicine gently across her chest. She didn't know how he it did it, but she was glad that he was always there.

Shannon had moved in with him after fighting with her brother and while it had been difficult at first getting used to sharing such a small space, they adapted fairly quickly. At first they spent a lot of time talking, sharing things they normally wouldn't have shared and they got to know each other even better. Then they had begun to talk less and kiss more. Almost every night they would have a make-out session. If she closed her eyes she could feel his hands and lips against her body. She sighed again, as great as those sessions were they still had not had sex yet.

At first she had thought that Sayid wanted to make sure she was ready, completely ready, then she thought maybe he was still grieving over Nadia and he wasn't ready, and now she didn't know what she is supposed to think. It had been driving her crazy that all she could think about sometimes was sex. Boone's words about her only being good for sex always haunted her at those times. If what he said was true, why didn't Sayid want her? She was beginning to think that maybe he didn't find her attractive, but his eyes and hands told her otherwise. She wasn't used to these feelings of uncertainty.

She decided that she was tired of thinking about these things and was tired of lying on the beach; she was so bored. She decided then that she was going to find Sayid and make him entertain her for a while.

He wasn't too hard to find, he was sitting in the caves working over something with Jack. She sat down beside Sayid, who looked over and smiled at her. When Jack walked away to get some more materials, Sayid leaned over and kissed her.

"How was the beach?"

She frowned, "I'm bored."

He laughed quietly, "And what would you like me to do about your boredom?"

Take me out to the woods, rip my clothes off and take me right there, she thought to herself, as she blushed. Out loud, she said, "I don't know. Maybe I'll go pick some fruit or something."

"You should not go out there alone," he said as he started to put his materials away. He called out to Jack and said he would be back later.

"You don't have to come with me," she said as she took his hand.

He kissed the top of her head, "I do not want anything to happen to you."

They walked quietly for a while deeper into the jungle; Shannon pretended to look for fruit while she thought about her earlier wish. Finally she pulled Sayid towards a tree.

"Climb with me."

He looked at her curiously, but still said he would. She went first, making sure that she found the correct branches. She didn't go that high, just enough to see more of the island. She watched as he gracefully climbed up to join her.

He looked out at the island from their new viewpoint, then turned to her, "I did not know you liked to climb trees."

She shrugged, "It was the easiest way to make myself disappear," she said, and knew that she didn't have to elaborate for him.

He leaned towards her and captured her lips with his; she wrapped her arms around his neck, surprised that they could balance so well while sitting in a tree. At that thought, she burst out laughing against his mouth.

Sayid pulled away, "I do not believe my kisses have ever prompted that reaction before," he said, his eyes searching for answers.

She forced herself to stop laughing. "I'm sorry, I just thought of this song from when I was little, that other kids used to sing to drive others crazy, when they saw two people together in elementary school. It went like this, Shannon and Sayid sitting in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g, first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes Shannon with the baby carriage," she sang softly.

Shannon could tell that Sayid was thinking about the song.

He swept a piece of hair out of her eyes; his fingers lingering longer than was necessary. "I believe that the first part has already happened."

Her voice quiet, she asked him, "What about the other two?"

She didn't know why she asked, maybe because of her earlier thoughts, maybe then she could get a glimpse into what he was thinking. He knew her so well and she still wasn't as good at reading him.

He smiled at her, "Is that your way of asking me to marry you?"

That had not been the answer that she had expected or wanted. What if she said yes and then he said no or if she said no and he had wanted the answer to be yes? Why would he even want to marry her? She couldn't deal with that question. Even with the love she saw in his eyes, she was too freaked out, too confused, and too overwhelmed. Shannon did the only thing she could; she climbed down the tree and quickly ran away, without saying a word.

TBC…