Xenosaga

Story 2

XS2- "The Abominable Devil"

It's funny, but if you were to sit down, and really think about all the people you've come to know- chances are that more than half of them tie together.

It's like we are all given strings, and which ever we chose to follow will pull us towards another with that same string- and yet they have strings that you have as well.

Connected. That's how I feel we are. And it runs even deeper than that. It runs deeper because I can't deny myself any longer. I see you smile; the light dance in your eyes; you hair sway softly-

So much weight on your shoulders, and all you are most concerned with is the health and well being of your companions. And it makes me want to cry... because...

Because before, I was never like that. You think of others before yourself, and I...

...Well perhaps I did do some growing up.

I remember that day like it was permanently marked across my brain- the day you called yourself an 'abomination.'

That cut me hard.

Don't ever call yourself anything of the sort! There's no way you could ever be considered anything less than angelic. You try so hard to keep the safety; the peace- to protect us all- to protect me...

I close my eyes, and lean back against the wall- I'm waiting outside your room. You took such a blow for us all... but mostly for me...

Because I was being an ass... I was letting him get to me...

But you saw it for what it was.

God dammit, I'm so sorry I did this to you! I screwed up and you got hurt.

Not again! No.. this time, I promise you that I will watch out for you.

I will protect you. I will see this to the end.

It's not an obligation- it's an undying pure act of raw love.

Yes, I said it. I told you I couldn't deny it anymore.

Another funny thing... is that I was compared to as the devil... the red mark of the famed demon himself, eternally engraved upon my palm.

666.

After some of the things I've relived, and the pain I've seen to cause... maybe I am. I know you'd yell at me now... calling me a hypocrite. Telling you not to say such things about yourself, then I go right around and do the same thing to myself. We are a pair, are we not?

Are we I wonder? We are so alike... so many things define us from the others. We are both children and adults; we bear great burdens from our past up to now; we aren't true humans...

There is more, but that's not what to dwell on. We are still both fairly young; still both accepting our parts in this life. However there is something I didn't see happening that I know I couldn't possibly live life without now.

And that's you.

I think we are a pair... and I want to start a different, more pleasant path in my life; a path that only you and I can take. When you wake up, I'll want to hug you, and never let you go; but I know I must at some point...

but...please... let me start living my life with you.

Because simply...

I love you Momo.