Watching Me, Wanting Me
Summary: Nar/Kag pairing. Nar has been watching Kag through Kanna's mirror for a while now. When Inu runs off with Kik, Kag runs into the arms of her most hated enemy. Kag starts thinking of Nar in a new light as well... Rated R for language, gore, and adult situations.
Prologue
I ran away… Away from it all. From the pain, from the tears, but most of all from him. Inu-Yasha… Bitter tears ran down my face as I ran blindly into Inu-Yasha's forest, not looking back. It hurt knowing he loved her instead of me… But most of all it hurt that he'd betrayed her. She stumbled, but got up and kept running, letting the branches slid through her skin, making that crimson liquid flow down her arms and legs. But she didn't care. She didn't care anymore…
Long lost words whisper slowly to me…She ran and ran, not stopping. Her legs begged her to stop and the throbbing pain was almost unbearable, but she didn't feel it. How could she feel the pain when she was already in so much pain? She'd caught him with her again. With Kikyou… That jerk… she thought, tears streaming down her face. After what he said to her last night… After he asked her to be his mate… Then he runs off to Kikyou. He's probably asking her the same thing. Stupid, two-timing… "Jerk!" she yelled hoarsely through her throbbing throat. That familiar burning sensation in her throat was caused by her tears. Her tears were caused by him… By Inu-Yasha… "I hate you!" she yells hoarsely to the skies. Why? Why does she keep coming back here if all it's going to do is cause her pain? Why is it she keeps coming back to him if he's going to keep hurting her? Then again, she just seemed to be a magnet for pain…
…Still can't find what keeps me here…
She tripped and fell, unable to get up so she lay there, sobbing. Just then, all the pain caught up to her and she sobbed harder. It was too much… She was in so much pain she didn't even sense the dark figure approaching her. Her mind was going fuzzy. The last thing she saw was a shadow over her and a pair of crimson eyes. Why Inu-Yasha? Why did you betray me? was her last thought as she fell unconscious from blood loss.
Lately, that miko, Kagome, the reincarnation of the priestess Kikyou had plagued my thoughts. So much alike, yet so different…The girl was much more fiery and wild… he thought. True, the girl greatly resembled the re-animated miko, but her spirit was her own. The girl had a lot more spirit and fiery passion than the dead miko had ever had. And he wanted it. He wanted that fiery, innocent girl. He wanted to have her and corrupt her. He grinned at the thought. That would be so pleasurable to see this fiery miko beneath him, writhing, being slowly corrupted by him. He, Naraku, wanted this miko.
I watched through Kanna's mirror as the miko stumbled blindly along into the forest. All was going to plan…
"That's enough Kanna…" he said, standing. The emotionless girl lowered her mirror and the image disappeared. I went into the forest and waited for her. Unconsciously to the miko, the Shikon shards around her neck were drawing her towards him as she ran, leading her straight to him, via a spell he'd cast on the latest shard they had acquired. It had all been carefully set up. He had a lower demon take the jewel and challenge Inu-Yasha for his shards. The demon was soon dust and they had the shard, as he expected. The miko had put the shard with the others, unknowing of the spell that would draw her to him… He didn't know the dreams would come with the spell, but they were an added bonus he did not mind. He smirked slightly when she stumbled into the clearing and fell down, weeping. He approached her as she fell unconscious from loss of blood. He quickly picked her up and took her inside his castle.
There, he laid her on a bed and watched her. He'd been watching her for the past few months. Ever since she'd disintegrated most of his body… He'd seen how powerful she was then. He wanted that power of hers. He wanted her to work for him. He wanted to corrupt her entirely.
She was drowning, drowning in a sea of sorrow and nightmares. Ever since she'd seen him the first time with Kikyou she'd felt a part of her heart leave her. Like she was missing a piece of her soul… Now, she felt so empty inside, so hollow. Little was left there. She wondered if anything was. Her heart was now filled with the empty nothingness of sorrow and hatred. Sorrow and hatred that he'd put there. She hated the feeling. It pained her. And she was angry. Angry at him for putting it there in the first place. Where her love should have been for the hanyou, there was nothing but sadness and anger. But even more was reserved for Kikyou. Even now she wished death upon the re-animated priestess…
…When all this time I've been so hollow inside…
She returned to reality from the realm of nightmares that haunted her at night. She took the completed jewel and gave it to Naraku for everyone to see and then she killed Kikyou right in front of Inu-Yasha's eyes. Then, she turned on Inu-Yasha and bound him to the tree. Then she went to Naraku, and… and… She shuddered, not wanting to think about it. She didn't know why she dreamed of Naraku like… that. But lately it was becoming more and more frequent. And she actually wanted to be with Naraku. She still remembered what he had said in her dreams to her. You are not at all like Kikyou… You are far more powerful than she ever was…She finally left her thoughts and knew where she was before she even opened her eyes. She could feel his eyes on her. She'd felt his eyes on her for a long time now… She heard a rustling of cloth as she heard him leave. But she knew. She knew he was still watching her. He was always watching her…
…I know you're still there…
She still felt his eyes on her when she opened her eyes and looked about the room she was in. As she suspected, she was in Naraku's castle. But how did I get here? she wondered to herself. She sat up and noticed she was clothed in a kimono not her own. She blushed as she thought about who might have changed her clothes but she shook her head. No way he would. He'd leave that job up to his servants. He wouldn't waste his time on her. She saw a mirror in the room and shuddered at how much she really did look like Kikyou now. Her eyes were cold and her hair was longer, yet wilder. Her face held that far-away porcelain look and she was paler. She scowled, ruining the look. She hated how much she looked like the undead priestess…
She turned and wished that feeling would go away. She wished he would stop watching her…
…Watching me…
She remembered the nightmare. Had he been behind it? She examined the room while she thought about it. She shuddered as she remembered his words from the nightmare. You are nothing like Kikyou… You are much softer… Warmer… She blushed when she remembered how he touched her in the dream and shivered nervously as she remembered how acted towards her in the nightmare. As if though he wanted her…
…Wanting me…
Her eyes darkened at the thought. He probably thinks of me as some kind of replacement for Kikyou too she thought bitterly. Then, she remembered his voice in her nightmare. You are not at all like Kikyou… You are far more powerful than she ever was… You are nothing like Kikyou… You are much softer… Warmer…She shivered and curled up into a ball. She saw the shadow across the thin door. He was watching her again… Always watching her…
So, what do you think? As always no rough language or the favor shall be returned. No, I don't own Inu-Yasha or Evanescence. I only own Sesshomaru. Grabs and hugs Mine! R&R. Fay.