A/N: well I thought of this when I woz listening to Avril Lavigne's nobody's home ok here it is…

Disclaimer: I don't won XS or the characters

Chapter 1: Fighting.

Kimiko lay on her bed, her pillow over her head. She was trying so hard to block out the shouting downstairs. Her mother had found a new boyfriend, Brian, but things weren't going smoothly, Brian had been abusing Kimiko's mother, Shiela. He had never actually hit Kimiko or her mother but he would hit pillows and walls. Kimko was always so sad, she knew she would have to get used to this, but she knew she coukd never replace her father. Kimiko's dad had died a few years ago from lung cancer 'it's his fault for smoking' her mother would always say, but Kimiko never believed her. Kimiko couldn't block out her mothers shouts and screams, she hated life at her home she always wanted to go out or go to school but now the Christmas holidays had started she had no school to go to, all her friends were away seeing relatives or close family friends.

Kimiko wasn't sure what her parents argued about, she would always block it out unsuccessfully. Kimiko had actually once confronted Brian about all the damage he had done.

"You can't just come into our family and hurt my mum!!" Kimiko would shout

"Don't you dare shout at me young lady you can't tell me what not to do you are only 17!!" he would shout and would send her to her room. Kimiko thought that showing she really cared about them fighting might mean something to Brian, but she was wrong, it made no difference, if anything it provoked him even more but he always seemed to take it out on Kimiko's mother. She always felt responsible for some reason, part of her know it wasn't her fault she would always cry in her room, sometimes sit, her knees up to her chin rocking backwards and forwards saying "I'm sorry I'm sorry" or "It's my fault it's my fault" repeatedly.

Kimiko gave up all hope of blocking out the shouts she turned over and stared at the ceiling. Kimiko felt like she was half way down in the earth on her way to hell. The war she lived as a life was killing her inside, someday she would escape and live a beautiful life and meet a perfect guy and have a perfect life. Everyone had their ups and downs in life but Kimiko felt that she was climbing up a huge black hill, a never ending struggle through life.

Kimiko lay on her bed, thinking about how much she wanted to get away from her family, well Brain, she knew her mum was on her side. Kimiko wished that she could live a normal life like everyone else, but this wish was a pretty big one. She checked her watch, 7:00am, she stood up and then knelt down, she reached under her bed and pulled out a silver box, this contained all of her special stuff, usually she would look inside and cherish the moments of her life that weren't shattered, but she only pushed it to one side and reached deeper under her bed, after a few minutes of searching she pulled out a guitar. Kimiko would always play away her troubles. Kimiko wrote her own songs, many of then based on her life. She had half a mind to release some but she knew that Brian would never let her. Kimiko played her favourite song 'puzzle left undone' this had been a song that her father had started but never finished, she played I t again

You seal me with one word of comfort,

But turn on me when I cry,

If I sink or float, it doesn't make a difference,

Coz this is where I lie,

You used bring me up when I sank in the deepest river,

Darkest moments were so far away but it's all over,

I try to seek you find you but you're gone,

I lie heartbroken coz I'm a puzzle left undone

Kimiko sat there tears filling her eyes, she turned her guitar over and read the inscription on the back. Kimiko hold onto this and play all your troubles away…

Her dad had left that inscription to her, she couldn't bear the fact that she could never see him again, her vision became fuzzy as her eyes flooded with tears, she couldn't live like this anymore but she couldn't do anything about it. Kimiko looked at her calendar, 8 days until Christmas…

A/N: Well I know it is not the greatest chapter but I am not rushing into it like I usually do so… I hope you like and please R&R and I want your true opinion so i can learn from that but please no flamers…