AN: I know I should be working on Summer's End, but I got a little writer's block on how I wanted the story to go. It's moving too quickly to the climax. I want to put a little more "meat" on it before I get there, but I am trying to figure how I want to do that. As a breaker, I decided to write a songfic for our favorite neko, Kyo. The song, Only Time by Enya is perfect for what he's going through. I hope you enjoy this little, short,one-shotter/ songfic. This takes place during the summer, when he's alone in his room to only contemplate (after a mini-argument with Tohru).
I do not own Fruits Baskets, the song "Only Time" (I own the fic, though) or Kyo.
Only Time
Another tear came to her eye again. Caused by me…I made her cry. Why do I let these things happen? I don't want to make her heart ache because I was such an angry idiot. If I tell her would she stop crying or will she cry more? I might make her cry again…maybe it's best if I keep quiet.
Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows?
Only time...
Time is all I have to make those tears go away. In the end, I want her to smile that silly smile, like she always does. She's always crying because of me. Always. It just hurts me to see her lost her spirit. All I could do is stay by her until it's time.
And who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose?
Only time...
What if I told her that I met the woman that she adored so much? Would she smile? Would she cry? What would she say to me? What would she do? Only time would give me the answer. Someday she'll know…and also that I love her. Would she love me back or does she love me at all?
Who can say why your heart sighs,
As your love flies?
Only time...
Yes. My love…my flower…my Tohru. My first love…my only love. It pains me to not to tell her of my love because I don't want her to be hurt by it. All I could do is love her in secret and do the things that makes her smile. In the time remaining…
And who can say why your heart cries,
When your love dies?
Only time...
To see her hurt…to see her in pain…digs deep in my heart. Her pain has become mine…I even dreamt of her in pain…caused by me. I don't want to be that person. I just want to love her.
Who can say when the roads meet,
That love might be,
In your heart.
Whenshe let me do these small things…touching her face, holding her hand, stroking her hair…I felt as though she felt something for me. However, she had not told me of her love, yet…so I could only guess. It was rude of me to think of such things when I don't deserve it. The one who worries her endlessly and causing her pain. No. I won't make her mine alone.
And who can say when the day sleeps,
If the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart...
My heart sits quietly in the darkness…dreaming of a hopeful tomorrow with her and hoping I'll be free of this darkness. She was in my hopeful dream… a place where I could love her, hold her and care for her. A place where no one could reach, but us. Everyday, I continue to dream in hopes of a better tomorrow.
Who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose?
Only time...
A tomorrow with her smiles and laughter.
And who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows?
Only time...
A tomorrow without tears or pain.
Who knows?
Only time...
Time. That's all I have to give her. The last of my time outside. It's all I could do.
Who knows?
Only time...
Now…I must go an wipe those tears away.
Please Kami-sama, don't take my time away…it's all I have.
AN: Excuse my shortness, but this is just a breaker from my other fic. Please listen to "Only Time" to get a feel for this fic or sing it in your mind. I think this is a good song for Kyo and Tohru.