Yup, another fic by me. "Speech" 'thoughts'
The endless calling of her father was getting harder to resist. Her emotions were almost out of control. She hadn't let any of her friends find out. She acted the same way she always did, during the day. But at night, she would wake up screaming, with things in her room flying around or exploding. But waking up to that was better then remaining in her dreams.
She would dream terrible scenes of destruction. Cities burned to the ground, bodies strewn about the rubble. The sky was burned black, the oceans boiled, the earth shook. Nothing was spared from the destruction. Her friends died in from of her, torn limb from limb by her own powers. And worst of all, she wasn't sad in the dreams. It was her own power that destroyed so much, and she was happy. When she woke up, the memories were terrible, she was afraid of them, but what she remember more than anything, more than the destruction, more than the dead bodies, more than her mutilated teammates, was the ecstasy she had felt.
She knew that if she gave in to her father, these dreams would be reality. Cities would be razed, people would die. Her friends would die. And she would be happy. She didn't want that. She didn't want to be happy. Happiness was the path to her father. Happiness was the path to destruction. She was happy around her friends. Her friends were the path to destruction. Did she not want friends?
She had to get away. But how? She couldn't die. Her mind was the only thing keeping her father from destroying everything. Destroy the body, the mind would be free. The mind would destroy. All would die if she died. She couldn't die. What could she do?
Go in between. Not alive, not dead. Eternally fighting her father. Yes. That would work. She knew how to do it. She would have to leave. Now.
...
When Cyborg walked into the kitchen in the morning, he found the room empty. This surprised him. Raven was always awake first, usually making her tea by the time he got down. The others usually woke up a good half hour after them. Though he never told her, or anyone for that matter, he really liked that half-hour alone with her. It was calm, without any interruptions. Normally, Raven would talk to him a bit. He really loved talking to her. She thought in a different way than everyone else did, so talks with her were also different than talks with other people.
But now she wasn't there. Cyborg knew she could take care of herself, so he wasn't overly worried. He was just confused. 'She was probably a little more tired last night than she normally is.' he thought to himself.
All same, he was a bit unhappy when Robin walked in to the kitchen. He wouldn't have that half-hour alone with Raven today.
"Good morning Cyborg, Raven" said Robin without spending the time to look around the room before giving his greeting. Mornings were fairly routine. "Wait a minute" he said after bothering to check who was actually in the room. "Where's Raven?" he asked Cyborg.
"I've been wondering that since I got down here." Cyborg responded. "She probably just wanted a bit more sleep today. She does wake up pretty early ya know."
"So do you." Robin pointed out.
"I get plugged into a generator man. My battery always takes the same amount of time to recharge." Cyborg explained.
"Oh" was all Robin had to say.
The kitchen was quiet until Starfire and Beastboy walked in. "Hello friends! Did you all sleep well?" yelled Starfire.
"Starfire, Beastboy, do either you know where Raven is?" asked Robin.
"She's not here yet?" asked Beastboy.
"No."
"Alright! I finally woke up before her!" yelled Beastboy. He didn't seem to realize that it might be a bad thing for her to not be awake.
"Do you think we should go wake her up?" asked Cyborg.
"Dude, I am not going in her room. She'd throw me out right through the wall." responded Beastboy with fear in his voice.
"I agree with Beastboy. Raven can be rather... unpleasant at times." said Starfire slowly.
"Raven does like her privacy." agreed Robin.
Cyborg decided to trust them. He went back to eating his breakfast, thinking that Raven would come down when she was ready.
...
She walk through the snow and wind like she didn't fell it. She needed somewhere where she wouldn't be disturbed, and this was the perfect place. She wouldn't be disturbed here. Ever. She wasn't happy about not informing her friends of her decision, but they would only interfere. They would only try to stop her. They would only doom the planet.
Abruptly she stopped walking. This spot was good enough. She sat down and began to meditate. She visualized the bonds holding her father, and focus on maintaining those bonds. She never expected to leave this trance. She would enter a trance, and remain there forever, not alive, not dead, meditating.
Well, what did you think? This could be a one-shot, but I don't think I'm going to end it like this. So you all, know, yes, I am in favor of the Cyborg/Raven pairing. Please review.