Words I Never Found: [chapter nine: Within You Forever]

Author's notes: This is the last chapter. I loved writing this fanfiction, but it's time for me to move on. (I'll probably write another Yoh/Anna fic XD... knowing me) Nonetheless, here's the ending, though some might be unsatisfied or left hanging but this is how I've decided to end it. Don't flame me, please, I know many didn't want this to happen... but it did. (Some people might get pissed at me where they might not want to read further XD)

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She was there, limp in his arms as he cried out her name through his tears. She cuddled up to him, as he buried his head in her stomach then shoulder. He didn't know what was going to happen. "Y-Y..." He didn't finish his sentence as he choked on a tear. "Y-You're not going to die... are you??" He asked worriedly, crying into her shoulder. She just smiled, which was a surprising thing to do in such situation. "Even if I die... I'll die happy. Dying with the fact that someday, I would have been your Shaman Queen..." he looked into her eyes. "I will win the Shaman tournament, Anna. Not for me... Not for Manta... not for the sake of the Shaman throne. But for you."

She smiled once more. "I'll be watching you from heaven, guiding you from there. I know you'll win, Yoh. I'm very sure." Yoh kissed her fragile, trembling lips as she slowly closed her eyes. "No... you can't leave me!" He cried out, burying his head into her chest. He looked around, wondering where an AMBULANCE was or some sort of help?! If she is going to die, it won't be here. It won't.

All the sudden, an ambulance came roaring down the street as the lights filled Yoh's face. The principal rushed out, seeing what happened she screamed in terror and ran to them. "Asakura Yoh! What the hell is going on here?? You better have a proper explanation!" She had the angriest face you could ever see planted on her features, all of them fixed towards the crying Yoh. "I... did something I shouldn't have done. And she ran off..." She blinked, but then looked towards the ambulance and ran towards it when it hadn't even stopped yet. And no, she didn't get hit ;

She ran to the side, screaming her head off as students stuck their heads out the window to see the sudden panic and commotion. They tore Anna out of his arms, placing her on the stretch board. He stood up and watched her be placed inside, and to his surprisement... before they shut the door, she opened her eyes and weakily smiled at Yoh. That image would stay in his mind forever.

That's probably the last time I'll ever see her smile, her face. It's all going to end now. I didn't even get to say goodbye.. all I did was cry and kiss her. I never properly said goodbye.

The principal grabbed his arm harshly. "You are coming with me to the hospital, you were the one who got her in this mess!" He was pulled into the car, the principal must have been REALLY pissed... What was I thinking when I was with Gabrielle? I never regarded or thought about Anna or her feelings... I swear I will never forget you or... He paused, in the middle of his own thoughts. ...my love for you... I will never speak to that chick again, and I will win the Shaman tournament, like I said... for you.

She sharply turned the corner, making him crash into the side and break his thoughts. Soon enough, they approached the large white building that looked slightly run down, as she immediately parked and immediately took Yoh by the arm and tugged him into the hospital. "Ow! God da-" he choked on his words, as he saw Anna speed through the halls to the emergency room. He immediately froze, seeing her fragile unmovable body being sped through the halls, at least six doctors surrounding her. Even if she lives... she'll never be able to be the full-fledged itako she dreamed of.

"I need to get back to the school, so don't screw up! Stay here, wait until she can be visited and do so, or you'll be getting punishments you never thought legal!" She ran out of the door, leaving the helpless middle school student in the middle of the hospital, with his thoughts and sudden agony in his heart. He couldn't imagine what pain he must put Anna through, running off to preppy bitches. He knew it was wrong. He never thought once about Anna's feelings when he did this... but, this very second, he swore in his heart to never love another.

He told the desk he was waiting for 'Kyouyama Anna' and sat on a chair. He put his feet up on the table, and he laid back comfortably in the chair... he probably just looked like a careless bum sitting in the middle of a hospital just now. But he really, really didn't give a shit. His fiancée was in the emergency room... Maybe the principal was right... it was all my fault.

He waited there for at least two hours. "Asakura Yoh? The patient you wished to visit is now available for company." A person appeared in the door to show Yoh Anna's room, and he followed her. Winding down a few halls or so, a temporary card on the side of the door said 'Kyouyama Anna'. He stepped in slowly, seeing her helpless in that bed with her eyes barely open made him cry out. "Anna!"

Yoh rushed up to her, she immediately turned to him with a weak smile. How does she smile... in her near death situation? He looked into her eyes, looking so warm but cold at the same time... her eyes looked unexplainable. "Yoh... I'm going to die." He touched her arm, feeling the warmth it had... but it was so bruised, with a few small cuts or so. "You can't leave me... not now..." She hadn't changed into the hospital gowns, or whatever, she had her ripped but surprisingly not-showing-cleavage clothing. She reached into her pockets, taking out a locket she smiled. "I wanted you to have this. I was going to save it for Valentines Day... but I think now is the best time." He let her drop it into his hand, opening it up, it had a picture of her... and the other side was blank. "I couldn't find a picture of you," She giggled softly, "So you'll need to fill that one with a picture of your own."

He looked into her eyes, stuffing the locket into his pocket, his eyes started to water again as he bent down to lightly kiss her. "Anna... how can you be so positive? You... your going to die!" He said softly, but in a slightly harsh tone as he kept his eyes in hers. "Yoh... I don't consider it dying. I am no matter what going to be with you." He made a weak, but visible smile as he slowly but the locket around his neck, after digging into his pocket. "Anna... I promise you I will never love another person, and I will win that fight for you." She smiled. "I'm glad you'll win it. No matter who it is for. But... don't hang on. I am dying. There are so many other people in the world."

He shook his head rather violently, well not exactly violent... but harshly. "Anna, my heart is so deep for you I couldn't if I want to!" He said slightly loudly.

She slowly closed her eyes.

"Anna... w-what?" He said, looking at her. "Y-You can't..." With her very last breath, she spoke to him for the last time. "I'm glad you were with me, Yoh. I'm glad I died with you... not anyone else." How can she be happy she is dying in the first place? She took her last breath, then letting her head fall to the side to face him she slowly closed her eyes and gave in. She was gone forever. Forever. The word rang in his ear, as she heard her last gasping breath.

He touched her arms, which were now limp and getting cold. He rubbed her arms, not letting himself believe she was now gone.

Flashback.

"C'mon Anna, you're going to get a cold!" The cheery Yoh exclaimed, as they built a snowman together. "It doesn't matter to me." She just responded with, her usual emotionless response. She put her scarf around the snowman, as Yoh made the smile out of charcoal. He smiled proudly, overlooking the snowman. "Oh... forgot one thing!" She said, her face got all cute. He blinked, but then hid his confusion with a smile. She took his green cap and put it on the snowman's head. He blinked, then reaching up for the snowman's hat Anna jokingly pushed him. "Hey, he needs it more then you!" She said, looking over to him. "You think so, hm?" He said, chasing her as she ran throughout the snowy field, which was located somewhere near the inn. He finally caught her, tackling her and bringing her to the ground as they giggled. "Pinned you." He said playfully, now on top of her and looking in her eyes. She pushed him off, then brushing off the snow on her jacket. "Well... I'll get you back."

End Flashback.

He hadn't even noticed that throughout his little flashback, he had begun crying. Wiping his tears, he decided this was his final goodbye and he had to live with that. He walked over to her lifeless body, lightly kissing her forehead he then walked away. He opened the door, but paused in the middle of the frame as he looked back at her. "I'm never going to forget you..." He paused to whisper. "...Asakura Anna."

He then closed the door behind him, leaving her forever and he knew it. Tomorrow, he'd probably wake up and expect the smell the sweet smell of rice and to see Anna in the kitchen; her apron on, and her hair tied in a short whine bandana just for cooking. He could imagine her now, with her emotionless face and saying her daily lectures. You better eat fast, or you're going to be late for school. And don't be so lazy, or I'll toughen your training! Who was going to train him now? Who was going to give him 10- pound weights to run with, running 30 laps?

He walked out of the hallways, out of the waiting room, out of the hospital completely. He took in the fresh air, when a monstrous being disturbed the sudden peace. Also know as, principals. "You apologized, right? Your ass better get back to school tomorrow, I'll let you have today off since the sudden accident!" He nodded, and then she drove off at high speed. I swear, that psycho is going to crash into a pole someday...

He slowly started walking, guessing he'd have to walk home. The principal would most definitely not come back to drive him home. I didn't know principals were allowed to swear at students. He thought dumbfounded, looking ahead of him. Everything was a blur now. Nothing really mattered, either... but no matter what, he promised with all his heart that he would win the Shaman tournament, and pretend she was at the sidelines cheering him on with her beautiful face.

He walked in the field, as it started gracefully snowing. He felt the soft snow fall onto his nose, as he looked up into the clear blue sky. It was absolutely beautiful, and the weather was warm for winter; yet it was snowing. Clutching his locket, he collapsed into the snow and lowered his head. "Damn you, Gabrielle! You got me into this!" He cried out, tears streaming down his cheeks, as he clutched his locket, tearing it off his neck he opened it up to see Anna's face, inside. He luckily didn't actually rip anything, very luckily, but it snapped off easily.

He felt sudden warmth behind him. He stood up slowly, still clutching his locket. He turned around; and there was Anna's beautiful but fragile figure. She smiled softly. Is this my imagination? Am I really seeing Anna? Tell me this is all a dream... He tried to step closer, but he couldn't get his feet to remove themselves from the deep hole he made in the snow. "Yoh..." She said softly, her ghostly appearance shifting in the wind. She had a soft glaze upon her eyes; this one the most genuine and sweet one he had ever seen in his life. Not just on Anna- but anyone.

"Anna... please tell me you didn't die..." He said, tears still streaming down his face, holding his locket with trembling numb fingers. "Yoh... please don't dwell on me. Move on. Live a happy, full life once you win the throne of the Shaman King, enjoy life and be a happy person. But, please always remember... my soul will always be within you." She moved closer, her ghostly aura surrounding her. She touched his chest, with the nothing she was, he paused and just stood there. "My soul will always be within your heart... within your own soul." He felt another tear run down his cheek, as she kissed him if it was even possible as a spirit. She started to slowly fade, as she moved away from his face. "I'll always be with you..." She said, with a side dish of a soft smile as she disappeared forever.

He stood there for a moment, drinking in the emotions inside and everything; just everything; touching his own chest, he could feel a unusual warmth inside of himself. His fingers trembled, as they slowly slid down his chest and fell to his side. "Don't worry, Anna... I will always feel your warmth and spirit inside me." He said, looking up to the sky once more, which slightly lid up his face. "I will live a happy life. Just for you."

He turned around, putting his locket on once more. A small smile crept onto his porcelain face; he could still feel the warmth of her, the smell of her- everything. It would live inside him forever.

He started to walk away, listening to crunching of snow beneath his feet. The sun beat a harsher ray, the feeling of Anna crept over his body as he looked to the sky once more.

Yoh... I will watch over you forever.

So, turn up the corners of your lips

Part them and feel my fingertips

Trace the moment, fall forever

Defense is paper-thin

Just one touch and I'd be in

Too deep now to ever swim against the current

So let me slip away...

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Over dramatic? Horrible? Or may I be more specific... 'YOU MADE ANNA DIE?? I'M GOING TO KILL YOU!!!11one!!11' Either way, I'm satisfied with the ending. Reviews and comments appreciated, though flames really aren't. If you're going to flame me, please don't be too harsh. As I said in the beginning, I'm new to fanfic writing. :)