Author's Note: Okay this is last poem in my 3-part series. This one is
set far into the future, Cloud has died, and this is Tifa's final poem to
him. I originally wrote this poem about a guy I liked, but he didn't die.
Coincidentally, the second poem in this series, "A Long Time Coming" dealt
with a friend of mine who did, in fact, die, and if you've read my
paragraph "The Hardest Part About Living" you would see my feelings for
him. Just a little inside connection to all of my short little stories.

I ride along the twisting path, which leads to the hills so green
The rolling grassland blanketed with beautiful stones and lovely flowers
I gaze out the window, as I return to the day most painful in my life
The day you left me

I see your sweet face, looking down on me from the heavens
Hear your deep voice, telling me I'm beautiful
I feel you lifting me high into the air with your strong arms
And I can smell your sweet smell, like a rose petal

The hills pass one by one
It is a dark and dreary day
But for me it is like yesterday and the day before
There is no change

When you left me my life turned gray
My once so sunny days turned overcast
My crystal seas turn fire
My crisp autumn breeze turned harsh winter wind

It begins to rain
What a perfect movement for a day such as this
The raindrops are like the tears I shed
Though my tears could flood a river more so than the rain

Oh it seems like only yesterday you were here with me
You'd kiss me on my forehead
And tell me I'm pretty
And we'd be happy, together

You were the most handsome man on earth to me
Though to describe your features makes you sound odd
To my you appeared like a clothing cartoon
You carried yourself in you suave way that made me swoon

I recollect your spiked head, covered with golden hair so soft
Your nearly triangular shaped face and crystal blue eyes
Those beautiful cerulean pools that made you appear divine
And you strong muscular body that used to dance with me

But those days are dead, the days of staring at you handsome face
Dead along with my spirit
Dead like the hope in my heart
The hope I kept on waiting with
And waiting...

When you left me my life turned gray
My once so sunny days turned overcast
My crystal seas turn fire
My crisp autumn breeze turned harsh winter wind

I remember that day so well, though I have tried to forget a thousand fold
You kissed me good-bye
And then you left
And I never saw you again
I never thought that when I said good-bye, it meant forever

How I used to take our days together for granted
They brought me so much pleasure, so much joy
And now they're gone
And so are you

There's a smoldering pit of pain in my heart
Burned to a crisp
Left to rot
Rotted and died

If only you could return to me
But that's just a dream
You're gone
And my heart and soul are dead

When you left me my life turned gray
My once so sunny days turned overcast
My crystal seas turn fire
My crisp autumn breeze turned harsh winter wind

I don't recall ever an unhappy thought when I was with you
My troubles just seemed to melt away with your calm voice, and gentle touch
I didn't think you would ever leave
I thought you'd always be with me

I remember the day we met
I looked in your eyes, so shy, so bright
We talked for hours
Just you and I

I knew right then you were my one
You sensed it too
You gave that intelligent smile
And knowing laugh
And I knew

From that day on we never parted
No one else mattered
We were there for each other
And I thought we always would be

When you left me my life turned gray
My once so sunny days turned overcast
My crystal seas turn fire
My crisp autumn breeze turned harsh winter wind

The day I fought for an audience
I went backstage
The rest of my life I will wish that I were still on that stage
Still in my pretend world

The world you are in
Where we are together again
And you hold me
And I am happy again

But I know that that can never be
You are gone forever
And I am dead
Dead to the world, my world

They pulled me backstage, and sat me down
I still hear the words slamming my head down to the ground
My heart comes crashing, crashing down
My life shatters

When you left me my life turned gray
My once so sunny days turned overcast
My crystal seas turn fire
My crisp autumn breeze turned harsh winter wind

You were coming to me
On your way to see me
It began to rain
You pursued, you wouldn't back down

I wept, wept as the rain pelted down around the metal and glass
The blood and tears littered the road
All you could see was white
As you drift into the light

I hear the sound of the crash in my head
It rings in my ears and I try to block it out
But I persist, relentlessly
The look on your face, the look of terror and pain

As metal slashed against metal
Glass broke glass
Blood and tears met pavement
And my life, destroyed

I remember being taken to the scene
I called your name, as if you could hear
I expected to see you come rushing up to me, as always
But I knew

When I arrived, you were not there
I called for you, but got no answer
I saw you lying on the ground, and I screamed
This was not meant to be

I saw them pull the sheet over your head
I saw my life be carried off on a stretcher
I wanted to collapse, my heart sank
This didn't have to happen, and shouldn't have

I dress in black, as I will until my life ends
But to me it has already
I am dead
My heart is broken

Why were you taken from me?
I need you
I want you
I can't live without you

I live as a hermit without you
My arms are cut with knives
My throat is red from ropes
Still I cannot die

My body refuses to let me leave this land
I have nothing left to live for
You are gone
I am dead

My time will come
But not soon enough
Oh must I be tortured by being alive?
Why can't I join you?

I could leave this place
And return to you
And we would be together
Forever

Will this nightmare never end?
Can't I die and be in peace?
Please let me join you
Please let me be with you, if only for one more day

When you left me my life turned gray
My once so sunny days turned overcast
My crystal seas turn fire
My crisp autumn breeze turned harsh winter wind

My world has long since collapsed
I want to die
To throw myself from a cliff
Or onto a freeway, so I can die the way you did

I only want to be with you
To feel your warm breath on the back of my neck
To sense your body next to mine
To sigh as you hold me close

But it can never be
You are gone
Forever
And I am dead

So hear I am, riding
Being taken to your final resting place
Riding in the very type of vehicle that took you from me
Driving back to the day you left me

The car stops and I emerge into the overcast
The rain pelts down around me, though I cannot feel it
I stop at your grave, and place down the flowers
I say a prayer and being to cry

For what seems like hours I stand
Just staring at you
Speaking to you about what is going on
Missing you more than ever

I swallow my feelings
And leave this place
I leave the hills
I leave the flowers

I drive in the rain
It rains as it did on that fateful day
I pray for a truck to come
With a driver drunk

But nothing
I cannot bare my life without my love
I pull over to a bridge
I step out onto the ledge

Everyone tries to escape from pain
They think it is just a cruel fantasy
It only happens to unlucky people in a fictional world
But some people know nothing but pain
I being one of them now

I don't recall ever breaking into a smile since that cold rainy day
I think my once youthful face has frozen to a frown
Though I am still young, I appear to be much older
The premature wrinkles of sorrow show distinctly on my thin and pale face

I have grown frail, and have lost much weight
I no longer move as I once did, when I was happy
My veins show over my bare bones
My appearance is that of an aged skeleton
I care not

So here I am today, standing on this ledge so high
Looking down at the icy river below me
Small boats cast crashing ripples over the walls
A cold breeze blows, and I shudder

Should I end my pain? Right here and now?
Should I throw myself over the edge, and die in a watery grave?
Perhaps I shall, and be reunited with my beloved
For eternity, as it was meant to be before

I thought you would be with me forever
We were meant to be together
I am dead
And you are gone

And so I thrust myself off the ledge
Into my new bliss
Where I will be with you once again
And we will be in each other's arms

We will dance again
Live again
Time will never matter
We will love again

So as I plummet to my icy death
A tear streams down my cheek
And a smile cracks on my thin face
And I am alive, and free

Author's Note: Funny how fate works in mysterious ways, I wrote this poem
in 9th grade, and about a year later my best friend died in the way that
Cloud died here. Strange, huh? Also, I watched the movie "Save The Last
Dance" when I wrote this so that's sort of where the idea came from.