Hey! This is the continuation of my story "I'd Rather Be With You"
Thanks for waiting for so long…
Anyway, it's good to be back.
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Against The Wind
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The wind blows gently as it passes through the large trees that is in its way. Never paying any attention to those that it may destroy or what it may take with it. Telling everyone to stay at home or to where it can't take him or her. Passing warmer places for it to cool down… It chose to stroll into the already icy little village where it was time for the sakura trees to bloom…
In addition to that, this is the place where our story shall continue… In a small village where the famous monastery stands which Genjo Sanzo currently resides in.
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It is dark outside… Slowly the wind began to strengthen its howls and then light rain suddenly began to pour from the grayish-blue sky… The winds are banging the windows and it echoes through the silent rooms. Nobody seems to want to get out from their small rooms. Even though it was deafening.
Mostly everyone in the temple was asleep. For it was cold and would be nice to sleep into, instead of pacing back and forth with a cigarette in their hands. It was peaceful, except for the rattling and squeaking windows; nobody seems to mind the silence with the wind. Nevertheless, it was also relaxing with the sound of the ruffling and dancing leaves outside.
The rain fogs up the windows and nothing can be seen outside. You can only hear the sounds that are made by the rain and its associates. It would've been nice to watch the rain falling into the puddles and making ripples… smaller and getting bigger and bigger. Though there are tons of frogs outside so it still wasn't that much of a beautiful scene to watch…
No one can go out… They have to stay cooped up into their shabby dark rooms. Maybe if it wasn't raining and the wind weren't making so much trouble outside… maybe… most of them would be outside watching the sun and the blue sky. They should be sweeping the grounds around the temple… or meditating with everyone. Well, maybe not everyone…
It should be sunny and bright outside… People should be out of their houses and meddling with others or just hanging outside…but no. The cold wind has to show up and calls the rain… It must be nice when this is all over. When the sky is clear and the wind is soft with the rain gone, all of those that love to be exposed in the sunlight ought to come out.
But the saddest wasn't that it was so cold… it wasn't that it's dark… it surely isn't that not a soul can go out… it's because it is raining… It is also for the reason that it made someone even more silent than he already is… It is also that he doesn't talk, eat nor sleep… and most of all… his face, his lips and his eyes look heartbreaking. In an instant that a drizzle poured… he was gone to his own world… not even knowing… that I'm here… watching him.
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It's raining…
It's dark…
It's noisy…
It's gloomy…
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Sanzo stood at the front of the window… He can barely see the outside but he remains still… Only moving to grab another stick of his cigarette and to light it… his eyes are blank and his face is unreadable. His mind is off to somewhere… somewhere in the past… Where it all started and to where it ended. The pictures and the story in his mind kept on repeating… time after time after time…
He stayed in that position for so long… standing beside the window and leaning his weight on the wall. He stares blankly as some drops of the rain fell in to the window… He even forgets the cigarette that he was currently holding. The burnt ashes fell into the floor; spreading dirt into his bare feet. He doesn't feel the pain of the warm ashes…
He only feels the pain of the past that keeps on haunting him every time that it rains. From the start he hated the rain… and then it was added with another pain in the rain not so very long ago… He cannot forget even though if he wants to… It appears anywhere and everywhere that the rain comes to…
The hurt of being left alone is unbearable… and undying… finding a replacement isn't a cure… only getting it back will help to gain his life back. A replacement… that's all there is… that was what he always needed but he never found. He never searched… The great Sanzo would never beg nor show weakness to others… but that was a mistake…
As he hid his loneliness the bigger it grew inside of him. Getting heavier and heavier every time that it comes to haunt him over and over. Never knowing when it would stop… It's dark… He's alone… That's what he thought…
He didn't mind the silence… He was used to it. Even not speaking for a whole day is good for him. Although he was used to it… someone is not… so she tried to break the silence by calling his name in a whisper…
"Sanzoh??" She whispers. In her voice… it was all heard… her pain, her questions and her worry.
Sanzo turns to look at the person currently sitting in the probably cold bed. He just stared, as if he didn't know her. He looked at her without any expression on his face and turned to look back into the window. That sliced a wound into her heart… But she never minded it… Instead, she stood up and walked to him…
"Sanzo??? Are you okay? Can I get you anything?" She asked with her voice full of hope that he was just joking with all of these and look at her with a devious smile. But nothing happened. He didn't even budge. She reached up to touch his shoulder. Then he turned to look at her. She smiled at that.
"Don't touch me. Get lost!" He shouted at her… surprising her. She was taken aback. She quickly removed her hand from his shoulder, clutching both of her hand to her chest. She was about to cry but she didn't. It hurts… yes… so much!!! But she didn't cry. She just looked at him with sorrow and hurt with her teary eyes.
She summoned enough courage and voice to stand straight and to answer back at him, "Yes, Sanzo-sama." She turned and went straight to the door. She slid it open, went out and slid it close with a loud bang. It echoed slightly since the temple was so silent.
Still grasping both her hand into her chest, she marched into the other room. She entered and leaned on the door. Tears fell from her eyes… The same tears that she was fighting to not fall from her dazzling eyes. She loses all the courage and strength that she summoned to withstand the pain… slowly she slid down the floor and hug her knees to her chest.
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Gods! What was I thinking!!!??? What have I just done!?!
I panicked as soon as I realized what I just said to her. This is so screwed… If it wasn't raining!!! Damn the rains!!! I quickly paced back and forth thinking of what to do. AAARGH!!! I punched the window with all my might… breaking it… releasing my anger to myself. I should have just shot myself so this ought to be over now. I sigh and closed my eyes as the rain wets me. The cold air carrying and letting my hair flow with it. It feels good.
I opened my eyes and strode to the door. I went out and walk to the next door… Just when I was about to slide it open I heard sobs… She's crying again… Damn! I couldn't find it in me to open the door and see her face damp with tears.
I just stood there… Listening to her sobs and hard breathing. I leaned my head to her door and listened to what I have done to her. It must have been awful… With her worrying about me and me shouting at her with her doing nothing… I sighed. I should have just shot myself earlier so I wouldn't have to hear this… I can't say I'm sorry… I don't do that… Also, if I do tell her I am… I would have to tell her what I was thinking…
That got me out of my thoughts… I will just wait till she gets over it. Then it would be as if nothing has happened… Right! I walked back into my room and laid in my bed. I closed my eyes thinking everything will be all right when I wake up…
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"Nnnn… Uughhh." I opened my eyes and looked around, hoping all of it was a bad dream and that she's still in his room. But he didn't find her there. There were no traces that she had been here.
I stood up and took a warm bath. I was feeling kinda cold at that time. I went out to the dinning hall and found no one. I went to the entrance and found out that there was still a very light rain. I found Zeon standing beside my favorite sakura tree.
"Zeon!" I called him and he looked at me. Startled as to why I called him, he ran towards me almost falling into the slippery wet ground. He looked worried and scared… Was I really that scary???
"Yes, Sanzo-sama? Anything I can do for you?" He asked impatiently of what I might want from him… Since this is only the second time that I will talk to him. Rein is the one who likes to talk and be with this kid… Maybe he knows her whereabouts.
"Where's Rein?" I asked him with a commanding tone that he should answer correctly.
"Rein??" He looked at me questioningly and I looked at him. "Oh! You mean Miss Chiaki!" He said. He sounded proud that he realized that before I told him again. I forgot they that they knew her by Chiaki. Oh well. "But she made me promise that I…" Before he could finish I gave him the killer look. He was perspiring even though it was cold. "SHE'SATTHEBACK!!!" He rapidly said without pausing. He bowed and left.
I slightly smiled at his retreating back… Then I walked towards the back of the Temple…
I reached the backyard in a few minutes. I looked around and found what I came here for…
I walked towards her and grabbed her at her waist. Her body tensed and jumped a little. After a few seconds she loosen up and breathes kind of heavily… I turned her around but she wouldn't look at my eyes. I wanted to see her eyes so much. I… I… missed her…
I placed a finger under her chin and raised her face so her eyes would meet mine… With what I saw… I regretted wishing to have her here with me now…
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