Thanks to my beta EvilAngelBB for putting up with all of my bad spelling and horrible grammar. And I hope you all enjoy my first full chapter back into the world of Fanfic writing.
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Heero's Computer
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"Speech"
Thought
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Author: Heero Yuy Data Entry: HY0166 Date: Thursday May 1, PT002 Time: 1835 (6:35pm)
Computer,
Yet another day has passed by and Duo hasn't shown any sign's of awakening since that day almost five months ago. Every day becomes a new challenge for me, trying to find the will to live on. I have long since accepted the fact that I love Duo, and I will keep on loving him even if he never feels the same for me. Trowa told me to be strong when both he stopped by the other day…
----A few days ago----
"Heero…"
"…"
"Heero…"
"Hn…" as I turned and noticed Trowa trying to get my attention from the doorway of the hospital room. "Hey, Trowa." Was all I said before turning back to stare at Duo hoping for some change, some outward sign of life.
"Heero, you can't go on like this. You haven't…"
"I will go on as long as it takes."
"But Heero, be reasonable…"
"What if it were Quatre in that bed? Would you be saying the same thing? Or would you be sitting here where I am waiting for him?"
"…" He stood there, as he had all the other times he had tried to reason with me.
"Ok, Heero… At least… would you at least come to dinner with us?"
"Hn… Maybe next-"
"Next time… that's what you said the last time, and the time before that, and every other time we have tried to get you to move. Heero you have to do something with yourself."
"Hn…"
Long Sigh "Look, the nurses have told me on several occasions that they don't think you're eating anything other than the small amount of food they have been giving you in the morning when you get here… Everyone is worried about you Heero…"
"Hn… I'm fine. Duo is all that matters to me right now."
sigh That was the last thing I heard before I went back to staring at Duo again. I reached out to wipe is hair out of his face and then sat back down with my back facing the door.
Duo, come back. This life is not worth living anymore without you.
Just as I was about to fall asleep, a pair of arms wrapped around me and began dragging me out of the room.
"Heero, this is for your own good"
I realized it was Trowa and he was holding onto me as tightly as he possibly could.
"Trowa! Stop! Put me down!"
"No, Heero, this is for your own good."
"PUT ME DOWN, or I swear, I'll…"
"What Heero…You'll what? Kill me? You don't have the strength to do anything to me right now Heero. Had this been a few months ago, you might have been able to stop me, but like Duo, you haven't moved other than to travel back and forth from your apartment to this hospital room. So go ahead yell and threaten me all you want, but it will do you no good."
"Put me down! I have to stay here with him. Come on Trowa, this isn't funny. Put me down!"
I continued to thrash about violently, using all of my strength trying to break free from Trowa's hold. After about five minutes I began to slow up. Trowa was right, as much as I hated to admit it. I had grown weaker, my efforts obviously causing me to tire out rapidly.
"Please…Don't make me leave." Tears were forming in my eyes.
The nurses, after noticing that Trowa was also starting to tire from trying to hold me for so long, rush over and shot me with, what must have been, some sort a sedative. Soon after, I fell asleep in Trowa's arms. He moved to place me in a nearby wheelchair and then proceeded to sit down on a sofa, exhausted after the ordeal. The rest of the hospital visit I learned after I woke up.
----Trowa's recollection of what happened while I was drugged.----
One of the younger nurses' assistants came over and handed Trowa a cup of water.
"Thank you Mr. Barton for stopping by."
"It was no problem."
"So, umm…Mr. Barton…is there a girl in your life?
Trowa looked up in shock.
"Uh…Uh no there…"
"Really? Someone as strong as you should have a woman in your life."
"Sorry lady, but I'm already taken."
"You can be. You just said you were single."
"No, you just assumed I was single."
"But you just said, there was no…"
"I'm gay."
It took a couple of seconds before it registered in the girl's mind.
"Aw shoot…well what about that cute blond guy that's always up here? Surely he's availa-"
"He's my fiancé."
"Gee… you really know how to ruin a girl's fun," she said as she turned to walk down the hall. "Wait 'till Susie hears about this… having a crush on not one but two gay guys and they're engaged."
Trowa couldn't help but smile at the girl as she walked away. He looked back over to me. I was still sleeping in the wheelchair with a very trouble look on my face. I didn't want to be away from Duo.
----an hour later Heero's point of view----
I woke up in a room, on a nice leather sofa. The television was on quietly. I could hear two voices coming from the other room. After listening closely to the conversation, I could tell that it was Quatre and Trowa.
Trowa, that bastard… must have brought me to their place…
Still feeling a bit unsteady from the sedative, I slowly made my way into the kitchen where I heard the other two.
"So you're awake?" came the lower of the two voices.
"Hn… no thanks to you… Why did you take me away from Duo?" I asked with a flat tone to my voice.
"There was no other choice, Heero…" Quatre said in a calm voice.
Quatre moved from his seat at the counter and crossed the room to grab a glass and then filled it with water for me.
"... We were concerned about your health. You need to get away from the hospital. Even if it is only for a few…"
"Damn it!!! How many times must I tell you?! I want to be there for him. I owe him that much at least."
Quatre waited for my shouts to end.
"Heero, Trowa and I both know how much you want to be there for Duo. But –sigh- how can I put this…? If you stay there and continue to do what you are doing, at this rate, when Duo does awaken from his coma, you'll be too weak to help him. Even worse, you could be in a bed next to him, suffering form exhaustion and malnutrition!"
Quatre didn't realize that he had allowed himself to get so worked up over this whole ordeal.
"I'm sorry… I didn't mean to yell, Heero…."
I was still staring at the blond in shock. It was rare to see Quatre angry or upset like this.
"… its just that… I already have one friend in the hospital. I don't think I could stand to see another one slip away and end up in the same situation."
Quatre went to sit back down in his seat, with his elbows resting on the counter, his hands on his head and staring down into his cup, his face distorted with many different emotions. Trowa took a place next to him and tried to comfort his smaller lover.
"Quatre…" I began, then I just turned and walked into the other room, back to the couch I had been sleeping on minutes before.
What do I do? I need to be with Duo, but… my friends…
"Heero?"
He looked up to see Trowa staring at him.
"I'm sorry, Trowa…" I began. "I'm sorry to both you and Quat…" -sigh- "I'm sorry to make you both worry so much."
"Don't be," Trowa interrupted , "look, Heero… We don't want you to be away from Duo. Quatre goes on about how 'sweet' it is that you are being so devoted to Duo the way you are…"
I almost let a smile cross my face, knowing that 'sweet' wasn't a word that Trowa used very often, if at all, and he was a having a hard time with the word.
"… All we want to do is to get you out of there, and get you to keep your life going. Duo wouldn't want you wasting away because of him."
"Hn."
"Look, after we get you something to eat, just promise us that you will try to take care of yourself a little better. Besides, I don't know about you, but it breaks my heart to see Quatre so worked up like this.
"Hn." I nodded in agreement.
"I guess I'll go and check on Quat' really quick, then I'll take you out to grab a bite to eat, and then I guess I'll take ya back to the Hospital."
"Ok."
Trowa began walking back to the kitchen to check on the blond.
"Heero"
"Trowa"
We said at the same time.
"You first," I offered.
-sigh- "Promise me you won't go tellin' Quatre that I used more than three words in a sentence, or that I was actually able to hold an actual conversation with anyone."
I let out a short laugh, and Trowa just stood there dumbfounded.
"As long as you don't go telling Duo that I actually managed coherent sentences."
"Deal," came Trowa's reply, "besides even if I did, I'm pretty sure he wouldn't believe me even if I told him."
----Present time (Journal Entry)----
Well, ever since that day earlier this week, I've actually tried to keep my word. I gone out to lunch and dinner with Quatre and Trowa everyday this week, and I've also started sleeping in my bed again. It's good to have friends that…
----In the background (Real life)----
"Man…I'm thirsty," came a very weak voice from out of nowhere.
Heero turned slowly. His heart caught in his throat and his mind started going a mile a minute.
"D-Duo?"
"Hey, Heero..." the voice was still very weak and hoarse, "What's a guy gotta do to get some water around here?"
He rushed to the bed where Duo was laying.
"Duo…" a tear began to run down his face. He didn't want to believe the impossible.
"That's my name don't wear it out."
"Duo!"
He finally let go of everything. He let his head rest on Duo's chest and cried. All the months of grieving and regret and now… happiness. All of it came out at once. Like a tidal wave of emotions that he could no longer control.
"Hey, hey, hey… Heero, whatever it is, its okay." Duo voice so soft, from months of not using it.
"What's going on in here?" one of the nurse came by to check to make sure everything is was okay. "Oh my… you're awake… the doctors must know about this immediately," she stated as she turned and rushed back out into the hall.
Duo slowly lifted one of his arms up to place it on Heero's head as he cried. He didn't know what was really going on but he knew he was going to find out really soon.
Well, I hope you all liked this chapter. Holidays made this chapter come a little later than I would have like but, here it is. I am already working on the next chapter, so I hope to have that up and running soon.