AN: This story is a continuation of my one shot formerly called Watching Through My Window. I changed the title because it did not seem to fit with the rest of the story and it was not as exciting to me. Okay. I hope all of you like this. Thanks for taking the time to read and review!
Disclaimer: I...do...not...own...Kingdom Hearts...and...never...will...only in my dreams!
Chapter 1: Feelings Revealed
Two years. It had been two years since we last saw Sora. Kairi and I had been together, but we had still been apart. I had never told her how I really felt about her. Was it...fear?...fear of rejection? In my mind I knew it was true.
I was afraid she had already fallen in love with Sora. But she had never showed any signs of it. So why didn't I go for it? Those thoughts raced through my mind.
I stood up from my position near the shore. I would tell her now. My steps led me across the sand, to where Kairi was standing, leaning against a coconut tree. I mustered up all I had inside. I'm really doing this...
"Kai?"
"What?"
My heart skipped a beat. Even that little word made it do so. Her voice was so pure and beautiful. She had grown over the years, and not a second of her beauty was lost...it must have grown more.
"Uh, we gotta talk."
"Sure."
"Well, I've been meaning to say something for a long time...a-and...a-and...I-I" Come on big boy, stop stuttering. I knew I was acting like a blubbering fool, so I decided to spill it all out right then and there.
"I love you, Kairi."
I waited for any kind of response. She stood there for a moment. The pause seemed like an eternity...pauses weren't a good sign. She seemed to be thinking. Her eyes narrowed, then met mine.
"I'm sorry, Riku."
I didn't understand what she was saying. My ears and mind heard what she said, but my heart didn't want to listen. "Huh?"
Kairi sighed, looking away. "You're too late. I think I'm already in love with someone else..."
"Someone else..." I said it quietly but I knew she heard me. I already knew whom she was talking about before she even said it.
"...Sora." She continued. "But, even so. Now? You tell me now? After all this time?"
I had to agree with her. I should've told her long before, but I didn't. Then I realized something. "Does he love you back? I'm pretty sure he's never told you he loves you."
Kairi stood up straighter, taking her weight off of the tree. Her eyes left mine, slowly focusing on the entrance to the secret place. I took note of that.
"He didn't actually say it in words...but he let me know in other ways..."
I felt...jealousy? Of course. Sora was the one who sacrificed his heart for her. But what had I done? The same thing. I left my heart to darkness only in order to save her. But...the secret place...I would have to check it out for myself.
I sighed. "Kai, it has been two years. He might not come back."
I hated saying those words. No matter how much I wanted Kairi for myself I knew that Sora was still my friend and I still wanted him back home. We had been best buds. I remembered when we'd compete for Kairi's attention when we were little. We'd have wooden sword fights too and I would always win but we would never be spiteful towards one another. Even though he was the Keyblade Master and I wasn't. We were still friends...
"No...he has to come back." I seemed to have hit her soft spot. Tears welled up in the back of her baby blue eyes. "He promised." She spoke louder now. "He promised!!!!"
I grabbed hold of her shoulders gently. "Kairi, I want him back too but you might have to accept fate."
Kairi nodded, and I let go. Her eyes met mine again. "I...I need to see."
"What?"
"I need to think about what you told me. Sora might not come back, so there may be no use waiting, maybe..."
I breathed outward heavily. "So, you're saying you'll only love me back if you find out either Sora doesn't love you or if he doesn't come back?" I knew that those words were the harsh way of putting it. But in a way it was true.
"Sort of. Just...give me some time...okay?"
I nodded, knowing that I still had a chance. Knowing that Kairi could still become mine. I needed her to love me back so much...
She turned, silently walking towards the secret place without a goodbye. I'd have to wait until I knew what she was talking about in there. I turned, briskly walking towards my house. It was a short walk. Short and lonely.
I ignored everything for the next few days, both patiently and impatiently awaiting Kairi's response. Would she ever love me back? It had been a while. She would have to decide soon because I didn't know if I could wait very long.
I was at my window, just staring at the beach below. I could see a lot of the island from my view. I had been like that the last few days, looking at the scenes outside. I guess you could say I was a hermit.
It was early evening. The sun was setting, the pink and purple and orange colors somehow reminding me of Kairi. My eyes scanned the calm ocean that surrounded Destiny Islands. Then I looked lower, towards the shore, the waves gently nipping at it.
And then...I saw something that made my eyes grow wide. My heart beat a million times faster, it seemed. I stood up, leaning as best I could to get a better look at the figure below that I was staring at.
Sora...Ragged, worn out, Keyblade at his side. Where he came from, I did not know. What he had gone through, I did not know. But I knew that he was back.
A smile actually broke out from my lips. I hadn't done so in a long time. I turned to go down and outside to greet him when something caught my eye.
Kairi saw him first. She came from the secret place area. I had bet that was where she was. For while I hid away in my room, she would hide away in that dirty old cave that we'd play in when we were smaller.
Kairi walked slowly at first, half not believing Sora was there. But there was no mistake about it. Then she began to run towards him.
He dropped his weapon on the ground, running to meet her halfway. They embraced...and I didn't feel jealous. A hug was a hug. But still....
Still holding her, I saw Sora reach into his pocket, pulling out a small item. It was white, and glinted from the setting sun...I remembered it from long ago...her good luck charm...
She took it from him, holding it close to her chest. I could tell that they were talking. But what were they saying?
Then, Sora reached out and caressed her cheek. My nerves broke a bit. My smile dropped. I knew something was going to happen...but...
But it happened. He leaned forward...and...so did she. They kissed for a long time. I averted my gaze momentarily.
Him. She had chosen him. I knew it would take a while for me to get over it. To get over my feelings about her. Maybe I never would...I felt angry, but knew that it wasn't her fault. It was my fault.
So it was then, watching through my window, that I knew she was already taken. That I knew that she would never be mine, and she never was.
Disclaimer: I...do...not...own...Kingdom Hearts...and...never...will...only in my dreams!
Chapter 1: Feelings Revealed
Two years. It had been two years since we last saw Sora. Kairi and I had been together, but we had still been apart. I had never told her how I really felt about her. Was it...fear?...fear of rejection? In my mind I knew it was true.
I was afraid she had already fallen in love with Sora. But she had never showed any signs of it. So why didn't I go for it? Those thoughts raced through my mind.
I stood up from my position near the shore. I would tell her now. My steps led me across the sand, to where Kairi was standing, leaning against a coconut tree. I mustered up all I had inside. I'm really doing this...
"Kai?"
"What?"
My heart skipped a beat. Even that little word made it do so. Her voice was so pure and beautiful. She had grown over the years, and not a second of her beauty was lost...it must have grown more.
"Uh, we gotta talk."
"Sure."
"Well, I've been meaning to say something for a long time...a-and...a-and...I-I" Come on big boy, stop stuttering. I knew I was acting like a blubbering fool, so I decided to spill it all out right then and there.
"I love you, Kairi."
I waited for any kind of response. She stood there for a moment. The pause seemed like an eternity...pauses weren't a good sign. She seemed to be thinking. Her eyes narrowed, then met mine.
"I'm sorry, Riku."
I didn't understand what she was saying. My ears and mind heard what she said, but my heart didn't want to listen. "Huh?"
Kairi sighed, looking away. "You're too late. I think I'm already in love with someone else..."
"Someone else..." I said it quietly but I knew she heard me. I already knew whom she was talking about before she even said it.
"...Sora." She continued. "But, even so. Now? You tell me now? After all this time?"
I had to agree with her. I should've told her long before, but I didn't. Then I realized something. "Does he love you back? I'm pretty sure he's never told you he loves you."
Kairi stood up straighter, taking her weight off of the tree. Her eyes left mine, slowly focusing on the entrance to the secret place. I took note of that.
"He didn't actually say it in words...but he let me know in other ways..."
I felt...jealousy? Of course. Sora was the one who sacrificed his heart for her. But what had I done? The same thing. I left my heart to darkness only in order to save her. But...the secret place...I would have to check it out for myself.
I sighed. "Kai, it has been two years. He might not come back."
I hated saying those words. No matter how much I wanted Kairi for myself I knew that Sora was still my friend and I still wanted him back home. We had been best buds. I remembered when we'd compete for Kairi's attention when we were little. We'd have wooden sword fights too and I would always win but we would never be spiteful towards one another. Even though he was the Keyblade Master and I wasn't. We were still friends...
"No...he has to come back." I seemed to have hit her soft spot. Tears welled up in the back of her baby blue eyes. "He promised." She spoke louder now. "He promised!!!!"
I grabbed hold of her shoulders gently. "Kairi, I want him back too but you might have to accept fate."
Kairi nodded, and I let go. Her eyes met mine again. "I...I need to see."
"What?"
"I need to think about what you told me. Sora might not come back, so there may be no use waiting, maybe..."
I breathed outward heavily. "So, you're saying you'll only love me back if you find out either Sora doesn't love you or if he doesn't come back?" I knew that those words were the harsh way of putting it. But in a way it was true.
"Sort of. Just...give me some time...okay?"
I nodded, knowing that I still had a chance. Knowing that Kairi could still become mine. I needed her to love me back so much...
She turned, silently walking towards the secret place without a goodbye. I'd have to wait until I knew what she was talking about in there. I turned, briskly walking towards my house. It was a short walk. Short and lonely.
I ignored everything for the next few days, both patiently and impatiently awaiting Kairi's response. Would she ever love me back? It had been a while. She would have to decide soon because I didn't know if I could wait very long.
I was at my window, just staring at the beach below. I could see a lot of the island from my view. I had been like that the last few days, looking at the scenes outside. I guess you could say I was a hermit.
It was early evening. The sun was setting, the pink and purple and orange colors somehow reminding me of Kairi. My eyes scanned the calm ocean that surrounded Destiny Islands. Then I looked lower, towards the shore, the waves gently nipping at it.
And then...I saw something that made my eyes grow wide. My heart beat a million times faster, it seemed. I stood up, leaning as best I could to get a better look at the figure below that I was staring at.
Sora...Ragged, worn out, Keyblade at his side. Where he came from, I did not know. What he had gone through, I did not know. But I knew that he was back.
A smile actually broke out from my lips. I hadn't done so in a long time. I turned to go down and outside to greet him when something caught my eye.
Kairi saw him first. She came from the secret place area. I had bet that was where she was. For while I hid away in my room, she would hide away in that dirty old cave that we'd play in when we were smaller.
Kairi walked slowly at first, half not believing Sora was there. But there was no mistake about it. Then she began to run towards him.
He dropped his weapon on the ground, running to meet her halfway. They embraced...and I didn't feel jealous. A hug was a hug. But still....
Still holding her, I saw Sora reach into his pocket, pulling out a small item. It was white, and glinted from the setting sun...I remembered it from long ago...her good luck charm...
She took it from him, holding it close to her chest. I could tell that they were talking. But what were they saying?
Then, Sora reached out and caressed her cheek. My nerves broke a bit. My smile dropped. I knew something was going to happen...but...
But it happened. He leaned forward...and...so did she. They kissed for a long time. I averted my gaze momentarily.
Him. She had chosen him. I knew it would take a while for me to get over it. To get over my feelings about her. Maybe I never would...I felt angry, but knew that it wasn't her fault. It was my fault.
So it was then, watching through my window, that I knew she was already taken. That I knew that she would never be mine, and she never was.