Okay here it is. My first Hellsing story. I never really thought about
doing a Hellsing story, which is odd because it is quite possibly my
favorite anime (next to Trigun). But I had an odd dream a few weeks ago
that was very Hellsingish, and have been listening to the soundtrack
lately. So I made up my mind to put something down on paper. I'm almost
positive this sort of thing has been written about before (but then again
there isn't much that hasn't been touched on when it comes to fanfiction),
like I said I was satisfying my urges.
It's also nice to step away from my Trigun fic for a bit and try something new, (I'm kinda stuck on where to go with it anyway.) I hope this story is just as popular. It's meant to be just a one shot, but if enough people like it I may take it to the next level. It all depends on my dear sweet readers.
This little story takes place between the first and second episodes, I've wondered about that time period. It seems so cut and dry, one minute she's just been bitten, the next she's in training. I mean how many of us could go through the change from human to vampire so smoothly? There always seemed like there was something missing, this is my way to fill the void.
Like always! Read Enjoy Review!
I DO NOT OWN HELLSING OR ANY OF THE CHRACTERS USED.
She couldn't take it anymore; she had to get out of there. Anywhere was better than the Hellsing Manor.
"It's not as if anyone would miss me." she thought to herself, "I give up, there's no place for me here."
She has been turned into a monster, the walking dead. It had only been a week or two since her world had been turned upside down. Since then she had been spiraling. Her teammates secluded her, Sir integral hated her, and she hadn't seen that jackass of a "Master" since the day he had cursed her to this nightmare.
She had been leading a solitary life for weeks, speaking to no one. The few training lessons she had gone to ended with her becoming more desperate for escape. She was tired of being treated like a monster. The men either feared her, or used her as a way to stroke their egos. Trying to see how much they could upset and tease her. A few of the more brazen ones saw her as something to conquer, pinching her and making lewd comments.
The belittling she could take, the fear she could ignore. But the catcalls, whispers, and come ons had driven her to tears on several occasions.
Sir Integral seemed to see this behavior as nothing more than an initiation of sorts. The one time Seras had complained about she was given a speech.
"All new recruits go through this, it's even worse if you're female. You're here to do a job, not make friends. The men will get bored with you when another new recruit joins up. You have a backbone don't you? I suggest you use it and do your job." with that Integral sent her out of her office.
Then there was the infamous Alucard. The last she had seen of him was the night she had changed. She had hoped he would meet with her, maybe help her gain control over her new life. But so far it was as if he had blinked out of existence.
Maybe this was something he did often, curse people to this terrible unlife. She wondered how many people he had done this too? She couldn't help feeling like a bastard child, and she hated him for it.
It was a nightmare that had no possibility of ending, she was eternally damned to this existence. If you could call it that.
She wanted out....now. It was just getting dark, the manor wouldn't be bustling for another two hours or so. Integral had left for a meeting, and Walter had driven her.
It was her only chance she had to escape now.
She took off her blue uniform, dressing in black pants and black long- sleeved shirt. She threw on her dark blue coat and shoved her blue snow hat on. Quickly throwing her meager belongings into her back pack she walked out her room. The creepy stone hallway was dark and silent She wasn't going to miss this place, it's musty mildew smell, and it's drafty passages. She treaded lightly through the halls, not knowing who or what would be about.
She crept quietly through the dark manor, trying hard not to get lost. Seras was surprised that she had reached the front door without a problem. Turning the knob she walked out into the cold London night, not knowing what her un-life had in store for her.
It had snowed several inches during the day; miniscule flakes still swirling about the air. Her boots crunched across the Hellsing Manors from lawn. She stopped at the tall iron gates; it was all that separated her from freedom. The gates would only open to those individuals who had the code, and she wasn't one of them. This wasn't about to stop her, she chucked her pack over the side and began climbing the rails. The gates were harder to climb than she thought; the slippery wet snow wasn't helping either. After a few failed attempts she landed in the snow on the other side.
Slinging her backpack over her shoulder she ran from Hellsing Manor never once looking back.
She wandered about London, watching happy couples and families' bustle from one place to another. A large group of children were playing in the fresh snow, stopping every few minutes to ask each other if they had heard if the schools had been closed yet due to the weather .
At first it was a comfort to see people in such high spirits. She laughed as she watched the children sling snowballs. It felt good to laugh again.
She laughed until she realized that she could never actually have any of it. Everything the people around her had was just a distant dream to her now.
Love, family.....children. It was all so completely out of reach.
Her laughter slowly morphed into sobs, she ran from the happy scene. It was one thing to realize that all the things you wanted out of life were gone. But she'd be damned if she'd watch others revel in it.
She was damned...........
She ran harder, the tears whisking away from her cheeks. Far from the main shops and into a nearby park, she ran down the quaint paths and playgrounds, running until she had come to the middle of a bridge. It was the only lit area in the park that she could see; she stopped and threw her pack down, refusing to move anymore. She pulled on a pair of woolen mittens and sank down onto her pack, still sobbing.
"Why did I do this..." she thought, "why did I let this happen? Stupid, Seras, stupid, stupid, stupid!"
She sobbed harder; there she was surrounded by millions of people, only to feel like the last person on earth.
Everything was a mess, she wanted to end it, end all of it. She couldn't live like this. She stood and leaned over the edge of the bridge and peered into the black water.
She wanted to jump in, to sink to the bottom, to drown. She watched the water rushing underneath her, not wanting to admit to herself that her plan wouldn't work. Still, her brain worked feverishly to try to find some means of escape.
She stood up and climbed onto the edge of the bridge, "maybe," she thought, " maybe the water would be cold enough to at least put her out. If she couldn't have death, she would at least welcome a nice coma. She quickly looked over her shoulders. No one was around, so at least no one would try to save her.
She shut her eyes, and tipped herself forward, feeling her feet leave the safety of the edge.
"It will all be over soon...." she said to herself.
She gritted her teeth, and counted the seconds before she hit the water.
1...2...3...4.........5...she hadn't hit yet, in fact, she wasn't falling. She opened her eyes, but all she saw was black, she struggled at whatever it was restraining her, hoping to free her self so she could finish her fall.
"Let me go!" she screamed kicking and pawing at her rescuer. In a plit second Seras was back on the bridge. With a few more swipes she tore herself free. She spun around quickly ready to yell at whoever it was who had come between her and peace.
"Leave me alone you stupid son of a...." her jaw dropped.
It was him...the one who had done this to her.
"You.." she said despair.
Alucard stood on the snowy bridge, red coat swirling in the wintry winds. He was without his hat, so the bright white snow flakes contrasted greatly against his coal colored hair.
"Why did you leave police girl?" he said grinning.
Seras gave him an empty glance, and then stared down at her boots, "why do you care?"
"I am your master." he said simply.
"Yeah well fat lot of good you are at that." she seethed. Apparently he had found her last remark funny; he began laughing like a mad man. This only fed her anger.
The man before him was the cause of all this, it was all his fault....
All his bloody fucking fault....
She wanted him to stop laughing. She wanted to tear that insane grin off his face, wanted him to hurt the way she hurt.
"YOU DID THIS TO ME!" she screamed, "You fucking monster, how could you do this? You forced this on me! I never wanted this. You shot me and made me choose and I"
"You chose life..." he interrupted; his smile was gone as was the laughter.
"This isn't life," she said coldly, "this is-is just...just nothingness. It's not life, and it's not death it's just this sick, twisted limbo that you can't honestly expect someone to exist in!" with that she turned and climbed back up on the bridge, determined to jump again.
"You won't die Police Girl...you'll just sink to the bottom, and end up being very cold, but you won't die." he said plainly.
Tears welled in her eyes, he couldn't even call her by her name, "my name is not Police Girl you bastard, it's Seras! And I don't care if this doesn't work I'll try something else if I have to! I'll sit in the sun, or stake myself, anything to make this all go away!" with that she tipped over the edge.
If her heart could still beat, she was sure it would have stopped, as she hit the icy water. She screamed, only to have a trail of bubbles float to the surface instead. She sank quickly to the muddy bottom. Her arms and legs stung, her head felt as if it had been cut in to. But she made no move to go back to the top. She sat there for what seemed like forever, waiting pleading, for her brain to shut down. But it was no use. She was just about to ascend to the surface when she felt herself being lifted out of the water. She was too weak and too cold to fight it this time. She collapsed back onto the bridge crumpling into a shivering, whimpering heap.
"I told you nothing would happen...." Alucard said almost aggravated by the fledgling vampire.
"Le-le-le-leave..m-m-me alone." she chattered.
"Now, what kind of master would I be if I left you to freeze." he grinned.
"A merciful one..." she said burying her face in the snow.
"Don't be dramatic police girl, get up." He held out a gloved hand to her.
"Why? So I can go back and be pushed around, pinched, belittled and otherwise treated like something you scooped out of the gutter."
"I'll help you, cross my heart hope to die." he tried in vain to suppress a snicker, he couldn't help but laugh at his own remark.
"I hate you..." she whispered, shutting her eyes and scrunching into an icy, snow covered ball.
She waited for another snide remark from him. She silently dared him to say something else to her.
Instead, she felt something soft & incredibly warm being laid on top of her, covering her completely. She heard him walking away from her. Slowly she opened her eyes and saw he had laid his heavy red coat over her. She laid under it for a few minutes, listening to his footsteps moving further and further away from her.
She had nowhere to go....
Stuck between life and death...
Eternally damned with a bonafied whack job for a master.
His footsteps were fading fast.
Seras sat up, her joints and muscles twisting and grinding in pain from the cold. She wrapped the huge coat around, reveling in its warmth.
She stood up, her knees protesting, her clothing frozen stiff to her body. She ignored it all and began to run.
She hoped he hadn't left....she hoped she wasn't to late.
She saw him further down the path. She ran a few more yards, and then stopped.
What would she say to him?
She treaded cautiously towards him, trying to think of the right thing to say.
Alucard knew she was behind him. He turned and stared at his pitiful creation. Her bright hair soaked through, her skin paler than usual with a slight bluish tone. She was standing there drowning in his big red coat, her hands disappearing in the extra long sleeves. She looked down at her feet and scraped at the snow with her boot.
He hadn't seen such innocence in nearly a century. She glanced up at him meekly; he removed his glasses to meet her eye to eye. She quickly looked back down, nervousness taking over. She took a deep breath, refusing to let him intimidate her.
Seras approached him, only a few inches separating them. He towered over her petite frame. She just stood there, staring with the utmost curiosity. Her once over was making Alucard uncomfortable. He generally avoided such "intimate" situations. He was about to say something about it when she finally spoke.
"I don't even know you. You're my master, and I don't even know who you are." she said bundling the coat closer to her.
He laughed out loud, throwing a protective arm around his new creation, "we have all the time in the world to work on that. Trust me, Seras Victoria you will learn to love this gift I've given you. Now come, the night is still young, and you'll catch your death of cold."
Seras let a small giggle out, but quickly slapped a hand over her mouth. An hour ago she wouldn't have found that funny at all, strange how things change. Alucard gave her a sideways glance, glad that she had found his little joke amusing. He led her out of the park and back towards Hellsing Manor. He didn't speak much after that, Seras talked mostly of how horrible the last few weeks had been.
"That time is over, " he answered, "your nights will be better now I assure you."
Seras felt an odd comfort, it wasn't the sort of comfort she had felt with her parents, or even the few lovers she'd had. She couldn't' quite place the feeling, but after weeks of feeling nothing she was eager to embrace it.
Seras was beginning to see this wasn't the end, merely the beginning.
THE END
Alucard is a tougher to write about than I though. I know this is short, but I'm pretty sure I'll end up putting more into it. I really tried to not make Alucard OOC, I think I did okay. I hope everyone enjoyed it as much as I did writing it. My apologies for the few spelling and grammar mistakes, I've trying to be more strict with myself in that respect. Just bear with me I'm hoping for improvement.
It's also nice to step away from my Trigun fic for a bit and try something new, (I'm kinda stuck on where to go with it anyway.) I hope this story is just as popular. It's meant to be just a one shot, but if enough people like it I may take it to the next level. It all depends on my dear sweet readers.
This little story takes place between the first and second episodes, I've wondered about that time period. It seems so cut and dry, one minute she's just been bitten, the next she's in training. I mean how many of us could go through the change from human to vampire so smoothly? There always seemed like there was something missing, this is my way to fill the void.
Like always! Read Enjoy Review!
I DO NOT OWN HELLSING OR ANY OF THE CHRACTERS USED.
She couldn't take it anymore; she had to get out of there. Anywhere was better than the Hellsing Manor.
"It's not as if anyone would miss me." she thought to herself, "I give up, there's no place for me here."
She has been turned into a monster, the walking dead. It had only been a week or two since her world had been turned upside down. Since then she had been spiraling. Her teammates secluded her, Sir integral hated her, and she hadn't seen that jackass of a "Master" since the day he had cursed her to this nightmare.
She had been leading a solitary life for weeks, speaking to no one. The few training lessons she had gone to ended with her becoming more desperate for escape. She was tired of being treated like a monster. The men either feared her, or used her as a way to stroke their egos. Trying to see how much they could upset and tease her. A few of the more brazen ones saw her as something to conquer, pinching her and making lewd comments.
The belittling she could take, the fear she could ignore. But the catcalls, whispers, and come ons had driven her to tears on several occasions.
Sir Integral seemed to see this behavior as nothing more than an initiation of sorts. The one time Seras had complained about she was given a speech.
"All new recruits go through this, it's even worse if you're female. You're here to do a job, not make friends. The men will get bored with you when another new recruit joins up. You have a backbone don't you? I suggest you use it and do your job." with that Integral sent her out of her office.
Then there was the infamous Alucard. The last she had seen of him was the night she had changed. She had hoped he would meet with her, maybe help her gain control over her new life. But so far it was as if he had blinked out of existence.
Maybe this was something he did often, curse people to this terrible unlife. She wondered how many people he had done this too? She couldn't help feeling like a bastard child, and she hated him for it.
It was a nightmare that had no possibility of ending, she was eternally damned to this existence. If you could call it that.
She wanted out....now. It was just getting dark, the manor wouldn't be bustling for another two hours or so. Integral had left for a meeting, and Walter had driven her.
It was her only chance she had to escape now.
She took off her blue uniform, dressing in black pants and black long- sleeved shirt. She threw on her dark blue coat and shoved her blue snow hat on. Quickly throwing her meager belongings into her back pack she walked out her room. The creepy stone hallway was dark and silent She wasn't going to miss this place, it's musty mildew smell, and it's drafty passages. She treaded lightly through the halls, not knowing who or what would be about.
She crept quietly through the dark manor, trying hard not to get lost. Seras was surprised that she had reached the front door without a problem. Turning the knob she walked out into the cold London night, not knowing what her un-life had in store for her.
It had snowed several inches during the day; miniscule flakes still swirling about the air. Her boots crunched across the Hellsing Manors from lawn. She stopped at the tall iron gates; it was all that separated her from freedom. The gates would only open to those individuals who had the code, and she wasn't one of them. This wasn't about to stop her, she chucked her pack over the side and began climbing the rails. The gates were harder to climb than she thought; the slippery wet snow wasn't helping either. After a few failed attempts she landed in the snow on the other side.
Slinging her backpack over her shoulder she ran from Hellsing Manor never once looking back.
She wandered about London, watching happy couples and families' bustle from one place to another. A large group of children were playing in the fresh snow, stopping every few minutes to ask each other if they had heard if the schools had been closed yet due to the weather .
At first it was a comfort to see people in such high spirits. She laughed as she watched the children sling snowballs. It felt good to laugh again.
She laughed until she realized that she could never actually have any of it. Everything the people around her had was just a distant dream to her now.
Love, family.....children. It was all so completely out of reach.
Her laughter slowly morphed into sobs, she ran from the happy scene. It was one thing to realize that all the things you wanted out of life were gone. But she'd be damned if she'd watch others revel in it.
She was damned...........
She ran harder, the tears whisking away from her cheeks. Far from the main shops and into a nearby park, she ran down the quaint paths and playgrounds, running until she had come to the middle of a bridge. It was the only lit area in the park that she could see; she stopped and threw her pack down, refusing to move anymore. She pulled on a pair of woolen mittens and sank down onto her pack, still sobbing.
"Why did I do this..." she thought, "why did I let this happen? Stupid, Seras, stupid, stupid, stupid!"
She sobbed harder; there she was surrounded by millions of people, only to feel like the last person on earth.
Everything was a mess, she wanted to end it, end all of it. She couldn't live like this. She stood and leaned over the edge of the bridge and peered into the black water.
She wanted to jump in, to sink to the bottom, to drown. She watched the water rushing underneath her, not wanting to admit to herself that her plan wouldn't work. Still, her brain worked feverishly to try to find some means of escape.
She stood up and climbed onto the edge of the bridge, "maybe," she thought, " maybe the water would be cold enough to at least put her out. If she couldn't have death, she would at least welcome a nice coma. She quickly looked over her shoulders. No one was around, so at least no one would try to save her.
She shut her eyes, and tipped herself forward, feeling her feet leave the safety of the edge.
"It will all be over soon...." she said to herself.
She gritted her teeth, and counted the seconds before she hit the water.
1...2...3...4.........5...she hadn't hit yet, in fact, she wasn't falling. She opened her eyes, but all she saw was black, she struggled at whatever it was restraining her, hoping to free her self so she could finish her fall.
"Let me go!" she screamed kicking and pawing at her rescuer. In a plit second Seras was back on the bridge. With a few more swipes she tore herself free. She spun around quickly ready to yell at whoever it was who had come between her and peace.
"Leave me alone you stupid son of a...." her jaw dropped.
It was him...the one who had done this to her.
"You.." she said despair.
Alucard stood on the snowy bridge, red coat swirling in the wintry winds. He was without his hat, so the bright white snow flakes contrasted greatly against his coal colored hair.
"Why did you leave police girl?" he said grinning.
Seras gave him an empty glance, and then stared down at her boots, "why do you care?"
"I am your master." he said simply.
"Yeah well fat lot of good you are at that." she seethed. Apparently he had found her last remark funny; he began laughing like a mad man. This only fed her anger.
The man before him was the cause of all this, it was all his fault....
All his bloody fucking fault....
She wanted him to stop laughing. She wanted to tear that insane grin off his face, wanted him to hurt the way she hurt.
"YOU DID THIS TO ME!" she screamed, "You fucking monster, how could you do this? You forced this on me! I never wanted this. You shot me and made me choose and I"
"You chose life..." he interrupted; his smile was gone as was the laughter.
"This isn't life," she said coldly, "this is-is just...just nothingness. It's not life, and it's not death it's just this sick, twisted limbo that you can't honestly expect someone to exist in!" with that she turned and climbed back up on the bridge, determined to jump again.
"You won't die Police Girl...you'll just sink to the bottom, and end up being very cold, but you won't die." he said plainly.
Tears welled in her eyes, he couldn't even call her by her name, "my name is not Police Girl you bastard, it's Seras! And I don't care if this doesn't work I'll try something else if I have to! I'll sit in the sun, or stake myself, anything to make this all go away!" with that she tipped over the edge.
If her heart could still beat, she was sure it would have stopped, as she hit the icy water. She screamed, only to have a trail of bubbles float to the surface instead. She sank quickly to the muddy bottom. Her arms and legs stung, her head felt as if it had been cut in to. But she made no move to go back to the top. She sat there for what seemed like forever, waiting pleading, for her brain to shut down. But it was no use. She was just about to ascend to the surface when she felt herself being lifted out of the water. She was too weak and too cold to fight it this time. She collapsed back onto the bridge crumpling into a shivering, whimpering heap.
"I told you nothing would happen...." Alucard said almost aggravated by the fledgling vampire.
"Le-le-le-leave..m-m-me alone." she chattered.
"Now, what kind of master would I be if I left you to freeze." he grinned.
"A merciful one..." she said burying her face in the snow.
"Don't be dramatic police girl, get up." He held out a gloved hand to her.
"Why? So I can go back and be pushed around, pinched, belittled and otherwise treated like something you scooped out of the gutter."
"I'll help you, cross my heart hope to die." he tried in vain to suppress a snicker, he couldn't help but laugh at his own remark.
"I hate you..." she whispered, shutting her eyes and scrunching into an icy, snow covered ball.
She waited for another snide remark from him. She silently dared him to say something else to her.
Instead, she felt something soft & incredibly warm being laid on top of her, covering her completely. She heard him walking away from her. Slowly she opened her eyes and saw he had laid his heavy red coat over her. She laid under it for a few minutes, listening to his footsteps moving further and further away from her.
She had nowhere to go....
Stuck between life and death...
Eternally damned with a bonafied whack job for a master.
His footsteps were fading fast.
Seras sat up, her joints and muscles twisting and grinding in pain from the cold. She wrapped the huge coat around, reveling in its warmth.
She stood up, her knees protesting, her clothing frozen stiff to her body. She ignored it all and began to run.
She hoped he hadn't left....she hoped she wasn't to late.
She saw him further down the path. She ran a few more yards, and then stopped.
What would she say to him?
She treaded cautiously towards him, trying to think of the right thing to say.
Alucard knew she was behind him. He turned and stared at his pitiful creation. Her bright hair soaked through, her skin paler than usual with a slight bluish tone. She was standing there drowning in his big red coat, her hands disappearing in the extra long sleeves. She looked down at her feet and scraped at the snow with her boot.
He hadn't seen such innocence in nearly a century. She glanced up at him meekly; he removed his glasses to meet her eye to eye. She quickly looked back down, nervousness taking over. She took a deep breath, refusing to let him intimidate her.
Seras approached him, only a few inches separating them. He towered over her petite frame. She just stood there, staring with the utmost curiosity. Her once over was making Alucard uncomfortable. He generally avoided such "intimate" situations. He was about to say something about it when she finally spoke.
"I don't even know you. You're my master, and I don't even know who you are." she said bundling the coat closer to her.
He laughed out loud, throwing a protective arm around his new creation, "we have all the time in the world to work on that. Trust me, Seras Victoria you will learn to love this gift I've given you. Now come, the night is still young, and you'll catch your death of cold."
Seras let a small giggle out, but quickly slapped a hand over her mouth. An hour ago she wouldn't have found that funny at all, strange how things change. Alucard gave her a sideways glance, glad that she had found his little joke amusing. He led her out of the park and back towards Hellsing Manor. He didn't speak much after that, Seras talked mostly of how horrible the last few weeks had been.
"That time is over, " he answered, "your nights will be better now I assure you."
Seras felt an odd comfort, it wasn't the sort of comfort she had felt with her parents, or even the few lovers she'd had. She couldn't' quite place the feeling, but after weeks of feeling nothing she was eager to embrace it.
Seras was beginning to see this wasn't the end, merely the beginning.
THE END
Alucard is a tougher to write about than I though. I know this is short, but I'm pretty sure I'll end up putting more into it. I really tried to not make Alucard OOC, I think I did okay. I hope everyone enjoyed it as much as I did writing it. My apologies for the few spelling and grammar mistakes, I've trying to be more strict with myself in that respect. Just bear with me I'm hoping for improvement.