Forgotten Memories
By: Candy-Chan^^
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho and never will, okay? I do own Nurse Tamika and Doctor Makoto if anyone was wondering. ^^
Author's Note (A/N): Konnichi wa! This is my first attempt at writing a shonen ai fan fic. If you don't like shonen ai (male/male relationships) or your offended by it then please do us all a favor and don't read this fan fic! I just warned you, so don't flame. I don't mind helpful criticism but I despise flaming, especially when it comes from someone who has never written a fan fic! Please read and review this fan fic if you are not offended by shonen ai. Oh and this means point of view changes *~, this means the scene changes ~, and this means time has gone by .~.~. . Enough of my rambling and on with the fic!
Rating: PG-13 (The rating is for language and some possible violence in later chapters.)
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Who....Who am I? W-where am I? Who are all of these people?
Why..........Why am I here!? What am I doing here? For what reason? Why!?
"Do you suppose he has lost every single one of his memories?"
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*~ Hiei's POV (point of view)
'Lying there like that. How long have you been lying there like that?' Hiei thought as he gazed upon his sleeping....Yes one could say sleeping partner's face. 'Kurama, how long have you been here? Here in this horrible place that ningens call a hospital. How long........A year? Yes, you've been lying on that freezing, cold, hard as stone hospital bed for about a year now. Will......Will you ever wake up from your sleep?' Hiei pondered as he looked outside the hospital window.
He placed a hand against the ice cold window. Outside it was snowing and the temperature was very well about -3 degrees below zero. The weather was freezing and the cold was unbearable for some. Today was just like any other cold December afternoon. "Hn. I hate the cold." the fire youkai thought never taking his gaze off the foggy window. Hiei just stared out the window for awhile. Finally he took his gaze off of the window when the door knob turned. Nurse Tamika opened the door in order to let Yusuke, Keiko, Yukina, Botan, Kuwabara, and Shizuru into the room and then shut the door and left.
"Oh Konnichi wa Hiei, I see you got to the hospital before any of us did." Yusuke said downheartedly.
"Hn." was the only response that came from the little fire youkai.
"It's really depressing that Kurama-san fell into a coma ever since the accident..." Yukina stated sadly.
"I know! It's very depressing. I really hope that Kurama-san wakes up soon!" Botan retorted.
"Yes, we can only hope for the best." Shizuru said, adding to the conversation.
"Especially since it's so close to Christmas. It would really be a shame if poor Kurama-san had to spend Christmas in the hospital!" Keiko stated solemnly.
"Oh poor Kurama-san!" Yukina wailed as she began to cry on to Kuwabara's shoulder.
"Shhh. Daijoubu desu Yukina-chan. Please stop crying. Everything will be all right!" voiced Kuwabara as he comforted the little koorime.
"Oh Kazuma-san!" the tiny koorime sobbed.
'Hn. Baka no ningen oaf. Who does he really think he is, comforting my younger twin imooto-san like that!? Che, if I wasn't so worried about my kitsune I'd-' Hiei ceased himself from finishing that thought. 'Since when was Kurama ever your kitsune? What do you think he is, your koibito!? Never was and never will be your koibito. But still...I-I-I should have told the kitsune how I feel about him. Well it's too late now. Who knows if Kurama will ever wake up .'
.~.~.~.
Hiei looked up at the clock to see how much time had gone by since the whole crew had entered the hospital. 'One hour. Hn. I've been here for a hour just waiting for kitsune to wake up. One hour.....Soon that baka ningen nurse will come in and probably make us leave.' Hiei thought a bit angered. 'I...I don't want to leave you, Kurama....I don't want to leave. Not yet...'. The door knob turned and the door flew open. In came Nurse Tamika.
"Gomen ladies and gentlemen but you'll have to leave and come back in about a hour or so. We have to check up on Shuuichi-kun's progress. I hope everybody understands." said Nurse Tamika lightly.
"All right, all right. We'll just go some place and come back in about one hour. Come on everyone, lets go." Yusuke voiced. And with these words, everybody slowly started to walk out of Kurama's room.
'Don't worry, Kitsune. I'll be back as soon as I can. No baka ningen nurse could ever keep me away for very long.' Hiei reasoned as the fire Youkai caught one last glimpse of the sleeping Kurama's face.
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"So what does everyone want to do to pass some time?" questioned Botan.
"Hmmmm......Let's go to the arcade!" exclaimed Yusuke and Kuwabara.
"IIE!!!" everyone else cried except for Hiei, but that was to be expected since Hiei never really did take part in any kind of conversation what so ever.
"How about we just go and get a bite to eat?" Shizuru suggested in a cool manner.
"All right, but only if you're gonna treat us all!" Kuwabara stated.
"KAZUMA-SAAAN! That isn't a very considerate suggestion! Trying to force Shizuru, your onee-san, into paying for all of us like that" scolded a very upset Yukina.
"Heh, heh, heh! Oh c'mon Yukina-chan I was only kidding!" retorted Kuwabara, sweat dropping (A/N: Anime style sweat drop).
"Hn. Really? It didn't sound like you were you pathetic ningen fool." murmured Hiei.
"Hey shut up half pint! When I say I'm kidding, I'm kidding!" yelled Kuwabara.
"Hey children, children! Save it for another time! I'm not exactly in the mood for one of your dumb arguing sessions!" Yusuke exclaimed.
"Oh fine! But he started it, Urameshi!" Kuwabara whined.
"UGH! Shut up and stop whining," Yusuke scolded, "And just for complaining like that Kuwabara, your paying! Everyone agree?"
"Hai!" everyone said in agreement, except Kuwabara and Yukina, who wasn't sure what to do.
"Let's all head over to that restaurant before we all freeze!" said Yusuke as everyone except a baffled Kuwabara began to walk.
"HEY, GUYS THIS ISN'T REALLY FAIR! YOU GUYS! Heeeeeeeey wait for meeeeeeee!" screamed Kuwabara as he started to run after his friends.
.~.~.~.
Hiei was glad to be near Kurama's side again. The whole group went back to the hospital as soon as everyone finished eating. Everyone kept hoping that Kurama would wake up in good time. Outside it was beginning to become very late and pretty soon they would all have to leave. 'Kurama......Please......Please wake up. I do not know how much longer I can bear this. I mean seeing you like this, simply lying there, helpless......Y-you look so helpless, Kitsune. If only you could see how pitiful you look.' thought Hiei. Hiei felt great sorrow at this moment. 'Sorrow.....The feeling that I've become so accustomed to.' The fire Youkai could almost feel tears welling up in his eyes. 'Don't ever cry, baka! Crying just shows how weak and pathetic you can be! Never CRY! I'll never shed a single tear for anyone......Not anyone, not even my partner.' pondered Hiei in anger and frustration.
Nobody could ever tell that Hiei was feeling great sorrow and they never would. No one could barely tell any emotion the fire youkai felt, for he built many, many invisible barriers around himself. Not a single soul would ever know how Hiei felt about anything.....He would never tell how he felt. The fire youkai would not even tell people that managed to win his respect, and very few could ever manage something like that. Just then Hiei saw some movement out of the corner of his eye. 'Kurama!?' Hiei thought as those beautiful, immense emerald eyes of Kurama's began to open very slowly.
"Kurama!" everyone excluding Hiei exclaimed in perfect unison.
*~ Kurama's POV (point of view)
'Who....Who am I? W-where am I? Who are all of these people? Why..........Why am I here!? What am I doing here? For what reason? Why!?' thought Kurama weakly.
"H-hey Kurama, are you okay!? How are you felling!? Please just say something! Anything!" Yusuke yelled loudly.
'Who is this raven haired boy?' Kurama thought to himself. "Sumimasen? D-do......Do I know you?" voiced a very baffled Kurama.
"N-n-nani!?" questioned a very taken a back Yusuke.
"You.....You mean to say that you don't........Remember who any of us are, Kurama-san?" Keiko asked gently, in order not to alarm Kurama.
"Iie...... I am afraid I do not recollect any of you. Kurama.....Is that m-my name?" Kurama said feebly.
"I'll go and alert Doctor Makoto!" yelled Botan as she ran as quickly as she could to find Kurama's doctor, Doctor Makoto.
"Don't worry everything will be all right, Kurama-san." voiced Yukina softly.
'I do not understand any of this. Why........Why am I even here? What could've happened to me? None of this makes any sense at all.' Kurama thought very much confused.
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*~ Hiei's POV (point of view. A/N: I think everyone knows what it stands for by now. ^^)
'Kurama, you don't even remember..........Anything that has happened between us. You can't even recollect how we first met. You.....You don't even recall my..........My own name.' Hiei thought with mixed feelings as everybody was waiting in the hospital lobby. Every single minute seemed like an eternity to the fire youkai. 'Damn, what the hell is taking so long!? What is that baka ningen Doctor Makoto doing to my kitsune? Matte ne my kitsune? Kurama never was yours. What do you think he is your koibito? What is wrong with.....Me? Enough of these kinds of thoughts!' Hiei pondered to himself.
"Oh man you guys, I'm really worried about Kurama!" Kuwabara voiced.
"Hai.....Me too." said Botan gloomily.
"Do you suppose he has lost every single one of his memories?" Yukina questioned.
"Let's hope not. But even if Kurama has lost every one of his memories, we'll always be there for him and we'll always be his friends." Yusuke stated.
"Hai, that is correct Yusuke-san. We will always be there for Kurama." Keiko restated to get the point across.
'Hn. I can't take the anticipation anymore. I have to get out of here. Out of this place.....Out of the lobby......Out of this hospital.' Hiei thought anxiously as he stood up and prepared to leave this horrible place. 'I have to run....Run out of this horrid place.'
"Hiei, what in all three worlds do you think you're doing?" questioned Botan.
"Hn. Leaving." were the only words that left the fire youkai's mouth.
"Matte ne Hiei! You can't leave now! What about Kurama and the condition he's in? Don't you care or even want to know what's wrong with Kurama!?" cried Yusuke.
"Hn. I'm only going to say this one more time detective. As I stated before, I'm leaving." Hiei retorted with great annoyance. And before anybody knew it Hiei ran and vanished into the dark, freezing , cold, frigid night without a trace, with no destination to go.
"Ugh! Man, I can't believe that guy sometimes. What a total ass. How could he not even care about his friend." yelled Kuwabara.
"Hiei probably doesn't consider any of us his friends. He probably believes that he has none." Botan murmured.
"Yeah well little otooto-san I think anyone could've saw that one coming." Shizuru stated calmly.
"Hai, but Hiei has always been like that. Always running off..." Yukina said quietly.
"What's that suppose to mean, Yukina-chan!?" screamed Kuwabara loud enough to make poor Yusuke ears bleed, who was right next to him.
"Shut the hell up and sit back down Kuwabara!" Yusuke exclaimed.
"O-okay fine!" retorted Kuwabara hotly. Suddenly Doctor Makoto came into the lobby.
"I believe I've found out what is wrong with Shuuichi-kun. Please follow me into the next room and we'll discuss it." announced Doctor Makoto as everyone followed him into the next room to find out what was wrong with Kurama.
A/N: So what did everyone think of the first chapter? Gomen, this chapter was a bit lacking in length, but I would really appreciate a review! I'll try to have the next chapter A.S.A.P. !
Oh! By the way, here are the meanings to all of the Japanese words/vocabulary used in this chapter used in this chapter.
Konnichi wa: Hello
Shonen ai : Male/Male relationship
Daijoubu desu: It's all right.
Imooto-san: Younger sister
Onee-san: Older sister
Otooto-san: Younger brother
Koibito: Lover
Hai: Yes
Iie: No
Sumimasen: Excuse me
Matte ne: Wait
Gomen: Sorry
Kitsune: Fox
Youkai: Demon
Koorime: Ice apparition
Makoto: This name means sincere.
Tamika: This name means child of the people.
Well, I think that about covers all of the words used in the first chapter. Hey, maybe now you can speak some Japanese too! ^^
~Candy-Chan^^
By: Candy-Chan^^
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho and never will, okay? I do own Nurse Tamika and Doctor Makoto if anyone was wondering. ^^
Author's Note (A/N): Konnichi wa! This is my first attempt at writing a shonen ai fan fic. If you don't like shonen ai (male/male relationships) or your offended by it then please do us all a favor and don't read this fan fic! I just warned you, so don't flame. I don't mind helpful criticism but I despise flaming, especially when it comes from someone who has never written a fan fic! Please read and review this fan fic if you are not offended by shonen ai. Oh and this means point of view changes *~, this means the scene changes ~, and this means time has gone by .~.~. . Enough of my rambling and on with the fic!
Rating: PG-13 (The rating is for language and some possible violence in later chapters.)
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Who....Who am I? W-where am I? Who are all of these people?
Why..........Why am I here!? What am I doing here? For what reason? Why!?
"Do you suppose he has lost every single one of his memories?"
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*~ Hiei's POV (point of view)
'Lying there like that. How long have you been lying there like that?' Hiei thought as he gazed upon his sleeping....Yes one could say sleeping partner's face. 'Kurama, how long have you been here? Here in this horrible place that ningens call a hospital. How long........A year? Yes, you've been lying on that freezing, cold, hard as stone hospital bed for about a year now. Will......Will you ever wake up from your sleep?' Hiei pondered as he looked outside the hospital window.
He placed a hand against the ice cold window. Outside it was snowing and the temperature was very well about -3 degrees below zero. The weather was freezing and the cold was unbearable for some. Today was just like any other cold December afternoon. "Hn. I hate the cold." the fire youkai thought never taking his gaze off the foggy window. Hiei just stared out the window for awhile. Finally he took his gaze off of the window when the door knob turned. Nurse Tamika opened the door in order to let Yusuke, Keiko, Yukina, Botan, Kuwabara, and Shizuru into the room and then shut the door and left.
"Oh Konnichi wa Hiei, I see you got to the hospital before any of us did." Yusuke said downheartedly.
"Hn." was the only response that came from the little fire youkai.
"It's really depressing that Kurama-san fell into a coma ever since the accident..." Yukina stated sadly.
"I know! It's very depressing. I really hope that Kurama-san wakes up soon!" Botan retorted.
"Yes, we can only hope for the best." Shizuru said, adding to the conversation.
"Especially since it's so close to Christmas. It would really be a shame if poor Kurama-san had to spend Christmas in the hospital!" Keiko stated solemnly.
"Oh poor Kurama-san!" Yukina wailed as she began to cry on to Kuwabara's shoulder.
"Shhh. Daijoubu desu Yukina-chan. Please stop crying. Everything will be all right!" voiced Kuwabara as he comforted the little koorime.
"Oh Kazuma-san!" the tiny koorime sobbed.
'Hn. Baka no ningen oaf. Who does he really think he is, comforting my younger twin imooto-san like that!? Che, if I wasn't so worried about my kitsune I'd-' Hiei ceased himself from finishing that thought. 'Since when was Kurama ever your kitsune? What do you think he is, your koibito!? Never was and never will be your koibito. But still...I-I-I should have told the kitsune how I feel about him. Well it's too late now. Who knows if Kurama will ever wake up .'
.~.~.~.
Hiei looked up at the clock to see how much time had gone by since the whole crew had entered the hospital. 'One hour. Hn. I've been here for a hour just waiting for kitsune to wake up. One hour.....Soon that baka ningen nurse will come in and probably make us leave.' Hiei thought a bit angered. 'I...I don't want to leave you, Kurama....I don't want to leave. Not yet...'. The door knob turned and the door flew open. In came Nurse Tamika.
"Gomen ladies and gentlemen but you'll have to leave and come back in about a hour or so. We have to check up on Shuuichi-kun's progress. I hope everybody understands." said Nurse Tamika lightly.
"All right, all right. We'll just go some place and come back in about one hour. Come on everyone, lets go." Yusuke voiced. And with these words, everybody slowly started to walk out of Kurama's room.
'Don't worry, Kitsune. I'll be back as soon as I can. No baka ningen nurse could ever keep me away for very long.' Hiei reasoned as the fire Youkai caught one last glimpse of the sleeping Kurama's face.
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"So what does everyone want to do to pass some time?" questioned Botan.
"Hmmmm......Let's go to the arcade!" exclaimed Yusuke and Kuwabara.
"IIE!!!" everyone else cried except for Hiei, but that was to be expected since Hiei never really did take part in any kind of conversation what so ever.
"How about we just go and get a bite to eat?" Shizuru suggested in a cool manner.
"All right, but only if you're gonna treat us all!" Kuwabara stated.
"KAZUMA-SAAAN! That isn't a very considerate suggestion! Trying to force Shizuru, your onee-san, into paying for all of us like that" scolded a very upset Yukina.
"Heh, heh, heh! Oh c'mon Yukina-chan I was only kidding!" retorted Kuwabara, sweat dropping (A/N: Anime style sweat drop).
"Hn. Really? It didn't sound like you were you pathetic ningen fool." murmured Hiei.
"Hey shut up half pint! When I say I'm kidding, I'm kidding!" yelled Kuwabara.
"Hey children, children! Save it for another time! I'm not exactly in the mood for one of your dumb arguing sessions!" Yusuke exclaimed.
"Oh fine! But he started it, Urameshi!" Kuwabara whined.
"UGH! Shut up and stop whining," Yusuke scolded, "And just for complaining like that Kuwabara, your paying! Everyone agree?"
"Hai!" everyone said in agreement, except Kuwabara and Yukina, who wasn't sure what to do.
"Let's all head over to that restaurant before we all freeze!" said Yusuke as everyone except a baffled Kuwabara began to walk.
"HEY, GUYS THIS ISN'T REALLY FAIR! YOU GUYS! Heeeeeeeey wait for meeeeeeee!" screamed Kuwabara as he started to run after his friends.
.~.~.~.
Hiei was glad to be near Kurama's side again. The whole group went back to the hospital as soon as everyone finished eating. Everyone kept hoping that Kurama would wake up in good time. Outside it was beginning to become very late and pretty soon they would all have to leave. 'Kurama......Please......Please wake up. I do not know how much longer I can bear this. I mean seeing you like this, simply lying there, helpless......Y-you look so helpless, Kitsune. If only you could see how pitiful you look.' thought Hiei. Hiei felt great sorrow at this moment. 'Sorrow.....The feeling that I've become so accustomed to.' The fire Youkai could almost feel tears welling up in his eyes. 'Don't ever cry, baka! Crying just shows how weak and pathetic you can be! Never CRY! I'll never shed a single tear for anyone......Not anyone, not even my partner.' pondered Hiei in anger and frustration.
Nobody could ever tell that Hiei was feeling great sorrow and they never would. No one could barely tell any emotion the fire youkai felt, for he built many, many invisible barriers around himself. Not a single soul would ever know how Hiei felt about anything.....He would never tell how he felt. The fire youkai would not even tell people that managed to win his respect, and very few could ever manage something like that. Just then Hiei saw some movement out of the corner of his eye. 'Kurama!?' Hiei thought as those beautiful, immense emerald eyes of Kurama's began to open very slowly.
"Kurama!" everyone excluding Hiei exclaimed in perfect unison.
*~ Kurama's POV (point of view)
'Who....Who am I? W-where am I? Who are all of these people? Why..........Why am I here!? What am I doing here? For what reason? Why!?' thought Kurama weakly.
"H-hey Kurama, are you okay!? How are you felling!? Please just say something! Anything!" Yusuke yelled loudly.
'Who is this raven haired boy?' Kurama thought to himself. "Sumimasen? D-do......Do I know you?" voiced a very baffled Kurama.
"N-n-nani!?" questioned a very taken a back Yusuke.
"You.....You mean to say that you don't........Remember who any of us are, Kurama-san?" Keiko asked gently, in order not to alarm Kurama.
"Iie...... I am afraid I do not recollect any of you. Kurama.....Is that m-my name?" Kurama said feebly.
"I'll go and alert Doctor Makoto!" yelled Botan as she ran as quickly as she could to find Kurama's doctor, Doctor Makoto.
"Don't worry everything will be all right, Kurama-san." voiced Yukina softly.
'I do not understand any of this. Why........Why am I even here? What could've happened to me? None of this makes any sense at all.' Kurama thought very much confused.
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*~ Hiei's POV (point of view. A/N: I think everyone knows what it stands for by now. ^^)
'Kurama, you don't even remember..........Anything that has happened between us. You can't even recollect how we first met. You.....You don't even recall my..........My own name.' Hiei thought with mixed feelings as everybody was waiting in the hospital lobby. Every single minute seemed like an eternity to the fire youkai. 'Damn, what the hell is taking so long!? What is that baka ningen Doctor Makoto doing to my kitsune? Matte ne my kitsune? Kurama never was yours. What do you think he is your koibito? What is wrong with.....Me? Enough of these kinds of thoughts!' Hiei pondered to himself.
"Oh man you guys, I'm really worried about Kurama!" Kuwabara voiced.
"Hai.....Me too." said Botan gloomily.
"Do you suppose he has lost every single one of his memories?" Yukina questioned.
"Let's hope not. But even if Kurama has lost every one of his memories, we'll always be there for him and we'll always be his friends." Yusuke stated.
"Hai, that is correct Yusuke-san. We will always be there for Kurama." Keiko restated to get the point across.
'Hn. I can't take the anticipation anymore. I have to get out of here. Out of this place.....Out of the lobby......Out of this hospital.' Hiei thought anxiously as he stood up and prepared to leave this horrible place. 'I have to run....Run out of this horrid place.'
"Hiei, what in all three worlds do you think you're doing?" questioned Botan.
"Hn. Leaving." were the only words that left the fire youkai's mouth.
"Matte ne Hiei! You can't leave now! What about Kurama and the condition he's in? Don't you care or even want to know what's wrong with Kurama!?" cried Yusuke.
"Hn. I'm only going to say this one more time detective. As I stated before, I'm leaving." Hiei retorted with great annoyance. And before anybody knew it Hiei ran and vanished into the dark, freezing , cold, frigid night without a trace, with no destination to go.
"Ugh! Man, I can't believe that guy sometimes. What a total ass. How could he not even care about his friend." yelled Kuwabara.
"Hiei probably doesn't consider any of us his friends. He probably believes that he has none." Botan murmured.
"Yeah well little otooto-san I think anyone could've saw that one coming." Shizuru stated calmly.
"Hai, but Hiei has always been like that. Always running off..." Yukina said quietly.
"What's that suppose to mean, Yukina-chan!?" screamed Kuwabara loud enough to make poor Yusuke ears bleed, who was right next to him.
"Shut the hell up and sit back down Kuwabara!" Yusuke exclaimed.
"O-okay fine!" retorted Kuwabara hotly. Suddenly Doctor Makoto came into the lobby.
"I believe I've found out what is wrong with Shuuichi-kun. Please follow me into the next room and we'll discuss it." announced Doctor Makoto as everyone followed him into the next room to find out what was wrong with Kurama.
A/N: So what did everyone think of the first chapter? Gomen, this chapter was a bit lacking in length, but I would really appreciate a review! I'll try to have the next chapter A.S.A.P. !
Oh! By the way, here are the meanings to all of the Japanese words/vocabulary used in this chapter used in this chapter.
Konnichi wa: Hello
Shonen ai : Male/Male relationship
Daijoubu desu: It's all right.
Imooto-san: Younger sister
Onee-san: Older sister
Otooto-san: Younger brother
Koibito: Lover
Hai: Yes
Iie: No
Sumimasen: Excuse me
Matte ne: Wait
Gomen: Sorry
Kitsune: Fox
Youkai: Demon
Koorime: Ice apparition
Makoto: This name means sincere.
Tamika: This name means child of the people.
Well, I think that about covers all of the words used in the first chapter. Hey, maybe now you can speak some Japanese too! ^^
~Candy-Chan^^