One Day It'll Be Me


I had finally come to terms with my emotions.

I loved Hyuga Neji.

And I would tell him.

He was more important than my shinobi way, more important than the chuunin exam, more important than life because he was my life. He was everything to me.

I would tell him.

I would show him.

He was always harsh with me. Using me for his pleasure and leaving me broken, with no way to heal myself. Worst of all, I kept coming back, kept wanting more in the hopes that he would one day heal me.

I wanted him to know what it felt like to be empty.

I would give him the feeling that he gave me an then I would give him the feeling I had wanted. I would make him better, heal him, make him whole.

I swore it, on my Hitai Ate band, I swore it.

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

I wanted him again. I had been trying to keep away from him but it was so hard when he was so beautiful and I loved him so much.

Rock Lee, do you know the pain you cause me?

Every time you cry when I take you, my heart breaks. I never wanted to hurt you. I don't know why I continue to. You're so perfect I can't help myself. I lower you to my level. Lower than dirt.

I challenged you to a fight that day and you accepted, just like you do every time.

Why do you keep letting me hurt you?

Hurt myself...

Hurt us both...

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Neji pushed me down as he was fighting me. Pushed me down into the dirt like always. Heji sat down so that his tail bone rested on my hips.

Now.

Now, I would show Neji.

I rolled us over so that I sat on Neji. I noted the shock on his face.

I had never been dominant before.

I leaned down next to Neji's ear and whispered those three simple words.

... I love you...

Neji gasped as I began to show him and give him everything that I had ever wanted.

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Those words alone, from Lee's lips talking to me, meaning me, those were enough to send me into ecstasy right there. But Lee had more in mind.

He kissed me.

Not like I kissed him, harsh and bruising. Lee kissed me softly.

So softly.

So softly that it hurt, so tender that it bruised, so gentle that it dragged all my love for him to the surface and I couldn't help but return his softness.

Couldn't help but return those words that he had given me.

I love you.


The End

Wish I may
Wish I might
Hold you close
This very night

Although I wish
It won't come true
But you still know
I love you

I'd give anything
To make you smile
To be there
Even just a while

But I can't
Your so far away
But you still know
My loves here to stay
~ Jason Avina (Happy Squirrel) written for Lily Day



Lily: wow. I finished this... the poem at the end was written by ny sweet jason. he's on my favorite authors list.