Author's Note: Yo! Life is a pain, but it must be done. This gets in the way of writing, and other things. But as the poll is now closed, and the results are in, the conclusion is this.

Poll 1:

Everybody wanted Shuichi to live.

Poll 2:

Yuki – 3

Tohma – 3

Tohma and Yuki – 7

Most people wanted Tohma and Yuki to have Shuichi, so I will try to make a good story on that decision. But I will need your encouragement on this to see it through.

Thank You…

Rating: R or M

Warnings: Slightly unstable author who has been eating pop tarts for dinner, sex, rape and drugs.

Some Pasts are Murky and Clouded

By Yardat Sama

Chapter 14

" Eat a third and drink a third and leave the remaining third of your stomach empty. Then, when you get angry, there will be sufficient room for your rage."

Babylonian Talmud, tractate Gittin

Yuki lunged for the white haired man who only stepped out of range and brought out a vial of liquid that made them all stop.

" Ah ah ahh, my dear Yuki Eiri, you don't want Shindou to die do you? Because if you try to attack me one more time, I will break Shindou Shuichi's cure and it will be your entire fault."

Yuki snarled as did Haru who stepped up to Yuki's shoulder, " What do you want asshole!" Haru snapped.

" I thought that you would know that already, Haru-kun." Yamaguchi said mockingly, " I want my little doll."

" You can't have him." Yuki snarled out.

Yamaguchi cocked his head to the side and smiled silkily like a snake, " Really? I can't?" He brought out the vial again and showed it to them, " He's dying isn't he? Coughing up blood is just the first stage." His smile then turned malicious and deadly, " do you want to know what the second stage is?" Tohma paled.

" The second stage, Tell us." Fuji said.

Yamaguchi was still smiling in that psychotic way, " By tomorrow morning his kidneys are going to fail, his liver and all his other vital organs. He'll still be alive, but only for four hours after they start failing." Yamaguchi closed his eyes and licked his lips while shuddering as if pleased, " It'll be glorious, to see my doll that way, truly exciting."

" You sick fuck!" Haru bit out.

Tohma's face hardened, " What do you want in exchange for the antidote Yamaguchi?" Yamaguchi smirked as he looked over the blonde.

" Maybe a fuck with you. Or how about you Yuki-san?" Yuki growled low in his throat like some kind of beast.

Meanwhile the doctors where trying to stabilize Shuichi and trying to stop the blood coming from his mouth. Tohma looked once into the room and the bustling nurses and doctors and then looked back at Yamaguchi. The man's eye was glinting evilly in the light of the hallway.

" What if I did agree with you Yamaguchi. Would you give Shuichi-kun the antidote?"

Yamaguchi licked his lips and walked over to stand close to Tohma, and bent forward to lick his cheek, " Your delectable, almost as good as my doll. In exchange for a good fuck, I'll give you your antidote." Tohma reeled away appalled at what the man had just done.

" What are you doing Seguchi?" Fuji questioned.

" Saving Shuichi-kun's life." Tohma said glancing in Fuji's direction, and then looked back at Yamaguchi, " Tell me what I need to do."

" If you'll come with me." Yamaguchi said waving his hand towards the exit door.

" But first you must agree to give the antidote to Shuichi-kun before the second stage." Tohma said. Yamaguchi's smirked.

" Then we better hurry then."

" No passion so effectually robs the mind of all its powers of acting and reasoning as fear."

- Edmund Burke (1729 - 1797), "A Philosophical Inquiry into the Origin of Our Ideas of the Sublime and Beautiful", 1756

When Tohma stepped into the dark room, he was hit in the back making him stumble, " My aren't we clumsy." Tohma grit his teeth as he heard Yamaguchi from behind him, " Did you know blondie that my little doll stayed in this exact same room? He did you see," Yamaguchi shuddered and wrapped his arms around Tohma from behind, " He screamed as I took his sweet little body, as I pounded into him from behind."

" I hope you die you sick of son of a whore." Tohma's head snapped to the side as Yamaguchi lowered his hand.

" I do not take kindly to you insult my mother."

Tohma was forced on to the floor, where Yamaguchi used a knife to cut all of his clothes into pieces. Tohma looked away as Yamaguchi left him naked on the floor, shivering as the cold started to seep into his body.

" Are you cold? Here let me warm you up."

Tohma screamed.

" We all make mistakes. But it's stupid to make the same mistake twice."

- Excerpt from Yardat Sama's personal Journal

Yuki put his head down as he saw Shuichi laying there behind the glass, tubes and machines trying to keep his fragile body alive. He was such a fool.

" Are you just going to stand there?"

He looked up into the face of one Nakano Hiroshi, Shuichi's best friend. The man who still didn't know about that sick bastard Yamaguchi, " What do you want?" Yuki said.

" Why weren't we informed that Shuichi had been found?"

" We were busy, trying to keep him alive."

Hiro closed his mouth in surprise, " Alive? He was dying!" Yuki glared at him.

" No I said that purely for my enjoyment, you ass." Hiro growled at him, and then looked around.

" Where is Seguchi-san?"

Yuki didn't answer, but closed his eyes, and made a prayer to Buddha.

Tohma kept screaming…
To be continued…

Sorry it was short. I'm really busy and I wanted to get this chapter out of my head, before I lost it.

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