Lost But Not Yet Broken
Chapter 13: Ambiguity's loss
An: OMG! Can you believe it I've actually updated. Holy crap I think I've sent all of you into shock. Well yes, my life has been crap since the year started thus my lack updating. I'm actually so depressed that I just started typing so that I could feel useful. I don't have a job I'm looking for one now. Which sucks cause I have no money for bills.
AN: Hopefully this chapter is decent considering the wait. I think I'm going to update Demon's Calling, I feel like torturing Sev for some reason. I'm being an evil bitch that's why. --
Warnings: oh god you don't even want to know. Frankly I don't even know. I'm typing this on a whim I haven't thought of the chapter yet. Heh bad me.
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Just consider me your friend
I am until the end
Can I guarantee you life?
I don't think I can
Godsmack: Faceless "I Am"
"Worthless boy!"
"Trash!"
"Piece of shit, waste of space and air!"
"Useless, crying little bitch!"
"Your kind should never have been allowed to live!"
"You should have been drowned at birth!"
"Filthy rat!"
"You are nothing! You are here to serve and nothing more! Be grateful to even get the scraps that you get boy because that is all you will ever have! Any touch will always be followed by pain because that's the only way you freaks understand anything!"
These were the words that rang inside the abandoned and unloved mind of one Harry Potter, as he awoke slowly to a brightly lit room and white sterile walls. The confused boy blinked rapidly as he tried to determine where he was. There was a strange tingling on the side of his face, an almost aching feeling that he couldn't place. Ignoring the feeling, the emerald eyed boy began to sit up, only to be stopped by a loud scolding voice.
"Harry Potter! You stay in that bed right now. Madame Pompfrey hasn't said that you could leave yet. By the way how do you feel?" commanded the bright but worried voice of a young Draco.
Harry stared dumbly at Draco, blinking rapidly as if in a stupor. Finally after what felt like eternity to Draco the emerald eyed boy responded.
"Dra…co?" asked Harry still slightly confused.
Draco gave his friend a wide innocent smile that lit up his silvery eyes so brightly, that they seemed to glow. However, before the blond boy could utter a word the strong baritone voice of his uncle resounded behind him.
"I see you've woken up" said Severus Snape as he stood rigid at the base of the small hospital bed. His face held a stern passiveness but his eyes held worry in their black cold depths.
"Uncle Sev!" Draco ran up to hug his uncle thoroughly. However, Snape kept an unwavering eye contact with Harry who looked back with out so much as a flinch.
"Harry, how are you feeling?" asked Severus.
Harry cocked his head to the side and perplexed expression on his face.
"You seemed to have gone through another episode; Draco was quite frantic when I found him"
"Dra..co?"
"Yeah Harry?"
"I'm s…."
"Don't apologize. It wasn't your fault. I was just worried you know. Does your jaw hurt Harry?" Draco placed a gentle hand on the raven haired boy's swollen cheek. "Doesn't it hurt harry?"
Harry looked at Draco, slowly what happened earlier came back to him.
"No. Pain is ok."
Draco felt like crying, whether they were tears of happiness or of sorrow he really didn't know, all he knew was that his best friend was ok and yet he wasn't. The sudden rustle of black robes caught the boy's attention as Severus knelt down in front of Harry.
"Harry, is pain ok if it hurts Draco?"
Harry narrowed his eyes slightly at the question, confused by what the raven haired meant.
"No"
"Then if you are in pain you must tell me because Draco will be hurt if you are hurt."
"How?"
Severus didn't know how to word the answer in a way that Harry would comprehend. To Harry the only existent way for one to be hurt is through physical touch. It was physical pain that the boy had grown up with, his heart having become numb and cold long ago. Severus did not know how to convey to the depraved boy that his actions also hurt Draco emotionally. Telling him such would only confuse the emerald eyed boy more. It seemed to Severus more and more, that Draco was the only person who could actually get through to the boy. However, unlike Lucius, Severus did not believe that the raven haired boy should become only dependant on Draco. Harry needed to understand the inner workings of different emotions. Anger, humor, anguish, joy, hate, and love are what made one human. Right now Harry seemed to show only fear and a despair so deep that Severus could have drowned in it.
Severus could not help but allow a small comforting smile to grace his features as he addressed Harry's question. "You'll know in time Harry – for now, just trust Draco and me to take care of you."
"Take care? It does not…."
"It does matter Harry. You just don't understand yet. So, for now let it be understood?"
"Yes, Severus sir."
Severus wanted to laugh every time Harry said those words. He remembered quite distinctly how he had spent a good two weeks trying to get Harry to call him Severus. Of course this made for much amusement on Lucius' part and only irritated the raven haired man more. Finally, Harry had said his name but not without the "sir" at the end. This had sent Lucius into hysterics for a good hour or so until Severus felt the need to conjure a frog into the blond man's pant leg.
Draco had decided to help Harry out of bed while his uncle Sev wondered into memory lane.
"Come on Harry. Let's get to bed"
"Ok Draco."
Severus quickly snapped out of his trance upon seeing Harry and Draco heading towards the door. He bid them goodnight and hoped that tomorrow would be better than today. As he entered his chambers and settled in for the night, he had no idea of the danger that had entered Hogwarts.
Severus: wow. That was short for what how many months.
Draco: I know right.
Harry: well at least I wasn't beat or anything this time.
SW: oh shut up.
AN: sorry everyone for the extremely short chapter. Frankly it was the only way I could get myself out of the stuck I was in. The next chapter will progress more. With the diary and Lucius and stuff like that. I know It doesn't make up for such a long wait I promise to update again very soon.