Tokichan: Okay... I have decided to write my first true

yaoi fic. Well, I guess that my unposted Demon Diary

ficcy is my first, but this is my first POSTED yaoi romance.

I don't know if I'll end up making it a lemon or not... I'm

thinking I will right now, but I MAY chicken out. I've never

posted one of my lemons before.

This ficcy is a Ryou/Bakura, my current favorite. It has

implied Yami/Yuugi and Malik/Marik, and perhaps Jou/Seto

later (I am unsure of this. Depending on my mood I go from

Jou/Mai to Jou/Seto... Both seem pretty good). I'll try to

avoid bashing anyone (*cough*Anzu*cough*) if only to keep

this whole fic in character.

Thankyou for taking the time to read this fic. If you like it

and want me to continue please review (otherwise I just

loose intrest in working on it...), and check out my other

stories here and under the same name on FictionPress.

Thankyou again!

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Disclaimer: I don't own YuGiOh. Somebody else does. I

make no profit from writing this. Only the satisfation of

sharing my love and veiw of the show.

I do own Ruki, though... You can put her in one of your fics

if you really want too... just tell me and give me credit for

her (though I'm not sure WHY you would want to use her)...

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Toki: Thanks for reading the disclaimer. It makes it clear

that you should not sue me. I have no money. Spent it all in

Japan last summer.

Also, a note on Ruki: She is an original character and any

simalarity to anyone else is PURELY unintended. Just

thought I'd add that.

NOW! On with the ficcy! ENJOY!

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What They Can't Describe - By Tokichan

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Bakura was staring at the ceiling, confused again.

It seemed to happen a lot lately. And it was all Ryou's fault.

And WHY did Ryou confuse him so? Because he

was doing everything in his power to push AWAY his hikari,

to NOT get attached to Ryou. But no matter what he did or

how much he hurt Ryou his hikari would still smile at him and

he would feel his insides go all mushy and un-evil like. Which

was NOT the way he wanted to be. His whole life had taught

him that he had to be tough to survive, and tough people didn't

go all mushy when their hikari smiled at them.

And that was why Bakura had decided that he must

convince Ryou that he didn't care about him and never would.

But his new course of action really seemed to be working a

little too well. After one week of completely ignoring Ryou, not

even paying enough attention to beat him, Ryou seemed to

be sure that Bakura hated him. And this gave Bakura another

reason to be confused, because he shouldn't be upset that

Ryou belived he was hated after working so hard to convince

him of it, right?

Bakura had tried to think over his feelings, but he

really wasn't very good at understanding them. In all the

thousands of years he had lived he had always come across

plenty of things he truely hated, but nothing that he could say

he truely loved. At least nothing that lasted. He had loved his

mother, but she died when he was young. He had a few good

friends, but they hadn't been fast enough to escape from the

Pharoah's gaurds. And he didn't feel the same about them as

he did for Ryou.

Bakura thought about all this as he wandered the

streets. Where was it that he had gone so wrong that he had

last the ability to accept when he loved somebody? Was it at

the same time that he had decided that all he needed to be

happy was power? Or mabey it was at the point that he came

to the conclusion that he wasn't worth anything. Bakura was

so absorbed in his thoughts that he didn't notice the short girl

until they collided.

The girl was mabey nine years old at the most, and

was fairly small and malnourished at that. She was wearing a

pair of worn out, blood stained overalls over a black teeshirt,

and had her long, wavy golden hair tucked up in an old looking

baseball hat that fell off when she collided with Bakura. Bruises

and scratches on her arms and bare feet, and a cut ran across

her left cheek. Bakura could tell that the girl had just been in a

fight, and hadn't been winning.

The girl ducked behind a trash can as a group of

much larger, stronger looking boys, most likely members of a

gang, ran by mumbling about 'killing the little theif' as they took

a look around and passed by the street after only seeing Bakura

standing in the middle of it. Bakura raided an eyebrow before

looking to the battered girl.

"What did you steal from them, kid? They seem to be

a little upset," Bakura said with a smile. The girl glared at him and

put back on her hat.

"I only took what I earned. I helped them out and they

don't want to pay up," The girl snapped, turning to leave. Bakura

laughed at her attitude and grabbed her by the back if her shirt,

holding her in the air.

"Hmm... What's a little twerp like you doing hanging

around a gang anyway? You looking to be killed?" He asked.

The girl kicked and sqirmed.

"Put me DOWN! I'm not a twerp, my name is Ruki! So

SHUT UP! I had to do this! It's the only way I could get back Kai's

medallion! It's all I have to remember him by! Isn't there anyone

important to you!?" the girl yelled, making Bakura frown.

"That's what I'm trying to figure out. Come with me, kid.

I'll make sure those boys don't catch up with you." Bakura said.

Ruki blinked and gave him a strange look.

"Why should I trust some stranger?" She asked. Bakura

smirked at her question. It had such a simple answer, after all.

"Because I'm the only one around here that might NOT

want you dead, and because I won't tell anyone that you were

messing with the gang that controls this area. Now hurry!" Bakura

snapped, leading a very skeptical Ruki down a series of shadowy

allies and backstreets. "So, who's this Kai that you were talking

about?" Bakura asked. Ruki frowned sadly.

"My big brother. He was killed by that gang. I had to get

back his medallion. It was his lucky charm... The only thing I have

to remember him by," she explained. Bakura frowned at Ruki's sad

voice. Her life wasn't all that bad

"Cheer up kid. You're still young and able to find other

people to hold dear. You'll heal in time. Unlike me." Bakura said,

stopping at the end of an ally and looking around, "Okay kid, I'll

leave you here. You should be okay from here on, right?"

Ruki nodded and watched as Bakura headed off into the

dark towards his home. What a strange guy. He reminded her of

Kai, dark and brooding. He needed someone who could help him

find his lost heart.

Ruki didn't hear the sound of footsteps behind her until

it was too late. The next day a garbage man found her dead body

in a dumpster. Bakura saw the story on the six o'clock news.

Neither the gang nor the police found the medallion she

had stolen. Bakura, however, found a golden coin with the name

"Kai" engraved on it sitting on his nightstand. He had no idea how

it got there, and if he had been told he most likely wouldn't have

believed it. At least not until he met Ruki again several days after

her death.

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To be continued

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Toki: So, what do you think? This is just the prologue. Soon the

real plot will start. Ruki will help Bakura and Ryou get together

and Bakura will help her avenge her and her brother's deaths

so that she can rest in peace. I think Ruki is a sweety, other

than her bad habit of haunting people... Why she helps Bakura

is explained later.

Please R&R if you want me to continue.