Author's notes: Well, I put the blame of this story on Akiya. :P
Let me explain the idea to this fic. This entire fic will run as a trilogy, as it's divided into three parts, along with a prologue and an epilogue. The focus is around Tsuzuki and Hisoka's relationship and how it MAY progress after the manga (This is based mainly on the manga, but you CAN still read this and enjoy it as there's almost no manga spoilers, besides the characters mentioned and a few key points), and it's post-Kyoto, but pre-Gensou-Kai.
More than likely, the rating will go up, but for right now, it's fine.
The idea of this fic came over at my sister's forums and the idea morphed into a small trilogy. Right now, I am probably going to work on this and go back to 'Mending and Melting of Hearts'.
Feedback and critiques are craved especially. :D Especially with the prologue, as part 1 was written AFTER the prologue and I got almost no feedback on it and it's un-betaed. :( I'd like to thank Rinoa Redcloak for beta reading my first part. ^_^
Disclaimers: I don't own Tsuzuki, Hisoka, Tatsumi, and any other Yami characters or places. ;_; They're not mine and I only amuse myself with my pathetic writing.
Anyways, on with the fic.
PrologueTypical
days… Normal days…
Days that seemed to run the same day in and day out. The occasional argument
between rivals, the occasional slap on the head, the occasional threat of
cutting people's salaries, the occasional explosion coming from the laboratory
down the hall, the occasional squeal from two girls determined to dress someone
up like a girl, the occasional headaches, the occasional whining about sweets.
But those days were gone forever. Things would never be the same again. They
could never be the same, not after what happened.
The memory of what happened was still clear in everyone's mind. How close they
were to losing something that could never be replaced. How close true death, a
second death, was knocking on everyone's door. The intensity of the situation
had scared everyone so much, to the point where they all now had to question
every single action they took from day in and day out.
What would drive someone to their second death? Especially someone who seemed
like he had no care in the world. What could cause a person to question their
self worth, especially when there were people around that someone who obviously
cared about them?
Things had to change. Whether people liked it or not.
That's the conclusion that Hisoka Kurosaki had finally come to realize, despite
the way things around the Shokan Division seemed. Being empathic had its
advantages in this case. The overall impression of Tsuzuki's near second
suicidal attempt had affected everyone, including himself.
All this time, he thought he knew Tsuzuki, his childlike partner. He was used
to his smiles and his 'puppy eye pout' (as people liked to call it) and his
obsession with sweets and butting into everyone else's business to help. That
seemed like the perfect description for the nearly one hundred year old Shinigami.
Yet, the above description was so grossly wrong, that a bitter smile made its
way across Hisoka's lips. That's the perfect image that people had of Tsuzuki.
If anything, Hisoka now knew about his partner was that he was a very good
actor.
It didn't help that Tsuzuki had naturally strong shields around himself. Hisoka
knew that Tsuzuki hid things from him and put it under the excuse that he
didn't want Hisoka to get hurt. That he didn't want to be a burden to everyone
else.
The truth was, though, he didn't want anyone to know what might possibly be the
'real' him. He was deathly afraid that if someone came to know him, that he
would face rejection. It was what Tsuzuki feared most of all, to be rejected.
And Tsuzuki knew it would feel a lot worse if someone close to him started to
fear and loathe him.
So he kept his secrets hidden. Hidden away from everyone's eyes and tried to
act like that the incident in Kyoto never happened.
He wasn't fooling anyone, especially not Hisoka.
It wasn't until after the incident in Kyoto that Hisoka realized how fragile
Tsuzuki really was. He learned many different things about Tsuzuki and saw a
different side to Tsuzuki, that in fact, he wasn't as brave and powerful as he
seemed. He was, and will always be, despite his protests to Hisoka, human.
Tsuzuki had weaknesses, like everyone else, and those weaknesses affected
Tsuzuki all the more deeply. Despite him being able to summon twelve powerful
Shikigami at his command, they couldn't help fight the battle that was taking
place in his own psyche. They couldn't help him when he was being manipulated
mentally.
When it came to powers, Tsuzuki was at his peak physically, but mentally, he
was as weak as a newborn kitten.
It wasn't until Tsuzuki was kidnapped by the mad doctor, Muraki, that Hisoka
realized how much he had taken for granted. How many times had he hurt Tsuzuki
by yelling at him and calling him an idiot, by slapping him on the head, by
pushing him and telling him to leave him alone?
Hisoka never meant to hurt Tsuzuki intentionally, by any means. It ended up
becoming like a habit, a routine, a ritual that looked and felt normal. To
Hisoka, to put it simply, it was just the way things were between them.
But normalcy could never be an option now. After seeing how vulnerable and
fragile his partner can be, how could he ever go back to the way things were?
What if it was because of his yelling and screaming and the way he treated
Tsuzuki was part of the reason that Tsuzuki decided that he wanted to die for
good?
There was no way that Hisoka was going to make a mistake like that ever happen
again. More than anything, he didn't want to lose Tsuzuki to something like
that again. It was a chance he wasn't willing to tempt Lady Luck again.
But more than that, Hisoka noticed something different about his partner one
day. It was as if Tsuzuki had come to some sort of conclusion about something
that had been bothering him for a while. Hisoka had no idea what it could
possibly be. He didn't want Tsuzuki to hide anything from him, especially if it
was important. But if Tsuzuki wasn't willing to tell, he wasn't going to tell
and would hide his secrets well, although Hisoka would drop subtle hints that
if Tsuzuki wanted to talk, that he was here to listen to him.
It was after that day when Tsuzuki started to behave and act very strange that
Hisoka knew he was going to confront him about this one day. Whether it was
today or tomorrow or even a year from now, Hisoka had no idea. But he told
himself that he would listen when Tsuzuki was ready to tell him.
'Because we're partners… Because we're friends… Because you're my family…'
Or was it because Tsuzuki was something more…?