Chapter 1: Guess what? I have amnesia.
Title: A new beginning
Author: Nikka
Rating: General (basically if you're old enough to watch Angel you can read this fanfic).
Disclaimer: Angel & Buffy's characters are not my creation (wish they were) they belong to Joss Wehdon and David Greenwalt. Other characters that are not familiar from the show do belong to me.
Spoilers: Angel season 4, Buffy season 7.
Summary: Cordy is back form the higher plane and she has some news for the gang, news that will lead the Scoobies to L.A.
Time line: Well I played with the time line on this fic, especially on Buffy. On Angel it's right after "the house always wins" right after she returns but from that point on I changed most of the plot. No beast, no "spin the bottle".
On Buffy Willow is still in England with Giles, Spike is back with a soul but he's not crazy. And the First is not around, yet. The rest is the same.
Disturbion: Heree and you can post it at any site just let me know, so I can see my pride and joy for myself.
Author notes: Hi everyone, **English is not my native tongue** so you may find some spelling & grammar mistakes, although I have someone who re-proofs the story for me. You're more than welcome to let me know about them but remember you may find them while you read the story. Have fun.
Status: Not finished.
A special thank you to Sarah for reproofing my story. As of that the upload of the chapters may take longer.
Feedback: I love love love reviews and I'll be sure to mention it at the end of every chapter.
A skinny beautiful girl came down the big staircase. She looked tired. She walked up to the center of the room where two man set on a rounded couch. "Hey." She greeted them and they both stood up. "Relax its just me, she's still upstairs." The two men sighed.
"Fred How is she?" One of the men asked her.
"The same Angel. Still looking around looking alarmed and mystified. I hope Lorne comes back soon. "Gunn." Fred turned to him.
"Yeah baby." He replied with a smile.
"When did he say he's coming back?"
"He didn't. He said he doesn't think it'll take long but who knows..."
As he finished his sentence a green demon walked in to the hotel holding a small bottle in his hand waving it up in the air. "I got it." He cried out in a cheerful tone.
Angel walked up to him. "So this is it. This will restore her memory?"
"According to my source Muffin, this should do the trick."
"She has to drink this?" Angel looked at the bottle and the green liquid inside it in disgust.
"Yes. And I think considering her lack of memory that you three should give it to her, I think she'll freak if she'll see me." Lorne had a good point.
"Okay, lets go." Angel headed for the stairs.
"Will we know instantly?" Fred asked.
"You should." Lorne replied. She joined Gunn and Angel upstairs.
***
He knocked on her door. "Yes?" he heard her voice coming from the other side of the door.
"Cordelia its us can we come in?" There was no reply instead he heard footsteps and then the door was opened. She was still wearing her white dress and she looked angry and confused.
"I'm glad you're here I have some questions." Angel could see she was holding photos in her hand. One of them was of Connor.
"I think I have all your answers." Angel said and showed her the bottle.
"What is it?" She looked at it in hesitation.
"Its something that would bring back your memory." Angel didn't want to mention the word potion, fearing it would arise even more question.
"Describe something, because it doesn't seem like any kind of medicine I know." Cordelia stared at the bottle in doubt.
"It's hard to explain but I promise you it won't hurt you. You just have to drink this and everything will be alright." He smiled at her hoping it will help.
"How do I know you won't drug me and do stuff to me." Cordelia still wasn't convinced.
"Cordy." He handed Fred the bottle and held her hand. She didn't back away. "You came to me, not the other way around. You looked at the pictures, you know I'm your friend, we all are." Fred and Gunn smiled. "Now. You look at those photos and tell me if you trust me, look inside your heart."
Cordelia looked at the photo she was holding, a photo of a baby and him, and the man who called himself Angel, standing behind her looking at the baby smiling. They looked happy. They looked like a family. "I trust you." She said. "Hand me that bottle."
Angel took the bottle from Fred and handed it to Cordelia. She opened it and closed her eyes and in one big sip she drank it all. She opened her eyes. The room was spinning. She held to the lintel of the door. Fred, Gunn and Angel backed away a few inches giving her room. But Angel was on standby to catch her if he had to. She looked up, images flashing in front of her, Snapshots of her life, of the past three months. She took a few steps out of the room and leaned against the wall in the corridor.
"Cordy?" Angel was worried.
She heard his voice and looked towards him, but only saw images. "Angel." She whispered.
"She remembers." He smiled. "Cordy do you know who you are? Where you are?"
The images stopped. She looked at Angel. She remembered it all. "Oh god." She said.
"What is it Cor? Do you remember us?" She looked at Angel.
"Oh god Angel. I can't." She said and pushed him away running down the corridor.
"What?" Angel looked at Fred and Gunn confused. "What just happen here?" He asked the two who looked even more confused. "I'm going after her."
***
Cordelia ran down the stairs and towards the exit. She didn't even notice Lorne coming from the kitchen and bumped into him. "Sorry Lorne." She said and tried to rush out but he stopped her.
"Princess you remember, I knew the potion would..."
"Lorne, I have to go. Don't let him follow me." She said and ran out.
"What? Princess? Who's he?" And just then Angel came rushing down the stairs.
"Lorne did you see Cordelia?" Angel asked in panic.
"Yeah, but she asked..."
"Where did she go? Did she say anything?"
"She asked me not to let you follow her." Lorne replied.
"She what?" Angel was confused. "I guess the potion backfired." Angel came to his own conclusion.
"No cinnamon buns, the potion worked just fine." Lorne disagreed with Angel's conclusion.
"How can you say that didn't you see her reaction?" Angel was angry. He wasn't really sure at whom.
"Its not the potion that made her run off, it's the memories. All that has happened to her in the past 3 months including her previous life came rushing in, and I guess it was to much to observe all at once." Lorne explained. Just then Gunn and Fred came rushing down the stairs. They stopped when they saw Angel standing in the lobby.
"So what now, how will we find her? Do you think she'll go to her apartment?" Angel asked but no one seemed to have an answer. "Because she doesn't know it was rented to someone else." Angel was desperate. "We need to fine her. Gunn you and Fred check the..."
"Hold on cowboy." Lorne stopped the search party before it even started. "You heard what she said, she doesn't want to be found."
"Lorne, she's confused and alone she doesn't know what she wants." Angel was starting to lose his patience.
"I don't think so big guy, I think..."
"Then I guess it's a good thing I didn't ask for your opinion." Angel snapped at him.
"Fine, if you want do it like this go ahead I won't stop you. But don't come crying to me when it blows up in your face." A bit offended Lorne walked away.
"Okay guys, this is what we'll do..."
***
She walked the streets looking at all the people around her. The world hasn't changed much. Except for the shoes, they were different, at least to her observing eye. She stopped in front of a store. She looked inside. It was still open, so she walked in.
"Hello may I help you?" The sales woman asked her.
"No thank you." Cordy brushed her off and headed for the dressing rooms.
"Excuse me how many items? Another sales woman stopped her at the entrance to the dressing rooms.
"Sorry?" Cordy was focused.
"Items? How many would you like to try on?"
Cordelia looked at her hands and noticed she wasn't carrying any. She turned around grabbed a red dress from the hanger and headed back to the dressing room.
"Oh we have it in black also if you prefer..." The sales woman from before stopped her.
"Its okay, I'm a red kind of girl." She turned to the other sales woman. "One item." The woman gave her a tag and Cordy went inside. "She found a free booth and walked in locking the door behind her. She stared at the mirror. She looked the same way she remembered. Her hair was a bit longer. "I guess your hair does grow on a higher plane." She took a good look in the mirror. She took off the white dress and stood in front of the mirror wearing nothing but her lingerie. She rubbed her tummy. She had a tiny belly. "God, how will I tell Angel?"
"Miss are you alright in there?" She heard the sales woman call out to her.
"Yes, thank you." She put the white dress on and looked in the mirror again. "It doesn't show yet, not underneath this dress. I guess he hadn't found out yet.
***
"She's not in her old apartment. I asked the tenant and he said no young blond girl stopped by, although on the looks of him he was sure hopping she would." Fred filled them in.
"Nothing in the bus station either." Gunn informed them on his progress, or lack of it.
"Great, where can she be? She doesn't know any one else." Angel was frustrated. Why did she have to run off like this, why couldn't she have stayed and talk to him? God, sometimes she was a pain in the butt.
"How about Connor? Do you think she's with him?" Fred hypothesized.
"And where is there exactly. We don't even know where he's staying." Gunn reminded her.
"Actually I do." Angel corrected him.
"I've been following him, making sure his safe." Angel explained.
"After what he did to you man?" Gunn was surprised.
"You can't choose family. Besides he's just a kid and he made a mistake, haven't we all?"
"Sure, once I put my mom's white blouse in the washer with my red T-shirt and her blouse was ruined. That was a big mistake. But throwing your father into the ocean for 3 months is not. Its more than that." Fred was still angry with Connor. She felt betrayed. They all did.
The phone rang drawing them back to reality. Angel rushed over to the phone. "Hello?"
"Angel?" It was Cordelia.
"Cordy, where are you?"
"You're supposed to say Angel investigations... blah blah blah. 3 months I've been away and you're already neglecting the business." He loved hearing her joke like before.
"Cor where are you?" He was worried and right now he needed to see her.
"I'm fine Angel don't worry."
"But I do worry. Where are you?"
"I need to talk to Lorne, is he there?"
"Lorne? Cor I..."
"Angel. Not now. Right now I need Lorne. Can you put him on?" He was angry all right, but what could he do. Arguing with her will get him nowhere. He had to play along.
"Lorne..." He yelled out. "Fred go get Lorne." He ordered. She ran up the stairs.
"Angel?" He heard her voice from the other side of the line.
"I'm here."
"I'm sorry I ran off like I did, but there are things that..."
"That what Cordy? You can tell me anything."
"I know and I will. Just not now."
"What is it you meany?" Lorne came down the stairs.
"Its Cordy she wants to speak to you." Angel handed him the phone.
"To me?" Lorne was surprised. He took the phone. "Hey sugar, where are you?"
"Lorne can you read people threw phones?"
"What gorgeous?" He didn't understand her question.
"If I sing can you read me?" She explained.
"Sugar pie wherever this question is leading towards, I don't want to be a part of it."
"Lorne, I just need you..."
"To do your job for you. And to that I say no way. If you need to tell someone something do it yourself I'm no messenger boy." He knew what she wanted from him, he felt it.
"Okay, give me Angel." She knew he wouldn't budge.
"Sure thing princess." Lorne handed the phone to Angel.
"Hey Cor."
"Hey. We need to talk, can you meet me where we were supposed to have met. Before I left." She offered.
"No. Bad memories." He replied. She didn't know about him and Connor.
"Okay then meet me at the promenade, you know the one."
"Sure, 15 minutes?" he said anxiously.
"Yeah 15 minutes." She hung up.
"So where is she?" Fred was anxious to know.
"I'm going to meet her. She wants to talk." Angel grabbed his jacket.
"Angel is she okay?" Gunn asked concerned.
"I don't know yet. I'll call you when I do." He took the car keys and walked out.
***
She walked across the promenade. **What will I say to him? How can I explain this? Maybe it was a bad idea, maybe I should just...** her thoughts were cut off by a feel, she felt him near by. She turned and saw him walking towards her smiling.
She looked like a vision to him. She stood there all dressed in white. She was so beautiful. He started walking towards her, his heart racing.
She stood there not able to move. He was getting closer and she could barely breath.
He felt like it was the first time they've met in 3 months. This time it was she. She remembered it all. He stopped right in front of her.
"I'm glad you could come." I'm so lying; I wish I could just run off again. She said to him.
"Me too." He replied. "Want to sit down." He offered pointing at a bench beside them.
"Sure." **Thank god I thought I might pass out.**
"You gave us quite a scare." He sat down. She sat beside him.
"I know, I'm sorry. It was just too much to take in.
"So you remember everything?" Angel wanted to make sure she was her old self again.
"Everything. Even the part that I didn't remember anything I remember." She smiled.
"Where were you Cordy? Were you happy? What did you do there?" The questions came pouring out.
"Hold on soldier boy." She calmed him down, I'll tell you everything." She took a big breath. "I was on some higher plane, I was okay, and I mean I wasn't sad or anything but mostly I was as bored as hell."
"You were?" Angel was surprised. He thought being a higher being meant more action.
"Yeah, mostly I watched. From time to time I stepped in, but mostly watched." She explained.
"Did you watch over us?" He knew she did.
"Yeah, but I saw other stuff to."
"Like what?" He was curious.
"Like the life of Angelus. Beginning to end."
"Angelus? Why would you want to...?"
"I wanted to know. So they let me. The thing is they didn't just show me they let me live it." Her words burned him. "I felt his victims, I felt the joy and fun he got out of killing. I saw and felt every death, every massacre." Angel didn't like the way this conversation was heading. "It was hard at first thinking of the man you lo..." She stopped herself. "Thinking of you like this. I met Angelus before, but this was beyond my wildest nightmares. It was in living colors."
Angel lowered his head not able to face her. She reached out and touched his chin raising his head.
"The thing is, that after awhile I realized I was looking at a monster, a monster that doesn't exists anymore. He's not you Angel, he never will be." He smiled. "I was able to separate the man from the beast. And I'm okay. So don't feel shame or guilt. I chose to see, I chose to learn and I have. I learned that you are nothing like Angelus. And I learned that the good in you far outweighs the bad I've seen."
He loved her so much and knowing she saw it all and accepted him, for who he was felt right, felt complete.
"You wanted to tell me something the night we met. What was it?" He couldn't help himself he needed to know.
"Groo left Angel. That day I came home and he said he was leaving. He said my heart belongs to another and that I don't really love him."
"Who do you love?" He was on the edge of his seat.
"According to Groo... you Angel. He said I loved you." A huge smile spread across his face, but still he wanted to hear her say it, admit it. Not to hear Groosalug's opinion, as true as it was. "At first I didn't believe him, I didn't let myself believe. It wasn't until I got a vision of myself that I realized the truth." She took his hand. "Angel I love you, I always have. I was just too afraid to admit; to afraid it will ruin our friendship. I don't how you feel but..."
"Shhhh." He put his finger on her lips. "Why don't I show you how I feel." He leaned down and kissed her softly. She kissed him back. She wished it could end like this, she wished she didn't have to keep going, but she knew she had to. She pulled away. "Cordy is something wrong?" Angel was confused. He thought this is what she wanted.
"I have to tell you the rest." She explained.
"You can tell me about your adventures later, we have all the time in the world." H smiled and leaned down to kiss her again, but she backed away.
"No we don't. Let me finish." She insisted and he backed away. "Groo left something behind and I don't know how to explain this but I..."
He could hear her heart beating like crazy she was so nervous. He wanted to calm her down but then he heard another heart beat, a little heartbeat. He looked at her shocked. He understood.
"Angel I'm..."
"Pregnant." He finished the sentence.
***
TBC
Hi ppl,
This fic was inspired by the awful way (in my opinion) the writes wrote in CC pregnancy. I thought to myself, what if it could have played out differently. And of course I had to put in some crossover, cause I love them so (if you want to know what I'm talking about check out another fic of mine "reunion time"). So hope you like it and for me to know you have to review, so please review and let me know what you think.
Thanks Nikka.
Title: A new beginning
Author: Nikka
Rating: General (basically if you're old enough to watch Angel you can read this fanfic).
Disclaimer: Angel & Buffy's characters are not my creation (wish they were) they belong to Joss Wehdon and David Greenwalt. Other characters that are not familiar from the show do belong to me.
Spoilers: Angel season 4, Buffy season 7.
Summary: Cordy is back form the higher plane and she has some news for the gang, news that will lead the Scoobies to L.A.
Time line: Well I played with the time line on this fic, especially on Buffy. On Angel it's right after "the house always wins" right after she returns but from that point on I changed most of the plot. No beast, no "spin the bottle".
On Buffy Willow is still in England with Giles, Spike is back with a soul but he's not crazy. And the First is not around, yet. The rest is the same.
Disturbion: Heree and you can post it at any site just let me know, so I can see my pride and joy for myself.
Author notes: Hi everyone, **English is not my native tongue** so you may find some spelling & grammar mistakes, although I have someone who re-proofs the story for me. You're more than welcome to let me know about them but remember you may find them while you read the story. Have fun.
Status: Not finished.
A special thank you to Sarah for reproofing my story. As of that the upload of the chapters may take longer.
Feedback: I love love love reviews and I'll be sure to mention it at the end of every chapter.
A skinny beautiful girl came down the big staircase. She looked tired. She walked up to the center of the room where two man set on a rounded couch. "Hey." She greeted them and they both stood up. "Relax its just me, she's still upstairs." The two men sighed.
"Fred How is she?" One of the men asked her.
"The same Angel. Still looking around looking alarmed and mystified. I hope Lorne comes back soon. "Gunn." Fred turned to him.
"Yeah baby." He replied with a smile.
"When did he say he's coming back?"
"He didn't. He said he doesn't think it'll take long but who knows..."
As he finished his sentence a green demon walked in to the hotel holding a small bottle in his hand waving it up in the air. "I got it." He cried out in a cheerful tone.
Angel walked up to him. "So this is it. This will restore her memory?"
"According to my source Muffin, this should do the trick."
"She has to drink this?" Angel looked at the bottle and the green liquid inside it in disgust.
"Yes. And I think considering her lack of memory that you three should give it to her, I think she'll freak if she'll see me." Lorne had a good point.
"Okay, lets go." Angel headed for the stairs.
"Will we know instantly?" Fred asked.
"You should." Lorne replied. She joined Gunn and Angel upstairs.
***
He knocked on her door. "Yes?" he heard her voice coming from the other side of the door.
"Cordelia its us can we come in?" There was no reply instead he heard footsteps and then the door was opened. She was still wearing her white dress and she looked angry and confused.
"I'm glad you're here I have some questions." Angel could see she was holding photos in her hand. One of them was of Connor.
"I think I have all your answers." Angel said and showed her the bottle.
"What is it?" She looked at it in hesitation.
"Its something that would bring back your memory." Angel didn't want to mention the word potion, fearing it would arise even more question.
"Describe something, because it doesn't seem like any kind of medicine I know." Cordelia stared at the bottle in doubt.
"It's hard to explain but I promise you it won't hurt you. You just have to drink this and everything will be alright." He smiled at her hoping it will help.
"How do I know you won't drug me and do stuff to me." Cordelia still wasn't convinced.
"Cordy." He handed Fred the bottle and held her hand. She didn't back away. "You came to me, not the other way around. You looked at the pictures, you know I'm your friend, we all are." Fred and Gunn smiled. "Now. You look at those photos and tell me if you trust me, look inside your heart."
Cordelia looked at the photo she was holding, a photo of a baby and him, and the man who called himself Angel, standing behind her looking at the baby smiling. They looked happy. They looked like a family. "I trust you." She said. "Hand me that bottle."
Angel took the bottle from Fred and handed it to Cordelia. She opened it and closed her eyes and in one big sip she drank it all. She opened her eyes. The room was spinning. She held to the lintel of the door. Fred, Gunn and Angel backed away a few inches giving her room. But Angel was on standby to catch her if he had to. She looked up, images flashing in front of her, Snapshots of her life, of the past three months. She took a few steps out of the room and leaned against the wall in the corridor.
"Cordy?" Angel was worried.
She heard his voice and looked towards him, but only saw images. "Angel." She whispered.
"She remembers." He smiled. "Cordy do you know who you are? Where you are?"
The images stopped. She looked at Angel. She remembered it all. "Oh god." She said.
"What is it Cor? Do you remember us?" She looked at Angel.
"Oh god Angel. I can't." She said and pushed him away running down the corridor.
"What?" Angel looked at Fred and Gunn confused. "What just happen here?" He asked the two who looked even more confused. "I'm going after her."
***
Cordelia ran down the stairs and towards the exit. She didn't even notice Lorne coming from the kitchen and bumped into him. "Sorry Lorne." She said and tried to rush out but he stopped her.
"Princess you remember, I knew the potion would..."
"Lorne, I have to go. Don't let him follow me." She said and ran out.
"What? Princess? Who's he?" And just then Angel came rushing down the stairs.
"Lorne did you see Cordelia?" Angel asked in panic.
"Yeah, but she asked..."
"Where did she go? Did she say anything?"
"She asked me not to let you follow her." Lorne replied.
"She what?" Angel was confused. "I guess the potion backfired." Angel came to his own conclusion.
"No cinnamon buns, the potion worked just fine." Lorne disagreed with Angel's conclusion.
"How can you say that didn't you see her reaction?" Angel was angry. He wasn't really sure at whom.
"Its not the potion that made her run off, it's the memories. All that has happened to her in the past 3 months including her previous life came rushing in, and I guess it was to much to observe all at once." Lorne explained. Just then Gunn and Fred came rushing down the stairs. They stopped when they saw Angel standing in the lobby.
"So what now, how will we find her? Do you think she'll go to her apartment?" Angel asked but no one seemed to have an answer. "Because she doesn't know it was rented to someone else." Angel was desperate. "We need to fine her. Gunn you and Fred check the..."
"Hold on cowboy." Lorne stopped the search party before it even started. "You heard what she said, she doesn't want to be found."
"Lorne, she's confused and alone she doesn't know what she wants." Angel was starting to lose his patience.
"I don't think so big guy, I think..."
"Then I guess it's a good thing I didn't ask for your opinion." Angel snapped at him.
"Fine, if you want do it like this go ahead I won't stop you. But don't come crying to me when it blows up in your face." A bit offended Lorne walked away.
"Okay guys, this is what we'll do..."
***
She walked the streets looking at all the people around her. The world hasn't changed much. Except for the shoes, they were different, at least to her observing eye. She stopped in front of a store. She looked inside. It was still open, so she walked in.
"Hello may I help you?" The sales woman asked her.
"No thank you." Cordy brushed her off and headed for the dressing rooms.
"Excuse me how many items? Another sales woman stopped her at the entrance to the dressing rooms.
"Sorry?" Cordy was focused.
"Items? How many would you like to try on?"
Cordelia looked at her hands and noticed she wasn't carrying any. She turned around grabbed a red dress from the hanger and headed back to the dressing room.
"Oh we have it in black also if you prefer..." The sales woman from before stopped her.
"Its okay, I'm a red kind of girl." She turned to the other sales woman. "One item." The woman gave her a tag and Cordy went inside. "She found a free booth and walked in locking the door behind her. She stared at the mirror. She looked the same way she remembered. Her hair was a bit longer. "I guess your hair does grow on a higher plane." She took a good look in the mirror. She took off the white dress and stood in front of the mirror wearing nothing but her lingerie. She rubbed her tummy. She had a tiny belly. "God, how will I tell Angel?"
"Miss are you alright in there?" She heard the sales woman call out to her.
"Yes, thank you." She put the white dress on and looked in the mirror again. "It doesn't show yet, not underneath this dress. I guess he hadn't found out yet.
***
"She's not in her old apartment. I asked the tenant and he said no young blond girl stopped by, although on the looks of him he was sure hopping she would." Fred filled them in.
"Nothing in the bus station either." Gunn informed them on his progress, or lack of it.
"Great, where can she be? She doesn't know any one else." Angel was frustrated. Why did she have to run off like this, why couldn't she have stayed and talk to him? God, sometimes she was a pain in the butt.
"How about Connor? Do you think she's with him?" Fred hypothesized.
"And where is there exactly. We don't even know where he's staying." Gunn reminded her.
"Actually I do." Angel corrected him.
"I've been following him, making sure his safe." Angel explained.
"After what he did to you man?" Gunn was surprised.
"You can't choose family. Besides he's just a kid and he made a mistake, haven't we all?"
"Sure, once I put my mom's white blouse in the washer with my red T-shirt and her blouse was ruined. That was a big mistake. But throwing your father into the ocean for 3 months is not. Its more than that." Fred was still angry with Connor. She felt betrayed. They all did.
The phone rang drawing them back to reality. Angel rushed over to the phone. "Hello?"
"Angel?" It was Cordelia.
"Cordy, where are you?"
"You're supposed to say Angel investigations... blah blah blah. 3 months I've been away and you're already neglecting the business." He loved hearing her joke like before.
"Cor where are you?" He was worried and right now he needed to see her.
"I'm fine Angel don't worry."
"But I do worry. Where are you?"
"I need to talk to Lorne, is he there?"
"Lorne? Cor I..."
"Angel. Not now. Right now I need Lorne. Can you put him on?" He was angry all right, but what could he do. Arguing with her will get him nowhere. He had to play along.
"Lorne..." He yelled out. "Fred go get Lorne." He ordered. She ran up the stairs.
"Angel?" He heard her voice from the other side of the line.
"I'm here."
"I'm sorry I ran off like I did, but there are things that..."
"That what Cordy? You can tell me anything."
"I know and I will. Just not now."
"What is it you meany?" Lorne came down the stairs.
"Its Cordy she wants to speak to you." Angel handed him the phone.
"To me?" Lorne was surprised. He took the phone. "Hey sugar, where are you?"
"Lorne can you read people threw phones?"
"What gorgeous?" He didn't understand her question.
"If I sing can you read me?" She explained.
"Sugar pie wherever this question is leading towards, I don't want to be a part of it."
"Lorne, I just need you..."
"To do your job for you. And to that I say no way. If you need to tell someone something do it yourself I'm no messenger boy." He knew what she wanted from him, he felt it.
"Okay, give me Angel." She knew he wouldn't budge.
"Sure thing princess." Lorne handed the phone to Angel.
"Hey Cor."
"Hey. We need to talk, can you meet me where we were supposed to have met. Before I left." She offered.
"No. Bad memories." He replied. She didn't know about him and Connor.
"Okay then meet me at the promenade, you know the one."
"Sure, 15 minutes?" he said anxiously.
"Yeah 15 minutes." She hung up.
"So where is she?" Fred was anxious to know.
"I'm going to meet her. She wants to talk." Angel grabbed his jacket.
"Angel is she okay?" Gunn asked concerned.
"I don't know yet. I'll call you when I do." He took the car keys and walked out.
***
She walked across the promenade. **What will I say to him? How can I explain this? Maybe it was a bad idea, maybe I should just...** her thoughts were cut off by a feel, she felt him near by. She turned and saw him walking towards her smiling.
She looked like a vision to him. She stood there all dressed in white. She was so beautiful. He started walking towards her, his heart racing.
She stood there not able to move. He was getting closer and she could barely breath.
He felt like it was the first time they've met in 3 months. This time it was she. She remembered it all. He stopped right in front of her.
"I'm glad you could come." I'm so lying; I wish I could just run off again. She said to him.
"Me too." He replied. "Want to sit down." He offered pointing at a bench beside them.
"Sure." **Thank god I thought I might pass out.**
"You gave us quite a scare." He sat down. She sat beside him.
"I know, I'm sorry. It was just too much to take in.
"So you remember everything?" Angel wanted to make sure she was her old self again.
"Everything. Even the part that I didn't remember anything I remember." She smiled.
"Where were you Cordy? Were you happy? What did you do there?" The questions came pouring out.
"Hold on soldier boy." She calmed him down, I'll tell you everything." She took a big breath. "I was on some higher plane, I was okay, and I mean I wasn't sad or anything but mostly I was as bored as hell."
"You were?" Angel was surprised. He thought being a higher being meant more action.
"Yeah, mostly I watched. From time to time I stepped in, but mostly watched." She explained.
"Did you watch over us?" He knew she did.
"Yeah, but I saw other stuff to."
"Like what?" He was curious.
"Like the life of Angelus. Beginning to end."
"Angelus? Why would you want to...?"
"I wanted to know. So they let me. The thing is they didn't just show me they let me live it." Her words burned him. "I felt his victims, I felt the joy and fun he got out of killing. I saw and felt every death, every massacre." Angel didn't like the way this conversation was heading. "It was hard at first thinking of the man you lo..." She stopped herself. "Thinking of you like this. I met Angelus before, but this was beyond my wildest nightmares. It was in living colors."
Angel lowered his head not able to face her. She reached out and touched his chin raising his head.
"The thing is, that after awhile I realized I was looking at a monster, a monster that doesn't exists anymore. He's not you Angel, he never will be." He smiled. "I was able to separate the man from the beast. And I'm okay. So don't feel shame or guilt. I chose to see, I chose to learn and I have. I learned that you are nothing like Angelus. And I learned that the good in you far outweighs the bad I've seen."
He loved her so much and knowing she saw it all and accepted him, for who he was felt right, felt complete.
"You wanted to tell me something the night we met. What was it?" He couldn't help himself he needed to know.
"Groo left Angel. That day I came home and he said he was leaving. He said my heart belongs to another and that I don't really love him."
"Who do you love?" He was on the edge of his seat.
"According to Groo... you Angel. He said I loved you." A huge smile spread across his face, but still he wanted to hear her say it, admit it. Not to hear Groosalug's opinion, as true as it was. "At first I didn't believe him, I didn't let myself believe. It wasn't until I got a vision of myself that I realized the truth." She took his hand. "Angel I love you, I always have. I was just too afraid to admit; to afraid it will ruin our friendship. I don't how you feel but..."
"Shhhh." He put his finger on her lips. "Why don't I show you how I feel." He leaned down and kissed her softly. She kissed him back. She wished it could end like this, she wished she didn't have to keep going, but she knew she had to. She pulled away. "Cordy is something wrong?" Angel was confused. He thought this is what she wanted.
"I have to tell you the rest." She explained.
"You can tell me about your adventures later, we have all the time in the world." H smiled and leaned down to kiss her again, but she backed away.
"No we don't. Let me finish." She insisted and he backed away. "Groo left something behind and I don't know how to explain this but I..."
He could hear her heart beating like crazy she was so nervous. He wanted to calm her down but then he heard another heart beat, a little heartbeat. He looked at her shocked. He understood.
"Angel I'm..."
"Pregnant." He finished the sentence.
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TBC
Hi ppl,
This fic was inspired by the awful way (in my opinion) the writes wrote in CC pregnancy. I thought to myself, what if it could have played out differently. And of course I had to put in some crossover, cause I love them so (if you want to know what I'm talking about check out another fic of mine "reunion time"). So hope you like it and for me to know you have to review, so please review and let me know what you think.
Thanks Nikka.