You know that moment between being asleep, and awake? The one where you feel like you're suspended in time? You have no concept of time, and you feel nothing, you can't move, you can't think, you're just there? That's what dying feels like.

How do I know you ask? Because I have died, multiple times, but this death, is the one I remember. This is the death I was not reincarnated into a new life from. I simply died. Well maybe not simply because I still remember the moments before it. I remember the feel of dying, but you know what I remember the most? Not the pain of the death itself. Oh no, that has nothing on the pain I experienced right before death claimed me.

What pain is that you ask? The pain of knowing I was leaving behind my world, the center of my universe, my heart, my soulmate to live this life alone. We've had our future together stolen away from us before, but this time was supposed to be different. This time we were supposed to have the life and future that had been stolen from us in the past. We knew what our future was supposed to be. We were supposed to become king and queen of our world. To bring peace and prosperity to the world. We were supposed to have at least one daughter together. Although we both hoped for more, we were still excited for the prospect of just one. We weren't supposed to be denied that life this time, but now we were.

Or more to the point, she was. She would be left alone. Without me, without our daughter. Without the life we were supposed to have together. It was all going to be gone. How I wished it wasn't going to be true, but nothing I could do could prevent it. Part of me hoped that one day she would heal from the loss she was about to experience, and find love again, but part of me. The selfish part hoped she would only ever love me, and would hold onto that love for the rest of her life so that when we found each other again, in the next life, she would know me, and love me again as she did this time, and every time before. Selfish I know, but I guess in death you're allowed to be a little selfish.

I remember telling the one that killed me that she wouldn't win. That this world was protected by the strongest warrior ever, any where. In my heart I knew my Usako would go on to protect this world that we love so much, even without me by her side. She wouldn't give up, no matter what. It crushed me to know I wouldn't be with her while she did. I had to hope I would at least be there with her in spirit.

I wish I could say I was, but to tell you the truth, I can't say that because I can't remember. All I remember was empty space, and no concept of time. Oh and darkness. That darkness was cold, and lonely. So very lonely. Especially without my light, my love, my joy, my Usako. If I thought or dreamed of anything I couldn't tell you that either as I don't remember. I didn't feel either. It was just nothing. Just darkness.

I couldn't tell you how much time passed while suspended in death. I couldn't tell you if anyone else was there with me either. Maybe there was, and I didn't know it. Maybe there wasn't, and I didn't know that either. I'm sounding a bit like a broken record, I'm sure. Sorry about that.

All I can tell you is that at some point in that darkness a pink light flared, along with a golden light. A golden light I recognized as it was the same golden light of the crystal that was removed from me when I died, and found myself suspended in this darkness. When that golden crystal returned to my body, I felt alive again. Well I was so that explained that. My first thought was the same as my last. Usako. My Usako. She had remained strong, and defeated the enemy, even without me by her side.

The pink light turned into a little girl with pink hair. My first thought was she was ChibiUsa, but quickly dismissed that thought. She looked nothing like ChibiUsa or Usagi. Her buns were also in the shape of hearts. Somehow I knew this little girl would take me to my Usako so I took the light girl into my arms, and she did exactly as I knew she would. She took me right to my Usako.

My first glimpse of Usagi made my heart stop for a moment. Her back was to me, and she had the most beautiful white wings on her back. It barely registered that she was naked. When she turned to me, my breath caught, and I had to choke back tears. Her beautiful blue eyes, filled with shock, happiness, and some sadness connected with mine. I was lost. Nothing else mattered. I couldn't tell you what I said, but I know I heard her wonderful voice say my name then she was in my arms. Her body shook from the force of her emotions. There was no greater moment to be alive than that one.