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6. Realizations ((Yu Yu Hakusho))
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Kagome was dazed. She forgot where she was, and what she was doing there. All she felt were strong arms encircled around her waist, hugging her tight as if afraid that she would leave. She looked up to Inuyasha confused, his eyes were closed and he continued to hug her tightly. The rain continued to pour down on their heads, but both didn't seem to notice. She merely stood there with Inuyasha, entwined in his arms.
"....I-Inuyasha..." She said stammering, as she tried to get out of his hold after a few minutes.
He remained silent, tightening his grip on the girl situated in front of him. 'It really has been hell without you.' He thought, loosening his grip as Kagome started wriggling under his touch.
"Are you alright...?" He asked, looking deep into her eyes.
"Yeah...I'm fine." She said, still confused, at his actions. 'Did he actually miss me....?'
"Look," She said, stepping away from him, "I just came back to get my bag....I decided to go back home."
'Again?' Inuyasha thought grimly. "And how long are you leaving us this---"
"I'm leaving for good." She said quietly, avoiding the look in his eyes.
Inuyasha opened his mouth to protest but Kagome laid a finger to his lips to stop him.
"......Listen, we both know that you can find someone else to find the Shikon shards. I'm not the only one that can sense them." She took in a shaky breath and closed her eyes, "I'd be easier.....You wouldn't have to worry about protecting me and—"
"Stop." Inuyasha said forcefully, gently cupping her face in his hands.
"You're not doing this again." He said holding in his temper.
Kagome raised a brow at him in question. "I can't stay---"
"Keh. Yes you can. You know it, wench. You just don't want too."
"It's not that I don't like it here......I love it here. That's why I didn't leave so quick.......I missed this place so much."
Inuyasha sneered at her. "Then why are you so damn excited to leave us?!" He said angrily.
Kagome glared at him. 'One month and the jerk hasn't changed at all.'
"KAGOMEEE!!!"
Both of them turned to the sound, as a little fox cub ran out of the bush with tears in his eyes. Shippo ran to Kagome as fast as he could and jumped onto her giving her a hug.
"I thought I'd never see you again!!" He said crying on her sleeve. Kagome froze for a minute and smiled.
"....Don't worry Shippo..." She said, trying to comfort him, as he continued to weep.
Sango was the second to run out to them. She as well had tears in her eyes and stopped when she saw Kagome. Sango's face was extremely pale, and her eyes were tired. It seemed as if she were crying for days. The light bags under her eyes showed the lack of sleep Sango had.
'.......Is she sad because I left too?'
"Hi Sango!" She said, trying to be cheerful.
"Kagome!" She said running to hug her as well. "You left me here for a month!" She said, letting her tears fall from her eyes.
Kagome looked over to at Miroku and Inuyasha. They didn't look any better than Sango and Shippo either.
"Shippo, Sango, Miroku, can you guys give me and Kagome a little time alone?" Inuyasha said quietly rather rudely.
They all nodded and headed back to the hut. Shippo turned to Kagome, "Will you stay with us?"
Kagome was silent.
".....I'll see you in the hut Shippo."
'I don't know how long I'll stay here....' She thought uncertain.
"Kagome." He said, motioning towards her. She turned her head not wanting to face him.
"Here." She said, pulling out her hand with the bottle of shards in it. "Take it. I won't be needing it if I won't be coming back."
"I've told you, I don't CARE about the shards. Why can't you understand that?! We want you to stay here!!"
"What do mean you don't care about the shards?! All you want to do is to become a full fledged demon; am I right?!"
Inuyasha froze. He wasn't expecting such an answer. '....I don't that for sure anymore Kagome....' He thought, falling into a quiet state.
Kagome continued to glare at him not knowing what he was thinking.
"....Kagome... I....I don't know if I want to be a demon ...anymore...."
"Yeah, right. Even if you don't, in the end your just gonna choose to go to hell with your beloved Kikyo." She countered, with a mix of anger and sadness in her voice. 'I'm sick of this...I need to get this all out...'
"....Kagome....."
"Do you have any idea how hard it is to come here every single day?! Missing out on my teenage life, missing school, being away from my family?" She looked down at her feet.
".....But that isn't the reason I want to leave. I used to love coming here. But lately....I just can't ignore the fact that in the end you're going to be taken away from me either way."
"...I've told you....I have an obligation to Kikyo."
"Fine. Go do whatever you want to do." She said harshly, hurting Inuyasha more then she thought she did. "I'll stay. But only for the others sake."
She turned her head to the left, ready to leave him, when he grabbed her arm.
Kagome turned her head trying to pull out of his grasp. "Let go of me."
'Tell her. Tell her now. Tell her......You love her.' His mind chided him. 'Who will you choose? Her or Kikyo?' Inuyasha moved his mouth but no words came out. He was still unsure of the answer. But by that time it was too late. She pulled out of his grip and strode to the hut.
'Who does he think he is, yelling at me like that?!' She thought, anger welling up in her face. 'To think I was even happy seeing him today when I came back....He's such a jerk.'
She walked into the hut, everyone was in there, quiet as could be. Even Shippo was quiet. And that wasn't a good sign.
Kagome didn't pay much attention to it though, and just sat down near the left wall of the hut.
"K-Kagome?" Miroku asked, looking at her.
"I'm staying. I don't know for how long but I am." She answered in a less then jolly tone. She looked around, and grabbed her arrows clutching them tight.
"Are you alright Kagome?" Sango asked, worrying about her friend.
Kagome didn't say a word, but nodded a yes.
'I've made a decision......I know Inuyasha will be taken from me.....Somehow...' She thought sadly, 'I want him happy.....So I'll do all that I can to get him happy....even if it's with Kikyo...'
She leaned back onto the wall and well into a deep sleep.
"Psst. Inuyasha!!" Miroku said, tapping him on the shoulder at the break of dawn.
"What?" He replied annoyed.
"I was just wondering if you knew why Kagome was acting....all....."
"Feh. I don't know." He lied.
"But-"
"If I said I don't know, I don't know. So leave me alone Miroku." His eyes darted over to Kagome's sleeping form. Kagome was leaning onto the wall with her arrows close beside her. His eyes widened when they reminded him of a certain someone.
Flashback
"Why do you always have to sleep with those arrows next to you Kikyo?" Inuyasha asked, looking at her oddly. "You know I'll protect you. I won't let any harm come to you."
The priestess lowered her eyes. "It's best to have my own protection. I'll never know if you're not there to save me. I can't count on you all the time. Anyway, I like having my arrows here just in case we're under attack.
Inuyasha nodded, still not sure why she had the arrows next to her. '...I won't let anything happen to her.......She knows I'd never let anyone hurt her...Why would she need those flimsy arrows...?'
End Flashback
Inuyasha sighed. Before Kagome was attacked, she never slept with her arrows like that. She always trusted him to protect her. He remembered even at the start of their journeys, she still didn't carry a bow and arrow sleeping even though she didn't know the half-demon she was with. She'd look up to the tree he was sleeping in, smile then make camp right under him.
'She actually felt safe around me.....Even from the start....Kikyo...she didn't....' He thought.
'But why does she have them next to her now?' He thought grimly, hoping she still felt safe enough around him.
Kagome yawned, and her eyes opened. She stretched her arms up high. While stretching, she revealed some old scars, scars that she received from.......
Inuyasha sighed. 'Kikyo....did you really do this...?.....If you did...Why...?'
Kagome looked over, feeling Inuyasha's gaze on her. "What?" She answered, in a low tone.
Inuyasha looked back at the door. "It's nothing." He got up and walked out the door, heading outside. "Wake up Sango and Shippo. We've gotta get going already."
"Inuyasssshhhaaaaaaaa........." Came a whiny voice, "Why so early todayyyyy...?" The fox cub began yawning and his face was pale and tired.
Inuyasha didn't answer.
'He's not answering...?' Shippo thought, looking up at the half demon oddly, 'That can't be good...'
Sango and Miroku were lagging behind, unbeknownst to Inuyasha and Kagome that is.
"So you say that Inuyasha doesn't know why Kagome's acting like this?" Sango whispered to Miroku.
"...I'm sure he was lying. He just....He's had a tough month."
"We all have." Sango replied, holding on to her weapon.
"Well, he's had a tougher one don't you think? The two women he cares about most are at each other's necks." He replied smirking a bit, "And ....I don't exactly think Kagome's the same anymore...."
"Huh?"
"I don't know...Maybe its just me. She just doesn't seem like the Kagome before this whole incident happened."
"Maybe. But I'm glad she's back with us."
Miroku shrugged. "Well....yeah, I am too, just...be ready if she plans on leaving us again."
"What?"
He shook his head. "Nothing."
'So Miroku's noticed Kagome's behavior too...' Inuyasha thought. With his ears, he heard their conversation loud and clear. He looked over to Kagome who was far ahead of him.
She was quiet, even Shippo wasn't close to her. Her scent changed too. It wasn't a very happy one. It seemed like a sad, angry one. She turned around, much to Inuyasha's surprised and looked at all of them.
"I'll be leaving for my world later today if that's ok with you. I'll be back tomorrow."
"Why?" Inuyasha asked as Sango and Miroku joined with him.
"I have something to do."
"...What's that...?" Sango asked, afraid of the answer.
"Well, I'm meeting at boy at the movies today."
Miroku raised a brow. "Who—"
"That boy I told you that brings me gifts all the time? We've been going out the past month."
"Wh-What?! Why are you going out with him?!?!!?" Inuyasha yelled, feeling the jealousy creep up his spine.
Kagome didn't even answer him, she just kept walking. "Whether you allow me to go back to my world isn't the question. I'm going back, regardless of what you say."
Sango grabbed on to Miroku's shoulders, afraid of Kagome's reaction. 'What....What's the matter with her...?'
"We all have our own lives right?"
"WHO SAID YOU COULD GO WITH HIM KAGOME?!" Inuyasha said threateningly walking towards Kagome. His eyes were blazing with anger and determination, he had a look on his face that could scare even the strongest demons away.
But she didn't even flinch. "I said I'm going with him." She answered, staring straight into his eyes.
"You can't. I'm not letting you."
"You can't stop me." She said turning around. He grabbed her hand.
"Kagome!"
"Inuyasha, let go of me! You have obligations to make to Kikyo! Don't you?! So go to her! I have my own life! I don't care anymore." She said, lowering her face so no one would see her, "I can't have you. Hojo actually respects me for who I am, not for who I was reincarnated from. And I'm going back to him."
He tightened his hold on her. "Kagome.....You can't go to him....."
"Why's that?"
"Because I....I....."
She looked up to him, a tear gliding off her eye. "I don't love you." She said lying, "Go to Kikyo....She'll love you back..."
Sango and Miroku gasped. 'What?!'
Inuyasha took a step back. 'Kagome...?'
"I...." She began to stutter. "I love Hojo."
Sango was shocked. 'She....She doesn't love Inuyasha?'
'So I was right...She did like Hojo...' Miroku thought to himself, remembering his conversation with Inuyasha yesterday. 'But even though she'd said it....I don't know if its true...'
Inuyasha stared at Kagome in shock, not able to respond, his body was shaking. Kagome couldn't even look at him.
'...I want you happy Inuyasha. I know if you're not worrying about me you can be happy with Kikyo....You won't have to second guess yourself about being with Kikyo....And Even though I don't really love Hojo. I guess if I give him a chance....I can be happy with him......But even if I don't....at least you're happy...and that's all I want.'
She could feel her heart pounding, her mind was screaming for her to tell Inuyasha how she felt.
"Ka....Kagome?" Shippo asked, walking up to her.
"I'm gonna go to back to my time. I don't think I'm welcome here right now." She turned around, ready to leave.
And this time....No one stopped her. There wasn't even a goodbye. It was just her, and the sound of her footsteps away from Inuyasha. Away from the one she loved.
It had now been hours since she left, and Inuyasha and the others were still silent.
"...Inuyasha....Are you going after her?" Sango asked putting her hand on the half-demon. He flinched pulling away from her.
"Don't touch me." He said menacingly, with a growl in his voice. Sango stepped back. This was no time to mess with Inuyasha.
"...Inuyasha..." Miroku said, "Kagome didn't seem—"
He got up, his eyes were covered by his bangs and his arms were to his side. "I need some time alone." The tone of his voice was threatening, as if his companions could feel the emotions spewing out of his voice.
"Inuyasha—"
"What the hell do you want from me?!" He yelled, glaring at all his companions. "Leave me alone! If you want Kagome back, go to the well yourself!"
"You know we can't pass through."
"Well then that's your problem isn't it?!" He snapped, glaring at them. "Feh. I'm getting out of here."
"Inuyasha wait!!"
Kagome climbed out of the well, her eyes stinging with tears. 'I'm sorry Inuyasha...I just want you happy...'
She headed out of the well, and rushed into her room. Plopping her bag down, she sat on her bed. 'I wonder what he's doing now...?'
Flashback
He tightened his hold on her. "Kagome.....You can't go to him....."
"Why's that?"
"Because I....I....."
End Flashback
"What was he going to say...?" She thought out loud, lying on her bed. She sighed, as another tear fell out of her eye. "Just be happy Inuyasha..."
"DAMN IT!!!" Inuyasha yelled, slamming his fist into a tree breaking its bark.
'I don't love you...' Those words kept ringing in his head.
"Keh." He said out loud, "WHAT DO I CARE?!" He yelled out into the forest, before falling down on his knees.
"Ka...Kagome..."
'...Heh.....It figures......Why'd.....Why'd she want a dirty half-breed like me anyway...?' He thought sadly, as his anger subsided into a sad, lonely feeling.
"How do you think he is?" Sango asked Miroku, watching him take a sip out of his tea.
"I don't know..." He replied. "He's not taking it very well..."
"Yeah.....But what I don't understand....I know Kagome loves him...Why'd she.....?"
Miroku shrugged. "I don't know what she had in mind when she said it. But knowing Kagome, she must think it's for the best. Maybe she thinks it'll make Inuyasha happy."
Sango lowered her eyes. "Telling him she didn't love him didn't make him happy....It's so obvious he loves her...."
"On the contrary, he loves Kikyo too. Kagome was probably trying to stay out of their way so Inuyasha wouldn't have to worry about her anymore. So he could be happy with Kikyo."
"...That's true..."
"We all know Kagome would never intentionally hurt someone unless she thought it would help them....That must've been the reason why she said that...." He said quietly, turning his head to the door.
"...Well whatever Kagome's trying to do....It didn't help the situation one bit...."
Shippo sniffled, looking up at them both. "Do you think we'll ever see Kagome and Inuyasha again?"
His question was followed by a long silence. "We can only hope Shippo. Neither of them looked like they wanted to come back."
"The girl left for her time."
"She did, did she?"
The demon nodded. "That's what I've heard from her friends."
Kikyo smirked. "Do not underestimate her. She still loves him. She'll come back."
"No...change of plans? You still want me to kill her when she gets back?"
Kikyo shook her head. "I want it done RIGHT this time." She said glaring at him.
"It's not my fault that damn half-breed shows up every time I try to kill her."
"I'll fix that." She smirked.
"What like you did last time?" The demon answered sarcastically.
Kikyo sneered at him, pulling her arrows up as a warning. "What was that?"
"No-Nothing.."
Hours after the incident, it was already extremely dark outside, and Kagome and Hojo just finished watching a movie.
"So Kagome, how'd you like that movie? It was funny wasn't it?"
She smiled at him trying to laugh. "Yes, it was."
"It's been such a great month, I mean you haven't gotten sick much! I think you're getting better."
She nodded. "I think I am getting better." She smiled.
It had been hours since she left the feudal era and she couldn't stop thinking about Inuyasha.
'You have Hojo now. Just stop it Kagome.' She told herself. 'You did what was best...At least you know Inuyasha....is happier.'
She stopped in her heels. "Or is he..?"
"Kagome? Are you alright? Who are you talking about?" Hojo asked, waving a hand in front of her face.
She blinked and looked up to him. "Oh...Nothing, I was just thinking about a friend."
'He has to be happy.....Now he doesn't have to worry....Right...?'
"Really?" Hojo said, pouting a bit, wondering if it was a guy friend or a girl friend.
Kagome nodded.
"So when was the last time you saw this friend? Maybe we can all meet!"
"....I don't know...."
'Why am I thinking about him so much....?' She thought, she put her hands into her pocket and felt a little jar. 'The jewel shards......That's right....He never took them....' Her eyes began to water once again.
'I .....I never knew I'd miss him this much.'
"Hojo? I'm going to head home if that's alright with you...?"
"Are you getting one of those nasty headaches again? I brought some aspirin." He said, taking out a huge bag of medicine.
"No its fine, thank you though."
"Do you want me to walk you home?"
"It's alright, I'm sure I can manage." She said, running out of the mall leaving the boy confused.
She ran outside, sighing. Normally she wouldn't go home alone in the dark like this without a companion, but she didn't want Hojo to get mixed up in her problems. The streets were empty, and it was cold outside. She didn't have a sweater or coat to put on so she bore with the weather. Home was a long way off. But it didn't seem to bother her at all.
"Why can't I just forget about him?" She said outwardly. 'What is it about him that I can't forget...? I have to be with Hojo now...He's not that bad a guy even....He's caring...Polite....'
'I don't love you.' Her words rung through her head. 'It was for the best......If we both can't be happy then one of us should be happy.....And I want Inuyasha to be the one.'
After a long walk, she finally reached home and opened the door.
'....Should I at least tell Inuyasha how I felt...? Or stay with Hojo for good and never go back? If I decide to stay with Hojo....I won't know if there's a way back to Inuyasha....I better think this one out...'
Just then, the phone rung.
"...Hello?"
"Hello Kagome? It's Hojo."
"Oh hey! How are you?"
"I'm fine...I just wanted to call to see if you got home alright and to ask you a question..."
'Stay with Hojo....Or tell Inuyasha how I feel....What should I--'
She was cut off by this thoughts when he continued to talk.
"Uhm....Well you see this past month of us going out and stuff....I've really enjoyed it. You're really a wonderful girl Kagome. And since we got this far....I was just wondering well.....uhm.....We should get together...I promise I'll never hurt you....Kagome...? Will you be my....girlfriend...?"
End of Chapter 8! Nice long one...Chapter 9 up soon! Very soon, since its summer vacation! I just updated 3 stories! WHEW! Yes, my two Yu Yu Hakusho ones, this, and now I'm gonna update Troubles in the Future! YAY!!!! Please review!!!
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