I read a lot of Kag/Sessh. and decided to do one of my own. Inu/ Kag Fans should NOT read this; it will severely damage any and ALL thoughts of them getting together.
Don't hate me for my mind, though.
Reality Shows
Kagome sat behind the Bone Eater's well trying to sort out her feelings. One moment of peace was all she needed from the constant chaos of everyday life in sengoku jidai. This was her moment and she had to take it.
Her knees were scrunched up in her arms, allowing her head to rest atop them as she pondered. Her back leaned against the cold stones, slightly scratching her skin. The early morning sun created a beautiful scence before her eyes of fields, valleys, and forests thickly supplied with trees.
I'm tired of seeing him always go back to her. Why can't I ever measure up? Tears formed in her eyes at the thought. I hate feeling weak. Why can't I just stop loving him altogether? The drops began to flow, making their wet path slowly down her cheeks that she couldn't seem to stop. It would make things easier for everyone. I know he'll choose Kikyou over me any day. I'm just her reincarnation, right? I'll never be as good as her. Her silent tears grew to whimpering; even that she couldn't control. It seemed to get worse with each jabbing thought. I can't stay here forever! What happens when the shards are all found, huh?! Who gets the wish? The whimpers became sobs and the sobs turned into all-out bawling. I can't take this anymore! I want to find out what happens in the end!
"…Kagome?" a hesitant, but too familiar voice called out.
Oh, no. Not him. I can't face him now. Standing as quickly as possible, Kagome shot off tear-blinded, barely catching hold of her feet when she stumbled. Some place he won't follow.
"Kagome! Get back here!" Footsteps raced behind her.
No. I won't quit. Her footsteps quickened. The forest trees loomed in front of her, and she barely missed colliding with one.
Kagome didn't even notice when the yelling and footsteps ceased. It didn't matter; she just had to get away. Her feet carried her deep into the forest where light seemed to dwindle into a mere ray in a spot here and there.
It seemed as though hours had passed before she quit running and looked about her. She stood in a small clearing surrounded by trees. Turning this way and that, she tried to peer between the branches, but saw nothing. All sorts of sounds filled her ears, frightening her, but she didn't know where to turn. Her imaginings made the place seem darker and more menacing than before.
"Inuyasha," she whispered.
What have I gotten myself into? Dropping to her knees, she began to weep for all things lost.
Sesshoumaru stood on a hill surveying the western lands—his lands. The wind picked up, blowing his clothes about him and making his hair whipping at his face, sending different smells to him. Familiar scents entered his nose, but one caught his attention specifically. Her. What is she doing here? And on my lands, no less.
He jumped down and began to run past trees blurred by his speed, following the scent on the wind. It took him through fields and plains, but eventually led into a forest. Coming upon a clearing, Sesshoumaru could hear the sounds of incredible weeping—as if one had broken their heart—and smell the salt in the air. Why does she cry? Cool manner in place, he hid, masking his sent and watched her from the shadows.
Her hair fell about her, an ebony waterfall, covering her face. Wet drops spotted her clothing and some fell on her hands that were placed on her knees. Not for the first time since he had seen her, he noticed how innocent and vulnerable she looked ……and beautiful.
Kagome could feel the power radiating off of him in waves, giving him away. So strong was his aura it made her body want to shrivel up to hide. Her body stiffened and she sat up straight.
Taking a deep breath to try and calm her nerves, she called out to him. "I know you're here, Sesshoumaru, so you can come out now."
She knew. How could she? She's never been able to before. Sesshoumaru didn't let his agitation show on his face, but kept the stone mask he had developed over the years on when he stepped into her view. She didn't even look up.
"What are you doing on my lands, wench?"
Kagome sat there on her knees in the dirt with her head bowed, whispering her reply. "Just go away."
"You dare to tell me to leave, girl?"
Continuing her observation of the ground she simply said back, "Hai."
Does she know what she's getting herself into? His eyes gazed at her in wonder, but never showed it.
She couldn't look at him. She knew she was facing death right now for what she just said to him. Kagome clasped her hands together to keep them from shaking. It's the only way to stop the pain.
Before she could react, Kagome was being held in the air by her neck. This is the end. Make it quick, please.
"I could kill you right now."
"Hai," she gasped out.
He looked her over, but showed no interest in what he might do. She wasn't going to fight for her life; that made the game of no interest to him. However, he would discover the source of this recklessness.
"Naze?" he finally asked. "Why do you search for death?"
She couldn't breathe. Air…… Need air… All she let out was a wheeze for his answer. Her eye-sight was vanishing fast into a world of darkness. The end? Her hopes were dashed as she was dropped to the ground, gasping for air.
"There is no satisfaction in killing one who is willing to die."
Kagome just stayed where she was not daring to look up for fear of giving herself a scare.
"Why not?" Her voice was barely audible even for his advanced youkai hearing.
He wanted to make her fear him. She felt no fear at that moment, but a deep sorrow. The influence of her sadness made him want to gag. Human emotions are so sickening.
"My victims scream for death once I fight them. It's the last precious sound of defeat that leaves their lips."
"I can scream," she forced out past the bile rising in her throat from his announcement. He just wants to scare me. It won't work. I'll do anything to die; even screaming for my murderer will suffice.
The corner of his mouth seemed to lift with a will of its own. She'll even sink so low as to scream for her death—how despicable. Let's just see how far she is willing to go to get what she wants. Grabbing her arm, Sesshoumaru pulled Kagome to her feet with ease.
Looking up, Kagome took in the golden orbs staring into her own eyes and got her first jolt of panic sweep through her. Do I really yearn for death by Sesshoumaru's hands? She craved to shake her head to clear it of that unasked-for thought. This is the only way, she tried to convince herself. I won't have courage enough to kill myself.
Sesshoumaru saw the emotions flicker beneath those blue eyes. She's not going to back down. He wanted to smile at the determination in her stiffly held body.
"And what of the type of scream I want?" he asked calmly. A thought crossed his mind and he decided to see what she would do as he raised his hand and caressed her cheek.
She flinched at the contact, suddenly fearful of what he was capable of doing to her at the moment. Kagome was entirely helpless; her arrows were at camp and Keade hadn't taught her all she needed to know about using her miko powers.
Keeping a straight face, she asked, "Which would you prefer? It must hurt your ears terribly to hear screaming." Her lips formed a bitter smile. "We both know how sensitive they are."
Sesshoumaru didn't like the smile that was pasted on her face. It was too much like his own for his comfort. She shouldn't be like me. No one should be like me. He wanted to make her feel—anything. Sesshoumaru thought of ways to make her feel something, but discarded them all one after the other.
I want to see her smile.
Unbidden that was, and his mind unguarded from it. Sometimes the truth can hurt, but this purely shocked him.
Forcing himself to remain erect and not shake his head, he latched on to the only thought that repeated itself in his mind over and over.
Kagome wasn't prepared for what happened next; first, she saw Sesshoumaru smirk and the next moment she was being carried over his shoulder as he flew. Her eyes were wide and staring at him, shock making her cheeks whiter.
Realization didn't strike her until the wind picked up and a small bug smacked into her nose, making her blink. Suddenly embarrassed she began to flail her arms and legs, trying to break free of his hold, but to no avail. Since that didn't work, she began to bang her fists as hard as she could against his back …a nice, lean back.
"Let me go, you big sleazebag! I demand you release me right now!"
She didn't realize how high they were. To her it felt like inches, but truly it was over 500 feet above the ground.
"Okay," he replied calmly. That will teach her not to hit me, he thought with a sardonic smirk.
She was falling. That was the first thing that crossed Kagome's thoughts. There was nothing she could do. The fall itself would most likely kill her before she even hit the ground. I'm finally free, she thought as she closed her eyes and smiled at the ground.
Translations:
Hai- yes
Naze- why
Youkai- demon
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That's it for now. The monsters that live under my bed are demanding attention so I have to scat. Hope Sesshy fans enjoyed.
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