To become a parent could be a decision made but you will be forever my first made decision, you my silver wind.

In this letter we'll tell you my sunshine.

The underlined words is the letter, the rest are thoughts where May tell us bits of what happened or cannot put it in paper.

May 1:

To my Zephyr: A hopeless letter for forgiveness

When you came to my life I admit that I was scared. I was just a young bubbly 17 years and it was unexpected and surprised me. But since then, I became a complete new person.

When I told him, we were alone in the big hall of a contest, he got scared too and left. I did not want to make him obliged if he was not ready, so I left him to decide.

I had taken my own decision until there. My family has always been the best, they accepted my decision and promised to help me with everything. But him, well... It was complicated. For a moment, I thought I would start this new adventure in life alone.

Even I felt a bit sad for awhile for your father. Please, I don't say this to make you resentful with him. He was scared too and I understood, and I hope someday you'll understand too.

It was about three months later, when I received a call. It was him.

"Ca-can we talk...?," He seemed nervous. I understood it clearly and I wanted to add that I was doing it well without his help. I heard somewhere that he was training more than he has done before as much as he got the 5 ribbons in a month.

It was a beautiful afternoon in Slateport, and he was there in the hill of a mountain training. He was there in his casual clothes. He was wearing the same colors as when we were teens. Those ugly aqua pants and a purple jacket. He was there commanding masquerain to create some differents figures in the sky. But suddenly, he stopped.

He noticed me getting closer, and gave masquerain a signal with his hand making click fingers and it started to create something new this time.

"Is that a rose?" I asked.

But I noticed something, this big rose was incomplete. It needed some adjustments to become a perfect silver rose drawing in the sky, if that was his intention.

And when he just looked at me and nodded. I knew exactly what to do and never felt so happy before.

"Beautifly, silver wind!" I smiled big and bright while I understood his message. His answer.

"We both together create things so beautiful like you can see in the sky now, May."

And then it happened. A soft but strong wind approached us. It was destiny or coincidence, I don't know. But such strong wind took gracefuly the silver rose made and crushed it in front our eyes. It was so funny how we ended being covered on silver dust. That made me sneeze a bit.

Drew quickly took his jacket off to put on my shoulders and in that moment, I saw him smiling at me and I knew about the decision he made.

"We're together in this new scenario and with this little boy, he added." He smirked with those shining emerald eyes.

"Zephyr, Drew." I wanna his name be Zephyr.

"Zephyr, eh? Well, that's a nice name May."

Sorry if all of this sounds cheesy,. But I wanna tell you a bit about your dad too. Drew and Me, May Mapple. We together create beautiful things. Like in those times we battle together. There is not a silver wind as strong as ours. Our combination always made a good impression. I miss those days of adrenaline and the million of combinations we and the coordinators in general could show to the world, Our creativity, our passion and our love for pokémon and for life.

We were known as the "Hoenn royalty duo" or the "Princess and Prince of Hoenn" since our younger days.

Let me tell you about the contest world. It was a beautiful place where people shared the enchanting and charming of our Pokémon. They are the stars, but the coordinators put their effort too. We prepare our pokéblocks with appropriate berries. As coordinator I had to learn a lot and it was in that fascinating career I meet your daddy. He was a coordinator, auntie Diddie, Zoey, Solidad, Harley, and others were too. Some of them are not anymore with us.

" Mmm... You love this child more than me?"

"Absolutely..."- said the young girl carrying the boy in her arms while humming a lullaby.

"Well, me too, May."- he kissed her temple.

Drew loves you, he missed you and he had it harder than me because he had to be the strongest for us. That's why I ask you to please forgive him for the light slap he gave it to you.

He did not want to do it. I swear.

It hurt me watching it and it hurted him too.

But when you called Misty: "You are My mom, not that woman who left me so much time"

and looked at me with those eyes as cold as a forest frozen in an ice shard, you broke my heart like a peak of a swallow beating hard a fragile glass.

"Zephyr, don't go!"

"..."

"Let me explain it!"

"Zephyr, it's an orden, listen to her."

It is all my fault for been the same crybaby Drew never like me see me hurt. This is not fair, why something as terrible as that happened to us?

I think on other families and they stay together but your expression. Those beautiful but cold green eyes, looking at me like you don't have feelings anymore.

But I don't believe it!, You always try to hide what you feel, I know it because you are ours.

I know you because I had you in my belly for 8 months 25 days. And for 4 years I have hugged you and kissed you. We went to the park all sunday, and when you whined for a toy, it was Drew who ended buying all of them within all the candies you wanted.

And when you were tired, he leaned down and asked you if you want him to carry you on his shoulders.

"You see it better, right?"

"Yep, thanks daddy."

Do you know?...

You got his looks but with my hair color. I see you like good nice clothes, that was from me. But you have his elegance at battling.

Zephyr, you got some things from me too. I'm sure you still love traditional soup and still you hesitate a lot to express your fears.

"Mommy, I'm... I- don't like lightning!"

"Come here, there is nothing to be ashamed."

"Not?"

"Yeah, a part of learning is to face your fears is to accept them first."

My baby, I adored you so much that from the first time I got you in my arms and when this nightmare ends you'll start your path. I still remember all things we did it together. You were so small, I still remember the time you started with nicknames thanks to Harley. I hope he's okay too.

"Me as champion of our dear Kanto, I just...I just give the message to all our trainers of tomorrow...

Do not...do not follow the coordinating path..."

Watching a person who was a closed friend of us saying those words... I felt it like it was a big treason. But all of that had a reason. I believed in that and your father too.

It all started with Mr. Contesta's mysterious accident. Then it was...No, I don't want to remember and I'm not writing all the cruelest staff. All has been an endless tragedy, a nightmare.

And you are right, Misty protected you all these years. She took the same example like Ash's mom. But I wanna know that we returned to the same place, two years later but we did not find you. We tried to find you at the same time we trained and trained to protect you.

You were so small to remember the songs I used to sing to you all nights before I had to leave you. If Drew just told me what was happening, what he found out before this mess. We'll never had taking the flight, or maybe I would not have part at his side.

Drew, he never liked see me crying, but he had to live with that everyday. Sometimes I caught him with his face down and hiding his eyes with a hand. I know he misses you too. He never said it but he really did it.

Drew told me: I'll do it something, I promise.

Aura is May, your mom, I wanted to tell you many times.

"Good afternoon, miss Aura. Your blaziqueen is so strong"

"You chose a torchic?" My heart you made me happy there.

"This torchic will evolve in that, right?"

"Yeah but you must train a lot."

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"Tell me... How old are you?"

"My love, tell auntie Didi, how old are you?"

"2", the little boy raised his left hand showing his fingers.

"12." He smirked.

We always loved you all this time.

I want you know that your daddy, he also was thinking on you, but he tried it not to say it.

You don't know that after that fatidical day, we were lost without nothing more than our Pokémon.

-"When will you come back?"

-"In one week. Please obey your godparents, right?" "Ash, please take care of my baby."

-"Of course, May.."

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I'm not gonna write this: There was no night when I could not stop crying for not being at you side. I'll put this instead, "We missed you so much that even we are not the best parents in the world and maybe you felt we abandoned you but it never happened. We really thought on you everyday, and we tried to find you.

"I miss my Zephyr... He's crying now for his mommy. I can feel him...I need to be at his side."

When he approached us and told us to hide I protested, but then he told us not to be so careless, that we were Dead, we were the target of those despicable beings. If we appeared again in your life, we'll be putting you at risk.

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Sincerely, whatever happens tomorrow, I just wanna you know we love you and everything we made until now was for protecting you from the evil being that caused so much pain to our friends, family and our own world.

Our contest world.

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" I never told you May, I have 3 children- The oldest is a great man, he is so noble, he always visits me. I used to have problems with the second. He did not take well my divorce. I still don't know if my young boy had forgive me completely, but I want you tell him. I always loved him.

"Please give this to him."

She was a friend of mine. I remember she gave me a photo and a letter. I had met that boy before the flight and obviously Dawn knows him too. Thinking in their not happy ending, the solely idea, my friend not gained her forgiveness from her child, a boy. No, a man now.

"No, I don't wanna end the same with you."

I Do... I love you, I love you, we love you so much. We sacrificed a lot to fight and this will be our last effort.

We left you all our friends. Take care of them please. Sorry, but Blaziken is coming with me tomorrow.

Decide what your heart tells you, to the future Pokémon trainer or coordinator.

If you chose our same path, I'll make sure that you'll find your place tomorrow too.

Whatever you chose to do, we'll always be at your side, cuz you are forever our dear silver wind from the east to run us to the sky.

Atte.

Your parents.

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Angst,

This can be like the intro for my next fanfic.

I'm gonna be writting this when I got finished FDN. This is also is a dedication to young people who become parents but decide to take such a brave decision and responsibility. A bittersweet story where May and Drew had to be apart from their precious child. I'll be writing this story at the same time of the second part of FDN being this like a second sequel. Having Contestshipping as the main couple.