So I'll leave the night light on, in hopes that you will find your way, and make it safely home,

And in the eye of the storm, our love will be the only thing, that keeps us holding on,

'Cause I'm a lost river that'll never reach the sea, when you're not here with me, when you're gone,

I'm sick to my bones, I don't feel natural, without you I'm not whole, when you're gone

Hugging Allison feels strange, in all honesty. She's not even sure why Allison hugs her. They've never been all that close, but they haven't spoken at all in the past ten years. As she's pulling away she sees Diego with a woman she remembers being named Eudora. She recalls meeting her a few years ago by accident. She'd just happened to be walking down the same street as Diego and Eudora, headed in opposite directions when their paths crossed. The woman is nice enough but Vanya's surprised that Diego brought her to the house. It's not like the place has anything good to share. Honestly, if she really liked someone, she'd keep them as far away from this place as she could.

When Diego says that she doesn't belong there she can feel a sharp pain in her chest. He's angry with her and it hurts. Eudora looks uncomfortable until Allison and Klaus get her talking about her work and shallow personal information. They're the best two for the job.

After a while, Diego hasn't come back and Vanya finds herself worried about him. She slips away and walks through the old familiar hallways and finds him in his old room. It surprises her that he would even come here. She doesn't think there's anything about this place that he'd want to remember or anything special that he'd left behind.

She raps on the doorframe carefully and waits for him to turn around before speaking. "You okay?"

Slipping into the room, she partially closes the door, giving him a chance to accept or reject her invitation to talk. She's not even sure why she thinks he'd want to talk to her except that they used to be close. Once upon a time.

"Why are you here?" Diego asks her and if it weren't for his words she'd relish the fact that he's talking to her at all. She's missed him so much.

"It's his funeral, Go." She's hoping that the old, hated yet loved nickname will soften him towards her but his eyes narrow instead.

"And?" Diego crowds her but she knows he's only doing it to make her turn tail and run. He's always liked pushing people until they snap or leave. "I was pretty sure you didn't care."

His body presses to hers but she doesn't give an inch, despite her heart thumping rapidly in fear and nervousness. She's never been scared of Diego, only of what he can make her feel. How much he can make something hurt while being worth it. He'd once told her that nothing is worth it unless it makes you bleed a little, physically or emotionally. Vanya raises her chin and stares into his eyes. It's an awkward angle but she makes it work.

"Just because he didn't care doesn't mean that I don't. He was still my father, as much as I hate to say it." Her voice is low and it pains her to say it. She doesn't want to admit to loving Sir Reginald. To caring about him despite his treatment of her, of all of them.

"Why can you love him and not me?" She's startled into moving. That's not what she expected to come from him. He keeps his anger so close, always has. She never expected him to be so desperate in seeking an answer and she never expected to hear that kind of need from him in relation to her. She knows that he loved her at one point but she figured he was long over it. He's with Eudora, after all, and has been for a while as far as she can tell.

Diego reaches out and grabs her, pulling her to a stop only a few inches from him. Her step back had been a very small step.

"Tell me."

She doesn't want to voice this. Today is filled with too much hurt for her to bear anymore. But she knows that if she walks away now that she may never get another chance. Diego will close himself off even further. And somehow, somehow, she knows that the intruder is him. The person to touch her violin and cover her up with a blanket is him. She doesn't know how she's so certain but she is.

And if she doesn't talk now, that will end. Diego will be done with her for good. Forever.

"I've always loved you." She tells him finally. He should know this and she doesn't know, doesn't understand how he can't. "Always, Diego. But neither of us could be trapped in this house and that's exactly what would have happened. You would've wanted me to stay to protect me and I would have. And I couldn't."

"I would've gone with you." His words are desperate and filled with conviction but she knows the truth.

"No. You wouldn't have. You only left because there was nothing here for you anymore. And you needed out just as much as I did."

A tear slips down her cheek and Diego catches it on his thumb, wiping it away as he cups her jaw. She needs him to know that she didn't want to hurt him and she doesn't know how to voice that. He moves closer and she sucks in a breath as his hand slides from her bicep and up into her hair, cupping the back of her head as his fingers lightly tug her hair.

"Don't." She doesn't know if she's saying don't do this or don't stop. She has no idea what she means but she knows what she wants.

He presses his forehead with her and she doesn't know if she's disappointed or relieved. She does know that it's difficult to be this close to him again after so long. She releases her breath shakily, hoping he doesn't notice. Her eyes close of their own accord as she relishes the feel of him against her, in front of her, holding her. She lifts her hands and grips his forearms to keep herself from falling to the floor as her knees weaken. She thinks about using her hold as leverage to bring them that last little bit closer but she can't do it. She needs to stop this before someone gets hurt.

"Do you remember the last time we were in here together?" Diego asks her and she does. The want that flares in her steals her air as her eyes move from the desk to the bed and back again. Her fingers clench against him as she remembers how he'd pressed her into the desk with dark eyes and lips pressed into a firm line. She'd thought he was angry until the corner of his lip tilted up and he'd pressed his mouth to hers. She'd gasped for air after he kissed her breathless, picking her up to sit her on the desk.

Vanya releases her grip as her cheeks flame with heat and she hopes he didn't notice but she knows he did. He always notices.

"We shouldn't be here." She tells him instead and his eyes fly open as he pulls back. Her eyes dart around the room again and she tries not to remember how he'd held her so close in that bed, nearly every inch of their bodies touching as they wrapped around each other for the first and last time.

Suddenly, she's pulled from the bittersweet memory as she's turned in such a familiar way, her butt hitting the edge of the desk, and she vaguely wonders if she's going to have a bruise. She grips the edge as Diego presses into her space, her back bending as she tries not to fall backwards or give in and touch him.

His large and calloused hands press against the surface of the desk by her hips and she feels trapped, caged in. And she likes the feeling of someone else taking control. She turns her head and counts to ten, trying to breath. To catch any kind of air at all in her lungs as she feels the space around her filling and getting smaller by the second.

"Van-ya." She wants to hit him and kiss him for using that tone. Her head whips back and her eyes flash to his. But she doesn't have the time to say anything as his lips meet hers roughly. Her brain scrambles at the sensation. His hands stay on the desk but the rest of his body is pressed to hers all the way down she keeps her grip and presses back against his kiss, letting that constant loneliness start to seep away.

He must hear the footsteps at the same time as she does because they both turn towards the now open door. Her cheeks flame once again as she sees Luther, Allison, Klaus, and Five? Standing at the door. Realizing that Eudora is missing, Vanya hears the front door slam and pushes Diego away as she slips from between him and the desk and escapes.

Vanya pushes past her siblings and runs down the hallway and through the house until she gets to her dad's study. She's suddenly stopped by her body colliding with another and her and Five go tumbling to the ground. Her embarrassment is stronger than her surprise, though, and she quickly shoves up and away.

"Don't worry. Klaus is distracting Luther and Allison." Five tells her and Vanya can't help but laugh.

Then, she's throwing her arms around her long-lost brother and squeezing tightly, hoping he doesn't disappear from her arms. She can feel the tears slipping down her cheeks from an overload of sensation and information. She's overwhelmed with everything. Her dad's death, Diego, Five's return, everyone finding out about Diego. It's all too much at once.

"I, uh, I have to go home." She tells Five as she grabs some tissues off of her dad's desk and wipes her face carefully, not wanting her mascara to smear and give her the appearance of a deranged raccoon.

Apparently, she doesn't do so well because Five pops away and pops back, a damp linen handkerchief in his hand. He moves forward and slowly helps to fix her smeared makeup before throwing the cloth on Sir Reginald's desk, heedless of what it falls on.

"I'll walk with you to get a cab." Five tells her. He knows he won't want to make the call from the house and then have to wait.

They leave the house together and head for the payphone on the corner.

Just as her hand grabs the door of the booth to open it, an arm reaches out and a hand grabs her bicep, spinning her around. She barely catches the grin on Five's face and the steely look of determination on Diego's before his arm is around her lower back like a steel bar and his other hand is gripping her face as his mouth presses to hers.

Her eyes are closed but she catches a flash of light that lets her know that Five disappeared and she can't help but smile against Diego's lips.

There's a lot of ground to cover, a lot that has happened over the past decade, and they'll have to talk about it. They'll have to deal with Luther and Allison, maybe Mom and Pogo, too. Klaus probably won't care and Five obviously doesn't, either. But she pushes all of that away in favor of sinking into the feeling of Diego pressed against her, his mouth on hers, after so long apart.

And for the moment, all feels right. The numbness fades as does the sadness and fear. Her loneliness seeps away under the press of another warm body against hers as they stand on the street corner near the Academy and the drizzle eases and the clouds part as sunlight starts to stream down from above.

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