Hi everyone.

I'm really sorry for not updating for so long but I'm going through really tough times and somehow I felt like the more I wrote the worse it got so I can't say that I'm back 100% but I'll try my best.

In the mean time I have a little game for you :D guess whom the thoughts belong to at the end of the chapter :D ( I really hope that at least one person comments their guess because you know me I'm awkward )

Soo here it is hope you enjoy it.

Alec's pov.

Luckly Ariana seemed like she would be able to sleep through the whole night. I feared that her earlier experiences might hunt her in her dreams but this wasn't the case and I was thankful.

It was never my intention to hurt her and break her away from her family but I was too selfish and careless. The happiness I felt next to her clouded my mind and I made mistakes. Grave mistakes which could have gotten her killed.

However luck was by my side this once and we've both made it out alive. I only feared for her life but slight indicators showed that my life was on the line as well for betraying my Masters.

I despised Aro for his little display of power, I despised how he always got the last word to say but I just wanted to rip Caius apart when he touched my Ariana.

Ariana snapped me out of it again when she stirred in her sleep and hugged herself close to my body.

It was close to the time I normally woke her but I just couldn't bring myself to do it wanting to let her mother wake her for the last time so I slipped away from her gathering my cloak and gloves leaving through her balcony door.

Her mother's sleep wasn't as peaceful and restless as her children's. I could hear her turning and trashing until four in the morning when she decided to get up waiting until six when she started to make calls and arrange appointments.

She made her way towards my mate's room knocking on her door before entering. The little noise didn't bother Ariana the slightest bit making her mother smile and sit on her daughter's bed caressing her cheek with one hand trying to wake her, succeeding after a minute or so.

"Good morning honey." She said in a calm tone, her nervousness was well hidden but both Ariana and I saw through it. "I have talked to your doctor. He let us have a visitation with him this afternoon."

Ariana only nodded with a sad smile on her face.
"Thank you mom." She sat up facing towards her wall instead of her mother. "I guess, I'll get ready for school now."

"No honey, I've talked to your headteacher as well and I told him that you are not in the state of visiting school for an unknown amount of time." Her mother confessed.
"So you are planning on leaving me with the psychopaths in a mental hospital?" Asked my mate surprising me with the tone she hit.

"It's not up to me to decide." Said her mother sternly. "Telling me the truth about not taking your medication and that you had problems would have been more effective and we wouldn't be here now."

"Sure." Mumbled Ariana defeated. "Can I go back to sleep if I'm not allowed to go to school nor anywhere else?"
"Of course." Nodded her mother.
"Thank you, I love you have a nice day." She said pulling back the covers on herself as her mother stood up to leave.
"You'll make it sound old by saying it too many times." Said her mother placing a kiss on her head. "Bye honey."
"Bye mom."

Ariana's pov.

Alec was back in my room by the time the door was closed behind my mother looking at me, clearly waiting for an explanation.

"It was the easiest way to make her believe I ran away." I said shrugging my shoulders. "It's not like I haven't tried to escape from the doctor before." His eyes almost fell out of their sockets so I decided to explain.

"Don't look at me like you haven't thought about how to make my disappearance or death seem believable. I'm just pulling an old card by running away." I said making his emotions scramble all over the place raging from agony, sadness, loss, embarrassment, sorry and worry.
"I just don't know how to do it. I don't want them thinking I'll come back once." I said while he paced around in my room from one wall to the another. ' A fake car accident with her ID and passport should do it, but what happened to her in one night ? She was screaming and cursing yesterday, she couldn't have changed her mind.' He thought making me nod in approval.

"That's good enough." I said standing up pulling a big suitcase out from under my bed opening it after I made sure everyone left the house. "This is something I can't change nor I want it to change." 'WHAT?'
"Alec, it fucking kills me to leave them okay? I love them with all my heart but I'm causing them to much trouble with all the secrets and the lies." "It's all my fault."
"No, it's not. As I said it kills me to leave them but I don't know how could I possibly endure losing you. You might have been in my life for just a year or so but you mean everything to me." I said putting another pile if clothes into the suitcase.
" I know you thought about sending me off to God knows where and try to 'save' me but no. Also I'm totally not on board with the idea of running away until I'm a human. I want to be next to you. Like it or not I'm sticking around."

The next second I was swept of my feet in a bone crushing hug.
"How did she mature so much in just a night?" He asked himself.
"Don't worry I'm still the same brat I was two days ago." I said packing his lips making him smile.
"I'm not really sure if I like it or not that you can read my every thought." He said finally speaking up.
"It makes me tired so you have to keep on using your voice." I said placing a photoalbum on the top of my clothes.
"I guess I'm ready to go. I just have to get myself ready." I said looking at the pjs I wore.
"Did you change me?" I asked blushing from the thought making a smirk appear on his lips.
"Maybe." He was still smirking as he sat down on my armchair making me want to wipe it off of his face.

"Liked what you saw?" I asked in an innocent tone bending down to his level completely aware of the amount of cleavage I was showing.
"Fool me once, shame on me." He said while he picked me up and ran to the bathroom. "Try to fool me the second time, shame on you." He said before disappearing from my sight.

"I'm pretty sure that the saying says that I'd fool you twice." I said to the door he closed behind himself earning myself a laugh from him.

By the time I finished with my shower and I dressed up Alec was waiting for me in the kitchen trying to make breakfast for me but failing miserably.
"What's this supposed to be?" I asked hiding a smile.
"Scrambled eggs." He said while looking at his creation.
"You know that you don't really need to put the eggshells nor milk into the mix?" I asked taking a step closer to the stove.
"It's not my fault they break so easily." He said emptying the pan's contents into the bin. "At least I really tried." He said shrugging his shoulders.

Alec's pov.

"Come on I swear I'll catch you." I said as Ariana was getting ready to jump from her balcony.
"I don't get why didn't you just break down the front door." She said grumpily.
"Bacause it's not nice to break doors, also we are staging your run away not your kidnapping." She rolled her eyes but pulled both of her legs over the railing.
"You swear you'll catch me right?"
"I swear on my life."
"You're practically dead."
"On your life then." I said appearing next to her and jumping down with her in my arms with a grin on my face. "Did you really think I'd let you jump?"

"Uhm.. no?" She asked with a blush.
"I don't have to be a mind reader to know when you lie." I told her while I approached my car, opening the door for her.
"Huh." She said intervening our fingers.

"Can you tell me how today will go?" She asked nervously looking down into her lap. "I want to be prepared." She explained making me think about my own change. "It hurts like hell.'
"That's the reason I want to know." She said really quietly.
"Yes, it hurts but I know you'll make it through. Humans can be changed into vampires by a vampire's venomous bite. I've already told you that human memories fade over time but this isn't, you will remember it until the end of time, in fact this will be your clearest human memory. The venom will enter your bloodstream as soon as you are bitten and it will travel through your whole body reaching every last cell in the process. As I said and you heard it hurts like hell, it feels as if you are burned alive." I chuckled humorlessly. " The venom enters through the arteries, in fact the duration of the change which varies between two to five days depends on how much venom and how close to the heart it enters your bloodstream. From the arteries it will travel all the way to your heart from where it pumps through again until it reaches your veins burning them in the process. The transformation is long lasting because the venom is much thicker then blood."

"I think I get it now." She nodded in understanding trying to process it all. "You will change me right?" 'I can't '
"What do you mean you can't?" She asked in a slightly historical tone.
"We are not allowed to sire newborns, it's something only the Masters can do." I explained trying to calm her. "Marcus will change you therefore claiming you as a part of his own guard."

"Somehow he sounds much better than blondie." She said trying to make herself believe that it wouldnt be so horrible.
"He is better. Marcus was successful everytime he changed someone. In fact hs was the one to change me." I told her truthfully.
"But you are on Aro's guard, aren't you?" She asked furrowing her eyebrows.
"I would have died if he hadn't intervened. Jane was still being changed by Aro when my heart was about to give in. He never really cared about power so he never asked for me." I answered rolling into the underground garage.

"Are you ready?" I asked before opening my door.
"As ready as I'll ever be." She said pulling on smile. "But can you somehow be less worried tho? I'm not saying that you are worried you know I just feel like you need to calm down a bit." She said making me shake my head.
"I'm not worried." I said trying to sound calm as I pushed the elevator's button.
"Like hell you aren't." She said rolling her eyes.

Ariana's pov.

Pain.
That's all I am right now. Agony beyond anything I've felt before, beyond I've ever imagined, beyond enduring, beyond me, beyond everything.

The burning feeling that started from my left wrist is now everywhere. Tormenting me from the inside burning me up, never killing me just for it to start again.

My consciousness was long gone I couldn't register the voices talking to me, I don't even know whose blood curdling screams I was hearing or I maybe i was just imagining them.

Another wave of pain shot through me, another scream, cracking of bones maybe. I couldn't breathe anymore fire was everywhere. This must be my punishment for abandoning my family.

I want the pain to stop, I need it to stop, it's unbearable. I have no idea how to stop it but I have to stop it immediately.
I failed everytime. I can't stop it but the pain is still spreading through me and it's beyond enduring. I beg for someone to kill me but noone can hear me. Every part of me, every last cell of my body was screaming for someone to end me.

I can't do this. Pain. Again this wawe was even stronger than the last making me scream in agony.

I couldn't register how much time had passed. Decades or centuries maybe a millennia. What is it's just minutes or seconds?

I'm trapped inside my mind not hearing anyone for the first time while this burning takes over. Then it got worse when my mind was attacked. Daggers, bright white daggers shot through it ripping it to shreds rearranging it just to torture me again.

The pain seemed to go on for forever, I'd never find the release of death which I desperately wished for inside of this.

I was momentary relived when the pain finally moved from my mind letting me register a soft murmur and the touch of someone I loved. My relief was short lived as I heard myself scream like I have never before and I felt my lungs give in and air left my lungs.

The voice was louder now. I tried to concentrate on what he was saying as he somehow calmed me. He was muttering apologies and saying that I can do it.

I desperately tried to listen to the voice grabbing into his hand for dear life as it was my anchor to sanity.

The voice stayed by me the whole time shooting me while giving me hope. I wanted to believe him. He was assuring me that it would end soon.

The burning was now fading from the periperia. Maybe this would finally end now? My hope was yet again vanished when it all came back concentrating on my fluttering heart. It has been beating trice as fast as it was supposed to be but now it was beating slower and slower until it had its last one.

"She'll wake any minute now!"
"The girl took her time but Aro might be right about her in the end."
"What power!"
"She made through the change."
"Welcome to the family, Psycho."
"Ariana."

I don't understand. My heart isn't beating anymore, yet I still hear people talking around me. Oh no, am I ghost? Is this really afterlife? I thought it must be more exciting than to spy on everyone. If I can't talk to them what's the point?

I felt the last bits of pain move to my throat and find it's permanent place there making me want to wrap my hands around it to ease the burning.