FAGE 1. Are You In…?

Title: I Want What They Have

Written for: Daphne Rene/ DaphneRene

Written By: Alyscia

Rating: M (Language)

Summary: Edward Cullen's life revolves around his daughter and his job but when he is around his family, he feels that he is missing out on what they have. Can Bella Swan be what he is missing?
Prompt used: Firefighter/Single DILF

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EPOV

I am not a perfect dad, my chosen profession risks my life and has me away forty-eight hours a lot of the time.

When I first found out about my baby girl I was ecstatic. I was going to be a dad. Kate didn't want to be a mom, and that was ok. We weren't in love; we had a drunken one night stand. I took full custody on a warm spring day. Samantha Nichole Cullen came into the world at eight pounds six ounces.

It was easy using my trust fund money to make sure I had the best of the best for my girl. I hired Mrs. Cope to be my nanny.

She was perfect, a bit older than my mom but she was feisty and made sure we were always on schedule.

Then we noticed she began to forget things; she wouldn't remember appointments, then what day it was. I called her daughter letting her know what was happening and together we took her to the doctor.

She got diagnosed with Alzheimer's.

Her daughter helped me out for a month to give me time to find a nanny to replace her mother.

That was six months ago.

I got home from a forty-eight-hour shift; my girl was in school, so I assumed Marci was doing her own thing. I went into my room to crash for a few hours.

"Mr. Cullen, I have been waiting for you." Marci was naked sprawled out on my bed.

I drop my bag on the floor and turn away, "Damn it Marci get some clothes on." I hissed trying to scrub her nude image from my brain.

It was awkward when she got dressed. She thought I wanted her because of how nice I have been to her since I hired her.

"Marci, I am nice because you work for me." I try to remain calm as she tries to touch me.

It doesn't go over well, and she quits.

Shit.

She packs her stuff and leaves, leaving me thinking about how I am going to explain to my mom why she has to help me out again.

My mom, Esme Cullen, is a sought out architect. And she loves her job.

Not that anyone in my family needs to work both, of my parents come from old money. And they set trust funds up for each one of their kids.

But she and my father didn't like sitting around twiddling their thumbs. My father is a world-renowned cardiologist.

They instilled in my brother, sister and I that we should be doing something to contribute. My brother Emmett has the number one construction company in the northern hemisphere. My sister Alice has her clothing line and owns several boutiques around the country.

I text my mom while changing out of my clothes and know that I need to pick up my princess from school.

It wasn't five minutes before my phone starts to ring.

"Hi, mom."

"Are you kidding me right now."

My hand grabs the back of my neck, "No I am not."

She sighs on the other end, "What happened?"

I explain to her what Marci did. "I swear ma, I didn't do anything to make her think that was ok."

I hear laughing come from her end, " It's not that funny." I deadpan.

"I know darling, it's just you don't see your appeal. Look, I will help you out, but I will be helping you pick out the next nanny. I will have interviews set up for your next set of days off."

"Alright." I conceded knowing that I should have had let her help me the couple times before.

This wasn't the first time that a nanny quit. It's the third nanny in the six months since Mrs. Cope had to leave us.

"Bring my baby girl over for dinner tonight."

I agree and hang up with her in time for me to go pick my princess up from school.

I debate sending my girl to a high-class private school, but in the long run I wanted her to have as normal an upbringing as possible. I regret that decision every time I come to pick her up just because of the moms that are here waiting for their kids.

They all look at me like I am something to eat.

"Hi Edward, Bethy was asking when we could hang out with Sammy. What do you think? You free tomorrow?" Karla sashays up to me, touching my arm.

I internally shudder. Thank god my Sam hates Bethy. I have raised my girl to like everyone, but she says Bethy is mean and picks on everyone. And with a mother like Karla, I believe it.

"I don't know Karla I will have to consult with my Sam and see what she wants to do," I grunt moving away from her hands.

I see Sam walking out with her best friend, Todd. Much to my chagrin, her best friend is a boy. But Todd is a terrific kid that comes from busy parents who shuffle him around a lot.

Sam is wearing pink overalls with her pink chucks and piggy tails. Her green eyes spot me, "Daddy!" she squeals, running into my arms.

"Hey princess" I pick her up swinging her around.

"Where is Marci?"

I internally sigh, "She wanted to do something else, so she quit baby girl." hoping that Sam doesn't get too upset. She didn't seem to have that much of an attachment with Marci.

Sam giggles, "Did she try to kiss you like Miss Danelle?"

I groan thinking about the nanny we had before Marci. "No princess she didn't."

"Nanna watching me again till we find another nanny?"

I nod my head.

"Nana wants us over to dinner tonight too."

"Yes! That means I get cookies for dessert."

I snort shaking my head as I strap my daughter in and head towards my parent's estate.

As we pull in, I see my siblings' vehicles are here too. "It looks like the whole clan has gathered baby girl."

She giggles, "Good, aunty Alice and I have to discuss my clothing options. I need more."

I park and look at my princess "You have more clothes than any girl your age Sam."

She raises her brow, "How do you know daddy, have you been to other girls' houses?"

My daughter gets her smartass mouth from my sister in law. "You know baby girl- you are lucky I love you."

Jasper is sitting in the kitchen drinking a beer with my dad and brother. Jasper is my best friend. We met when were sixteen. It was our first weekend as cadets, and we got bathroom duty.

I smack him on the back, "Where is my sister?"

Jasper spills some beer on himself, "Dammit Edward, you are as bad as your brother. She's with the other ladies in the other room whispering up a storm."

My head falls back as I laugh. "You are such a woman, man."

Sam leaves and goes to her aunts and nana to have her girl time while I drink a beer with the guys.

Jasper talks about the rumor he's heard that we are going to be getting a new chief. Emmett talks about the new contract he has with some Japanese company, and my dad says he might be promoted to surgical chief.

It's not long before my mom is setting the table and we sit down and eat. During the meal, Emmett and Rose announce that they are expecting.

I couldn't be happier for them, they had been trying for a long while.

It's moments like this that it makes it apparent that I lack in one area in my life. I don't have what my siblings have or my parents. I don't have a partner.

When I am home tucking in my princess, she asks me the question that I have dreaded for a long time.

"If it takes a mommy and a daddy to make a baby, how come I don't have a mommy?"