Real quick. This is in an AU where after the Kamino Incident and All Might gave is Signature "Now it's your Turn" speech to Izuku, he dropped on the ground and died. After the events of The rematch between him and Bakugou and Overhaul. He starts to have nightmares and suffers from depression and anxiety. This would be a fairly long series depending if you guys like it or not, beware this is my first ever fan fic so if there's cringe, my bad. And there's going to Be some references to media outside of anime and it's going to delve into IzukuxToga ship. Anyway, ENJOY!

P.S this will have ALOT of swearing and well... Ecchi/Adultness.

This is how i lost my will (Chapter One)

3rd Person

It was a Saturday Afternoon in the Dorms Of UA. There was no training, excerises Aizawa planned for his class so everybody spent the day relaxing. Kirishima was watching WWE with Kaminari and Todoroki, Mineta was reading a playboy magazine; Asui, Tokoyami, Toru and Sero were playing Super Smash Brothers, Ashido and the rest of the girls were in the Kitchen talking, Aoyama was watching Rupuals Drag Race with Kota and Iida was of course, studying. Uraraka came back down stairs after her shower, Mineta looked at her with lust filled eyes, followed by Asui smacking him with her tongue.

"I saw that Mineta you pervert."

"It is unwise to stare at a lady Like that! That is highly disrespectful! Apologize!" Iida yelled,Karate chopping the air. Mineta got out of the chair he was in and stood on the Table. "Nothing will stop me for achieving my lewd dreams! I will see every girls body in here even if it kills me! That will make me a Harem King!! So come here Uraraka!!!" (High School DxD reference and the only one) Mineta ran across the table, ready to pounce on her like a Wild beast eyeing its prey; only to be stopped by Seros tape. He wrapped him up in the tape so he would not move. Sero dragged him off down the hallway, and through him in the room, followed by Todoroki melting the hinges shut so he could no escape.

"Ugh. Despicable! How could such a pervert even get into UA!?"

"I know right! Why would Mr. Aizawa let that creep in the class?"

"Agreed" The girls chimed in about Mineta and his pervertedness. Uraraka, however, did not seem to care. She only had the look of worry in her eyes. Kirishima saw this and looked at her.

"Hey Uraraka. Are you o-"

"IM BACK YOU FUCKING NERDS!" A loud bang came the front door followed by a small explosion. They immediately recognized who it was, it was Bakugou. As he walked into the common area, he saw Uraraka talking with Kirishima and the other boys.

"Oh hey man. How was the movie?" Kaminari asked while watching WWE SuperSlam.

"It was... THE SHIT!!! Avengers was fucking awesome! Corvous Glave was Fucking badass!" Bakugou yelled out as smoke started to sleep through his palms. They couldn't tell if he was excited or mad since he always had the same look on his face, after all this is Bakugou.

"LANGUAGE BAKUGOU" Iida yelled.

"YOU WANNA GO FOUR EYES!?"

"Enough. Both of you are acting like children. Wait a sec... where's Midoryia?" Todoroki asked while looking around. Ever since The Kamino incident and the overhaul raid, Izuku has became drastically different. He fought different, almost like Stain. He stopped coming out to the common area, and at lunch, he eats by himself. Everybody was worried for their friend, Midoryia was one they always counted on, the one they knew he was the first one in and the last one out in any situation. The one who took it the hardest was his girlfriend, Uraraka. (Yes they are together in this AU) they have started to date after what happened in the Training grounds when the League Of Villians attacked. Even though Midoryia was happy around her, there was that void she knew that lingered in him that only grew over time.

"It's been over A year now... all he does is go to school and stay in his dorm. Hell he barely talks to us." Uraraka said as tears started to roll down her face. A loud bang was heard in the middle of room, followed by Bakugou running down the hallway screaming and laughing.

"SHUT UP ROUNDFACE! IF YOUR PATHETIC BOYFRIEND DOESNT WANT TO TALK. ILL MAKE HIS ASS TALK!" The other students tried running after to stop him but it was too late. He was already in Izukus dorm.

Izuku POV

I sat up in my bed, cold sweat running down my face. Again, I had another nightmare. This time it was All Might telling me that it's my turn to finish what he started, to fight against the evil that still plagued the streets. Then it always changes to a massacre as I saw my friends and my mother all being defeated by Nomus and other League members, then it ends with All for One offering me a hand and saying the exact line over and over again. "You see? Hero society. Are biased." What could that even mean? I kept asking my self. I opened up my night stand and took out my anti depressants and Anxiety medication. I hate taking these. But the state I'm in right now, I'm afraid of what will happen if I don't take them. I laid back down in my bed, trying to motivate myself to get up, until I heard someone yell.

"SHUT UP ROUNDFACE! IF YOUR PATHETIC BOYFRIEND DOESNT WANNA TALK! ILL MAKE HIS ASS TALK!" Of course, it was Kacchan. I hid underneath my blankets so I could not talk to him. An explosive went off in my room, followed by a strong hand grab me and throw me to the ground.

"WAKE UP YA DAMN NERD!!!"

"Bakugou wait!" Kirishima yelled. I looked up and saw my classmates standing in my doorway. They all looked at me with worry written across their face. I activated OFA and pushed Bakugou off of me. He jumped up and walked towards the crowd. I dusted myself off and stood up, looking back at them.

"Midoryia bro? You okay? Come on man." Kaminari asked.

"It's been a while dude" Kirishima followed.

"You need sunlight. You look as pale as a phantom. Ribbit." Asui said after. They are right. I do need to get out, I just don't want to. I can't even motivate my self to get out my damn bed.

"Midoryia... I know it's been a year since.. All Might Died... but you need to cope with it. Being a shut in isn't the answer." Iida said as he looked at my All Might mercy around the room. I didn't wanna hear that right now, I just wanna go sinc he said that.

"I'm fine guys." I forced myself to smile.

"I'm going to go for a run. I'll see you guys later." I didn't even give them a chance to reply, I put on my shoes and ran out the door.

Toga POV

I stood across the building overlooking the Campus of UA and saw my love run out the door, looking fine as hell in the process. I overheard his conversation with his friends, those assholes clearly handled the situation wrong with my Izuku! My phone rang and I answered it, it was a deadpan voice I could easily recognize. It was Dabi.

"Hiya Dabi. What can I do for ya~Su"

"Boss wants ya back here soon as ya can. Hurry up."

"Aww but I got somethang important to tell ya."

"If this is about another dead body, I will seriously Block you Toga."

"Whaaa? Noooo—— Of course not Dabi.. although." I looked behind me at the two blood dry corpses.

Dabi sounded more irritated. He's no fun when he's like that. "What Toga."

"I just saw my baby running out the house. He looked sad. Can I go and cheer him up? I'll be quick~Su"

"You will deal with that later. Come back now"

"Ugh fine." I hung up the phone and looked down the street towards where My baby daddy ran to. "Don't worry Izu , I'm gonna come and make your pain go away."

Sorry this was long. When I write. I really get into writing. I'll keep updating this story for as long as possible. I want it to run long without it being dead.

I DO NOT OWN ANY CHARACTERS. ALL MHA CHARACTERS ARE OWN BY KOHEI HORIKOSHI AND PUBLISHED BY SHONEN JUMP.