AN: I'm going to be honest, this fic is annoying me and so I'm going to put it on hiatus. I wanted to write a longer chapter for you guys but I couldn't. Sorry and I hope you enjoy.

Chapter Fourteen - Reasons

"I don't understand," Kuon whispered as he tried to keep himself calm and his head under control. He didn't want to stress himself out by thinking too much and he was having a harder time comprehending things, even he could say that with confidence. He looked at her. "If that's the reason then why are you here?"

Kyoko shifted. She had followed him across the world and she was starting to see the similarities between Kuon and Shotaro. She looked at him and opened her mouth just a little before shaking her head. "I felt guilty," she said and Kuon paused. He looked at her again, his head making him feel weak.

"I can't deal with this right now," he said before turning in the direction that they would take to go back to the HIzuri house. He loved the water and he didn't want anything bad to happen there. He didn't want to have bad memories at the place where he felt he could heal. "I'm sorry, let's just go…"

"Kuon," Kyoko said as she followed him, "You told me that you were Corn before the accident but I'd been scared. I didn't know what to do. My feelings weren't in control and…"

"and that's….that's…what it is," Kuon said as he started to hear a buzz. "We need to leave."

"You need to give me a chance to explain," Kyoko told him and Kuon started visibly shaking but with the tears filling her eyes, Kyoko wasn't sure whether it was because of the tears that she was seeing him break or if something was physically wrong. No. Corn was strong. Corn had always been strong and she had always seen Ren as strong.

"No," Kuon told her. "We'll talk later. I need for us to go back to the house."

"Because you're angry?" Kyoko asked weakly and Kuon shook his head. It was as if he had just stuck a plug into the wrong socket and as if code was filling his mind. He got down onto his knees, put a hand to his forehead, and collapsed.

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Julie came to the hospital as soon as she learned there was a problem. She felt guilty about Kuon being in this type of a situation. Of course he wasn't doing well. He had gone through things that most people wouldn't be able to live through and he had healed but he still had a lot of healing that he had to go through. She took nervous breaths before closing her eyes and facing the wall.

"Okay, it's okay, he's okay," she tried to remind herself. She tried to keep her breaths steady before hearing a weak chuckle behind her.

"H-Hey," Kuon whispered as he rolled himself out to meet her and Julie gasped. Once again he was in a wheelchair. Had something that bad happened? He turned to him and Julie tried to settle herself enough to sit down opposite him. "Are you…o-okay," he flinched and Julie nodded. She reached out to take Kuon's hand in her own.

"How about you, darling?" she asked, her eyes filling with tears as she tried to hold back the pain that went through her like a waterfall. She breathed slowly and he nodded. "What happened?" she asked before Kyoko walked over to them. Julie looked at her uncomfortably and then turned back to Kuon.

"It's okay," Kuon replied in a whisper that Julie could only hear because she was close enough. She wanted to protest to that. The way that Kuon was right now wasn't okay. He wasn't okay. She wiped her eyes and looked between Kuon and Kyoko again.

"I mean, was it anything unusual that you'd like your father or I to look into?" Julie inquired, she only wanted to do what was best for her baby and being a mother in her situation was stressful. She didn't know what had calmed Kuon down during his early twenties or what he could do for fun. Usually you learned along with your child but she had been gone from a large part of his life.

"I told him," Kyoko said and Kuon shook his head in disagreement, "or I was trying to tell him about the accident."

"I don't wa-wa-nt…talk abo-outtt…it," Kuon said firmly and Julie rubbed his shoulders. She often massaged Kuu's shoulders like this to get the tension out of them and to give him room to feel in control of the stress. She wanted to be able to give Kuon that type of comfort as well.

"I only want to explain that…" Kyoko began but Julie sighed and shook her head.

"I understand that you feel you're helping and I'm not trying to be rude but maybe when we're out of the hospital and maybe not until you both feel ready to talk about what happened that day. I don't want there to be any discomfort between the two of you," she said as she tried to give Kyoko a look to ask her not to approach the subject even further.

To Julie, if Kuon forgot something hurtful and it could be forgotten without much trouble then it was best forgotten. She could understand why Kyoko would want the truth to come out but sometimes the truth was best forgotten and Julie was a vicious lioness trying to take care of her cub.

"I'll go and see your doctor and get the forms for your release," Julie told her son before looking at Kyoko and begged that she didn't continue with these tales from the past. Kuon needed help to heal and although Julie wanted for Kyoko to be able to help him, she was having doubts about the emotional stress that the young woman brought with her especially in relation to her precious Kuon.

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Kyoko felt nervous being in the elegant Hizuri house. She had wanted to spend some time with Kuon and get to know him as a person but she now had the feeling that her presence within this house was actually doing more harm than good. Kuon had made attempts to tell her as Ren and because she was so stubborn, she had been willing to let him go. She wouldn't have chased after him if he hadn't been Corn though she would have regretted it later and had to nurse her own broken and foolish heart. Maybe she was just an imposition on the family whom nobody wanted to insult.

Kyoko sighed and then looked up as Julie came into the hallway. "Julie-san," Kyoko said quickly as she got up and Julie sighed.

"Kuon is talking with his father," she said and Kyoko nodded. "I…did you want to help me in the kitchen?" she offered and Kyoko's eyes widened and she nodded. She could cook. She was always good at preparing meals and helping out with housework. This way she felt like she could be part of the family.

"What are they talking about?" Kyoko asked and Julie shrugged. Kyoko blinked, maybe it was over the line for her to ask what they were discussing. Yes, she was an outsider to the situation. She had to be respectful and show her appreciation at what the family had given her.

"I care about Kuon but he wants to talk to Kuu alone. I'm sure they'll tell me later," Julie said and then turned to Kyoko, raising an eyebrow and saying in a manner that caused Kyoko to take a couple of steps back. "I hope that you weren't planning on eavesdropping."

Kyoko laughed but saw the serious nature of Julie's expression. Once again, she felt uncomfortable with the situation. "I think that maybe I'll take a walk," she said, "Thank you again for everything," she said as she dropped into a deep bow. Julie sighed slightly but then smiled. Kyoko was a good girl who was in a tough situation, she wanted to remind herself not to be too hard on her.

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Kuon looked to his father a little nervously. He had always felt like he wanted to impress his father and live up to the example he had set which was why saying this was so difficult. He didn't want to disappoint the man who had always been his hero. Hopefully his father would understand and would forgive him for this.

"Dad," Kuon said weakly and Kuu nodded.

"Is something wrong?" Kuu asked as he moved towards Kuon and Kuon sighed. The wheelchair made things more difficult now but it wasn't all about the wheelchair and Kuon didn't want his dad to think that that was the problem. He sighed.

"I don't think I want to return to acting," Kuon said and Kuu sighed and shook his head in disbelief. That made Kuon pull back a little bit. His father had been watching him act as Ren Tsuruga and Kuon didn't want to risk being seen as either a failure or a disappointment. "I mean, I don't think that it's for me and…"

"It's about your head?" Kuu guessed and Kuon shook his head. No. It wasn't just because of the painful headaches that he had. His perspective of the world had definitely changed and not for the better. He was doubting his place in the world around him and that was something he shouldn't do. "If it's something medical there are ways around it, accommodations that you can try, not all directors are unreasonable."

Kuon pushed a hand through his hair, "It's more than that. I just don't seem to understand my position in the world any longer. I want to find out what happened that day, what caused me to risk so much."

Kuu sighed, "Kyoko," he shrugged and Kuon turned to him, "If you're wondering what caused you to risk so much, it was Kyoko."

End of Chapter Fourteen

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